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โก A/N: These are my first alphabet headcanons, gaahhh, please forgive me if they're not good enough! My english lowk left as I was writing this, so there might be some mistakes.
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A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)
Matsuda is probably one of the most openly affectionate people in the entire series, not because he's especially smooth or experienced, but because he genuinely cannot hide how much he likes someone once those feelings settle in, and everything from the way his face lights up when he spots you across a room to the way he unconsciously drifts closer whenever you're standing together makes it painfully obvious to everyone except maybe himself.
He's the type to absentmindedly brush lint off your jacket, rest his hand against the small of your back when walking through crowded places without even realizing he's doing it, and smile at you so brightly that people around him start smiling too. Physical affection comes naturally to him once the relationship is established, but emotional affection is somehow even stronger because he's constantly checking in on how you're doing, complimenting things you didn't think anyone noticed, celebrating even tiny accomplishments, and making sure you know over and over again that he appreciates having you in his life.
B = Beginning (How would the relationship start?)
The relationship almost definitely starts because Matsuda accidentally befriends you before he realizes he's falling in love with you, and honestly I don't think he's capable of doing it any other way because romance has never been something he approaches strategically. He'd spend months looking forward to seeing you without understanding why, texting you everyday, asking if you wanted to grab lunch because "everyone else is busy," until one day somebody points out that the two of you basically act like a couple already and his entire brain short circuits. His confession would be incredibly nervous, full of awkward pauses and apologies because he'd be terrified of ruining the friendship, but also unbelievably sincere because every single word would come directly from his heart instead of sounding rehearsed. (Though he was overthinking every word before the confession!)
C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)
Matsuda absolutely loves cuddling in the way someone loves finally coming home after a long day. He's clingier than he'd ever admit out loud, and after particularly stressful days he'd practically melt the second he wrapped his arms around you because physical closeness becomes one of the only things capable of quieting his constantly racing thoughts.
He's the type who starts by asking if it's okay to cuddle because he never wants to assume, but once he's comfortably tucked against you he becomes incredibly difficult to remove, mumbling things like "five more minutes!" whenever either of you has to get up. He likes wrapping both arms around you, resting his chin on your shoulder, playing with your fingers absentmindedly while talking about how his co workers are so mean, and falling asleep halfway through conversations because your presence makes him feel safer than he realizes.
D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)
I honestly think Matsuda dreams about domesticity far more than he admits, because underneath all the excitement and energy is someone who craves stability after spending years working an emotionally exhausting job.
He's not naturally talented at cooking, and he'd absolutely burn something while insisting he followed the recipe exactly, but he'd learn simply because seeing you smile after eating something he made would be worth every failed attempt beforehand. Cleaning is similar, he isn't particularly organized, he definitely leaves things lying around without noticing, but if you asked him to help he'd immediately throw himself into the task with so much enthusiasm that he'd somehow make cleaning the apartment feel like a team activity instead of a chore.
E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)
If a breakup became unavoidable, Matsuda would probably consider it one of the greatest personal failures of his life because he's someone who invests so much of himself emotionally into the people he loves that losing them feels like losing a piece of his everyday happiness.
He would never ghost someone or disappear without explanation because he respects his partner too much for that. Instead, he'd sit down somewhere quiet, struggle through the conversation while clearly trying not to cry, apologize far more than necessary even if the breakup wasn't his fault, and spend more time worrying about whether you're okay than acknowledging how devastated he feels himself.
F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)
Commitment honestly doesn't scare Matsuda nearly as much as the possibility of failing someone does, so once he reaches the point where he's certain the relationship is healthy and happy, marriage becomes something he starts quietly imagining almost immediately. He wouldn't rush into proposing because he'd want to make sure the timing was right, but he'd absolutely catch himself daydreaming about apartments, future vacations, maybe even children, and then get embarrassed because he thinks he's getting ahead of himself! When he finally proposes, it's heartfelt rather than elaborate.
G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)
Matsuda is unbelievably gentle in ways that often go unnoticed because they're woven into his personality rather than performed intentionally. He pays attention to whether you're tired before asking you to do something, lowers his voice instinctively if you seem overwhelmed, moves carefully if you're injured, and always seems to carry this quiet awareness that other people have emotional limits deserving of respect.
