latersbaby

The last thing that upset me was myself.

I am never the exception to the rule

And sometimes i ask if it will happen

If

It

Will

Happen

I spend days trying to figure out what im worth

Most of the time i feel like im not worth anything

Other days

I esteem myself and feel like maybe just maybe i am

Then i feel this darkness cloud me

And im back at the root of my problem

I feel so deeply

That sometimes it burns to feel

I dont want to fall for you

But i already did

I dont want to hurt

But i already am

I dont want you to stay

Because i know how bad

You want to leave

Need to leave

Time is unfair

If i hadnt been scared

Like i am

Maybe i would have said how i felt

But it wouldnt have changed anything

It would have just

Pushed you away

So we dance in silence

Its better this way

Maybe im a crazy girl

With crazy thoughts

And crazy ways

Or maybe just maybe

It was real and why we didnt

Hurt eachother

You found your way in

And now you find your way out

Im going to miss

the sleepless nights

Late bike rides

Movie dates

drinks before noon

And mixed tape car rides

I hope you miss me too

And if not

Not even a little

Not even a lot

You were the

Best kept secret