Ziggy Sobotka

heres me in 12 photos italian leather jacket baltimore orange prison uniform tattoos family technology Princess beanies cigarettes ducks docks beer

looking at my resume i realize that i really havent done a lot and i dont know what id tell some big business person if they were thinkin about hiring me like i know how to do stuff on the docks i guess but i dont really want to do that all again now that dad and nick are gone and everythings all messed up and its not like thered be any jobs there anyways and its not like im getting out of prison or that anyone would hire me after this and i guess i wouldnt need a resume because i end up going back to doing illegal stuff because thats really the only way i could make money so this resume workshop is stupid and i dont know if it will really ever even help any of these guys even if they do get back out on the streets cuz they know that they cant be anything but what they already all because thats all theyve been prepared to do and thats really all that they can do and maybe its better that im in here than trying to find a job in the outside world maybe i should be happy that i dont have to worry about that and tryin to be an honest man because i want to be that but i know that i cant survive tryin to be that

i wish i could talk to those kids out there today the ones on the streets of baltimore tell them not to be stupid like me tell them to work hard in school and try and get out of the system i know its fucked up and your family might want you to be just like them and you might want to be just like them but you might also realize that you can't be like them and when ever you try to be like them you just end up looking like a joke and that starts to wear on you and youll forget all the things that you might be good at like not takin things seriously or knowin whats cool like italian leather jackets or working technology and knowin how search engines work before other people do and bein good at makin use of resources at the library you shouldnt forget those things you should remember those things fuck what everyone else is sayin thats really hard to do but you gotta learn to do it kids you gotta learn to not be like everyone else keepin doin the same stuff that stuff is dyin out that stuff will end you you could be a body in the can you could end up dead you could have to go away i wish i could tell all those things to the kids i wish i could talk to nicks kid and tell her all these things i dont even know how old shed be now i just wish i could tell everybody these things but i dont think tellin em them this will help them the world is so fucked up the docks are dyin the streets are a hard place to be i dont even know if i could teach you anything that could be useful because i just ended up like the rest of them just dont do what i did kids

i may be in prison for life but i found a momentary way to connect with the outside world i know ive always been good with technology but it took a lot of time to read up on stuff connect with the right guys and figure out how i can make this older technology work for me prisons dont do much in the way of keepin us connected to the world i miss the world i miss my family i miss Nick where ever he ended up

I've been participating in the prison's bookclub and we've been reading The Great Gatsby. One thing I've learned is that you can't escape your past no matter how hard you try. I realize my past is very messy and I've got a lot to work through. 

I'm still pissed about what this guy did to Princess. She didn't deserve that.