Even during disagreements he tries incredibly hard not to raise his voice because making someone he loves feel afraid or unheard would genuinely upset him more than almost anything else.
H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)
He's ABSOLUTELY a hug person.
He would hug you any time, any day. Oh, you're reading a book? Let him just snuggle closer to see what book's in your hands. He greets you with a hug. He says goodbye with a hug. However, ometimes his clinginess can appear annoying... But you can't be angry at this touchy sweetheart, now, can you?
Matsuda hugs with his entire body, squeezing tightly enough to make you feel secure without being uncomfortable, usually mumbling something into your shoulder or resting there for just a few extra seconds because he's never quite ready to let go.
I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)
It takes him longer to say "I love you" than people expect, not because he doesn't feel it quickly, but because those words carry enormous weight for him and he refuses to say them until he's absolutely certain they reflect exactly how he feels.
Once he finally says them, though, they become wonderfully ordinary. He says them before leaving for work, before bed, after you make him laugh particularly hard, after arguments once everything's resolved, whenever he randomly remembers how lucky he feels. To matsuda, love isn't something reserved for special occasions. It's something worth reminding you of every chance he gets.
J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when theyโre jealous?)
He's definitely capable of jealousy, but it usually manifests as insecurity rather than possessiveness. Instead of getting angry at the person flirting with you, he quietly wonders whether he's somehow not enough, whether you're starting to notice all the things he thinks other people do better than him, and he'll become a little quieter until you reassure him that he's still the one you chose. Communication solves almost all of it because Matsuda genuinely wants to trust you more than he wants to indulge his own anxieties.
K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)
His kisses start out incredibly hesitant because he's worried about moving too fast or accidentally making you uncomfortable, but once he grows comfortable they become frequent, playful, and incredibly affectionate.
Forehead kisses become almost second nature whenever he passes by you, temple kisses whenever you're concentrating, little pecks on your cheek just because he's feeling extra lovely today.
He secretly loves receiving kisses on his forehead because something about them makes him feel cherished in a way that's difficult to explain, and every single time you do it he smiles like you've just handed him the greatest gift imaginable.
L = Little ones (How are they around children?)
Children absolutely adore Matsuda because he meets them at their level instead of talking down to them. He's willing to play ridiculous games, make funny faces just to hear them laugh, and somehow always ends up being the adult covered in stickers or convinced to participate in roleplaying with the children.
He's patient enough to comfort crying children without becoming frustrated, and while he occasionally doubts whether he'd make a good parent himself, everyone around him can already see that nurturing instinct comes naturally to him.
M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)
Mornings with Matsuda are always 50/50. One day he's somehow fully awake before you, humming while making breakfast and accidentally burning the toast because he got distracted talking to you. The next day he's tangled in the blankets insisting that five more minutes is definitely enough time before work. He always tries to make mornings feel lighter, whether that's joking around while brushing his teeth, stealing one last hug before leaving, or texting you an hour later because he's feeling bored at work.
N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)
Nighttime is when Matsuda finally allows himself to relax enough for all the emotional exhaustion he's been carrying throughout the day to become visible. He likes talking before bed, not necessarily about anything important, just little conversations about your day, future vacation ideas, strange childhood memories, or whatever random thought wandered into his head.
Falling asleep beside someone he loves becomes one of his favorite parts of the day because it reminds him that no matter how difficult work gets, he doesn't have to face everything alone anymore.
O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)
He's surprisingly open emotionally, but only after trust has been established. At first he shares funny stories, embarrassing memories, harmless anecdotes, but gradually the conversation shifts toward deeper insecurities, regrets, and fears that he rarely discusses with anyone else.
Rather than revealing everything in one dramatic confession, Matsuda opens up naturally over time, almost accidentally, because one honest conversation leads to another until one day you realize he trusts you with pieces of himself that very few people have ever seen.
P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)
Matsuda has a fairly long fuse where the people he loves are concerned because he'd much rather solve problems through conversation than arguments. He gets frustrated with situations more often than with people, and when emotions run high he usually forgets to pause to think before saying something he'll regret.
The rare moments he truly loses his temper are startling precisely because they're so uncommon, and afterward he almost immediately worries about whether he hurt someone unintentionally.
Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)
He remembers things in the most odd way. Birthdays? Of course. Favorite color? Absolutely. But he'll also somehow remember that three months ago you casually mentioned liking a specific pastry from a bakery across town, or that your favorite movie reminds you of your grandmother, or that you always tuck your sleeves over your hands when you're cold.
He isn't the kind of person with a photographic memory, no, he forgets things a lot actually. He just simply pays attention because your happiness matters enough to make those little details important.
R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)
His favorite relationship memory probably isn't some huge milestone. It's something ridiculously ordinary!
Maybe the two of you laughing so hard while grocery shopping that people stared... maybe getting caught in unexpected rain and running home together... maybe falling asleep on the couch during movie night because you were both exhausted.
The little moments become his favorites because they prove happiness doesn't always need extraordinary circumstances. :-)
S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)
Matsuda is protective in an incredibly human way. He isn't trying to look cool or prove how strong he is (well.. most of the times), he simply wants the people he loves to make it home safely.
He walks closest to traffic without thinking, offers you his jacket before remembering he'll be cold himself, insists on accompanying you if it's late at night, and checks that you arrived home safely because otherwise he'll worry for hours. At the same time, he secretly loves when you protect him emotionally too, reminding him to rest, standing beside him when he doubts himself, and making him feel like vulnerability isn't weakness.
T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)
One of Matsuda's greatest strengths is that he NEVER stops trying. He'll plan anniversaries weeks in advance despite acting like he forgot, he'll spend forever searching for gifts that remind him specifically of you instead of buying something expensive for the sake of appearances. He'll continue flirting years into the relationship because he never wants either of you to start taking the other for granted.
Loving someone, to him, is an ongoing choice made through dozens of little actions every day.
U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)
As lovable as he is, Matsuda absolutely has flaws. He can be impulsive, sometimes speaking before thinking things through and then spending hours regretting it afterward. He occasionally overextends himself because he wants to help everyone, leaving himself exhausted without realizing it until he's already burned out. He's also prone to self-doubt, and during particularly stressful periods he may unintentionally seek reassurance more often than usual because he genuinely worries that he's letting the people around him down.
V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)
He's honestly not especially vain. He likes looking presentable, enjoys when you compliment him because he'll blush for the next twenty minutes, and probably spends a little too long fixing his hair before dates because he wants to make a good impression, but appearances have never been the foundation of his confidence.
Hearing someone he loves call him kind, dependable, or thoughtful means far more to him than hearing he's handsome.
W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)
I don't think Matsuda would ever believe he's incomplete without a partner because he has his own friendships, career, and identity, but I do think the right relationship becomes deeply woven into his sense of everyday happiness. Rather than feeling like you complete him, he'd feel like you've become one of the places where he feels most at peace, someone whose presence quietly makes ordinary life brighter without replacing the rest of who he is.
X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)
Matsuda absolutely develops tiny relationship rituals without realizing it. Every convenience store trip somehow ends with him bringing back your favorite snack. Every goodbye somehow includes one last hug, one last look back and one last wave because leaving always feels just a little easier if he gets to see you smiling one more time.
Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldnโt like, either in general or in a partner?)
Cruelty is probably the fastest way to lose Matsuda's affection. He genuinely struggles to understand people who enjoy humiliating others, mocking vulnerability, or treating kindness like weakness. He also dislikes dishonesty, although he understands that people have secrets and reasons for protecting themselves.
What hurts him most isn't someone needing privacy, it's realizing someone he trusted intentionally manipulated or deceived him. Once that trust is broken, rebuilding it becomes incredibly difficult because sincerity is one of the qualities he values most.
Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)
Matsuda sleeps like someone who's been carrying too much stress for too long. Some nights he falls asleep almost instantly because he's completely exhausted; other nights he tosses and turns while replaying conversations, worrying about work, or wondering whether he forgot something important.
If you're beside him, though, he settles much more quickly, unconsciously gravitating closer in his sleep until you're somehow sharing the same blanket despite starting the night on opposite sides of the bed. By morning, there's an excellent chance he's accidentally holding your hand or has one arm loosely wrapped around you without remembering when it happened because he was so deep in his slumber.
