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(context: the quoted user was ‘live commenting’ about a fanfic they were reading)

https://x.com/goatingaie/status/1794424871465763294?s=46

thanks for reaching out! sayangnya aku sama sekali blm ada keinginan buat nerbitin fiksi jenis apapun di luar yg sifatnya derivatif (fenfik, red.), terlebih untuk target demografi young adult. i’ve outgrown those, so i’m going to have to turn this offer down.

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teteh maaf aku dateng lagi but yes, teh, i have read your all is fair (in love and war), many times as much as i can remember since i was so missing your work. but this time it hits different, knowing the way i feel towards ice's longing gaze during their first encounter, or times after that. at the scene of their first class together at topgun i told my self, they just met, didn't they? or....? yo what did i miss? why do they act like they lost themselves multiple times in previous lifes and now that they met again for the only-god-knows, the nth time, it struck him that maybe it was not meant to be. as long as ice still can be around him anytime, that's enough. loving him from the vicinity was enough (but sometimes being around is proven to be not enough). but then you wrote, "sampaikan salamku ke bayi itik. bilang aku kangen padanya. dan, padamu juga. setiap detikku. ice." ༼⁠;⁠´⁠༎ຶ⁠ ⁠۝ ⁠༎ຶ⁠༽ you got me, again and again; FINALLY, so i thought. now you have him ice but where are you, like physically. why. just why 😭🫵🏻 rasanya kayak lagi berguling dari puncak himalaya, knowing the fact that mav initiated what they have in your fic, kind of, in simplest term (di bayanganku, kalau dia gak jinjit ke muka ice, mereka ga bakal kemana-mana though mav is going to be mav). and their message for me, for now, is that to love is not to let go but sometimes you need to let go. (berasa dikutuk sekaligus being blessed by the phrase "time to let go" dari dua filmnya.) anddddd your fic feeds me well (though maybe i gained the wrong take about all of these) 😭🙏 i know this doesn't make sense, the way all the lines get blurred and mixed up in my head and my essay to you. but i hope this doesn't disturb you. please let me know if i went overboard/made you uncomfortable 🙏

btw, (menanggapi author's note kamu di fic itu) i like your voice in them too, teh. sosososo much. but your writing has always been THAT good in weishin too. so i have been a natural, avid admirer of the way you are so versatile and precise in voicing your narration. and now i am beyond glad that i can finally say, from the bottomest part of my heart: thank you so much for writing icemav 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻 and allow me to tell you also, that your writing never fails (tolong jangan bosen diberitahu fakta seterang ini) 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻 the way you weaponize(?) (karena emang rasanya ku lagi DISERANG, in a good way) both mav's height and character in this fic is truly, top notch (and because they come from you). and please forgive me if i count whatever that is happening there as canon because your telling is too real. i feel their voices and gestures, habit and remarks. the way it fits the gap between the 1986 and 2022 movie as well. miaw. yummy. i think i need to cry about this, again. once i refill my tears successfully.

maaf udah ngelantur & ganggu waktunya, teh 🙏 thank you for replying to me, ilysm. and thank you for being #1 of my fav fanfic writer of all time, thank you for writing, thank you for being you 🫶🏻