and sometimes you fall into the vortex

What the fuck is creative about randomly firing your two dedicated, talented, REPRESENTED kickass female actresses who have spent nearly a decade on developing their characters? How the fuck do you think that shortening your rare female-majority cast will not only gain attention but praise in communities and inspire fellow females??? What the fuck were these dumbasses thinking when they made this call? Did they seriously put minor story arcs (like this bullshit J*ggie nonsense that no one even likes) over further developing already iconic and well-liked fiery, badass females? We already lost Sara Ramirez and Jerrika Hinton, two minority females (one of whom was an amazing representation of the LGBTQ+ community) in the last two years, and now this? How the hell is this a creative move? How the hell will this make your show more appreciated and enjoyed by your fans who watch the show for the CHARACTERS????

You know why I am so fucking mad right now?

Because Arizona was the reminder that she and Callie happened, that once upon a time she bonded with Mark Sloan over the importance of green smoothies in her pregnant girlfriend’s diet. That once she used to be wheeling around in Heelys around the hospital beaming about saving tiny humans, taking the grumpy Alex along this beautiful ride with her. 

And April Kepner? Her character development was so amazingly beautiful to watch and she went from this young girl who put so much pressure on her to be perfect to this selfless, wonderful woman. It was her bickering with Cristina and telling everyone off in Joe’s bar when admitting she was a virgin and her amusing annoyance with Lexie when they were living together and punching  a guy in the face at the hotel bar and bathroom stall sex with Jackson and Arizona and her getting drunk in the supply room that made me fall in love with her little by little, episode by episode.