harlequin girls

  Well, no I get it. I mean it’s hard to tell the difference between real feelings and hollow feelings sometimes. It’s human nature to want to occupy time which leads to crushes or intense feelings that we think are real but really aren’t. Romantic feelings, obsession, interest, hell feelings in general are quite hard to dissect, so I understand. Is this girl someone at home or…?

I suppose you're right, I rather not think about the philosophy of feelings. I'm already having trouble deciding what I'm feeling, don't tell me I've got to figure out if those feelings are real or illusions too. You understand? Detlev I..she's not like, it's not a serious thing where I want to date her or anything. And no, she's not. 

  shhh it’s been so long since ive done anything for theo just LET ME DO THIS ofc he loves her he always will she literally like set him on the right path and made him human again i cant even explain

no dont ever stop i love it i rlly do u know that 

  Someone that people consider bad? I’m not quite sure I understand that, but we don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to. We don’t have to talk about anything you don’t want to talk about so you can let out that breath you look like you’re holding. [He smiles genuinely and with his eyes.] It’s all fine, mate.

I feel like I'm making it sound a lot crazier than it really is just because I'm not the best at explaining things. I'm intrigued by this girl, and I say intrigued because I'm not sure if I even like her rather I like studying her, but she's not a good person. I'm also not creepy, I-yeah there is no way..I'm going to make this sound okay so... [When Detlev mentioned the breath, when he mentioned the fact that he could easily tell Rowan was struggling, it only made things a little worse. Rowan could tell Detlev was just trying to comfort him, but what was bothering Rowan in the first place was the fact that Detlev just...knew. He didn't even know Rowan until this day and yet he knew things, and Rowan didn't like it.] I'm fine, thanks. 

  Cute. I honestly don’t even know what Greg is up to nowadays; you think I would with our twin telepathy and all. He’s like an enigma. But then again, I’m best friends with one.

Yeah, I'm surprised I haven't heard his voice in a while. He's usually everywhere you are. What did you do to him? 

  [Detlev’s lips twitch up into a small smile when Rowan chokes and he waits patiently for Ro to gather himself.] I can understand that. Plus, you said yourself that you’re the only magical one, I can only imagine what it must be like to have to be in an entirely different environment for even two months out of the year. Oh…well I’m sorry you’ve had to experience something like that, mate. Heartbreak’s a right bitch, it is.

Yeah, it's..hard? I can't seem to find the word. But at the same time, I grew up most of my life not really knowing a thing about magic, so I can't even tell if being at home is a different environment or being at Hogwarts is. Mm, I hear that. I wouldn't say I experienced it first hand, but I've...felt things for someone..people consider bad? This is confusing, it's confusing. I don't really care to talk about it anyway. 

  You say that like you’re the one who willingly comes up to visit me in the first place.

Your brother doesn't count, Davis.

Okay, who planted the stink bomb in the Gryffindor Tower? I know it’s the last day, but that’s pushing it.

Mmm, not visiting you for a while.

  It’s hard to pin point things like that which come from deep inside of us. Not wanting to associate with your parents, or from what it sounds like, your American society even, sounds like something that comes from deep inside. Ohio…where exactly is that? What’s it like there? [Deltev chuckles at the underdog comment.] Hey, between you and me, the pretty girl tends to be kind of a bitch, so you probably dodged a bullet anyway. There’s a reason they end the movies where they do-so you don’t see the epic romance crash and burn in a few years when the lead characters realize there are no heroes in real life. There are realistic occurrences that pose realistic choices and people who do good and bad things. That’s it. Anyway, I’m rambling, sorry.

...I m-[Caught off guard by how Detlev seemed to be analyzing him, Rowan felt uncomfortable, and when he went to talk he choked and started coughing.] -Fuck. Erm, I don't know if it's lack of association, I just don't feel like I'm part of them sometimes, exclusion I suppose. It's complicated. It's near Kentucky and Indiana. It's okay, boring to me. ...It's funny you say that because..well I know from experience. 

  Well either way, I’m glad you came to Hogwarts cause it brought you here, now, today. You say they as if you don’t want to associate yourself with them. There a reason for that? Where in America do they live by the way? Haha, like an indie film, huh? You sure as hell look the part, like you could star in an indie film I mean. Sorry what was that? Where do you bike?

Mmmm. [Detlev was treating Rowan like someone he'd known for a while, and the compliments were starting to make Rowan uncomfortable. Half because he didn't believe them, or didn't know how Detlev could make that assumption that he was important so fast. Rowan noticed he had begun to open up with Detlev, and started closing himself off a bit.] Uh-yeah I mean there has to be, I don't really know though. Ohio. I get that a lot, everyone wants to root for the underdog, and I look like the kid that gets his face bashed in and doesn't get the pretty girl till the end. [Rowan cracked a small smile to show he was kidding, laughing at himself made things easier. But it waved into a lip bite as he considered talking to Detlev about his favorite place back home, he scratched his head and chuckled halfheartedly.] Nothing-nowhere, it's uhm, not important. 

  Oh ok, well that makes a lot more sense now. Do you guys live in America or do you live in the UK now? Just wondering why you’re here instead of Salem, that’s all. Yeah, I can imagine you’d have to be a heavier set kind of person to be able to take and deliver tackles like the ones on tv. You’ve got the perfect build for Quidditch though, lean enough to balance a broom nicely. I get it though, to each his own. Well, technically Hogwarts is a boarding school so they’re not entirely lying. Different how? Sorry, I don’t mean to pry, it’s just, it’s a different world, you know? It’s hard not to be curious.

America. They-we live there..I go back in the summers. I-uh..ha I actually uhm, I did some research when I got my letters. Hogwarts seemed...I don't know, but, yeah. I thought I'd find...myself? In a less coming-of-age indie film way, or maybe more. Mmm, no coordination. True. It's fine, I just don't hm, talk about it often? It's different, I don't think I can give much insight since I'm not really...involved with the people there? I bike off to this open la- never mind. 

  Well clearly you are five because you just “Detlev, that’s gross” -ed me at the mention of sex!

Noo, I "Detlev, that's gross" -ed you at the mention of listening to other people have sex. I'm not that kinky. 

  [Normally, in this situation, Iris would be freaked out. Her anxiety would kick in and she would stay quiet and probably walk away from the situation. But it really bothered her that she felt like this boy’s face was so… familiar. It made her curious. Unconsciously, in a whisper, she muttered:] … Do I know you? [She flinched at the sound of her voice, unaware she had spoken her thoughts aloud. Her posture stood upright, but her eyes still locked on the boy.]

[It had come to an uncomfortable point in time when the girl was looking at him intensely, with squinted eyes as if he had something on his face, and it made him nervous. His own eyes flickered around and he checked to see if he was the only one that noticed, which he obviously was because no one ever really looked at him this hard. As a reflex he started to get his things together as though to leave the scene, but when the girl mumbled something he could just barely hear the escape window grew smaller.] Uh.... [Rowan studied her, watched as her body tensed, should he respond or was that not supposed to come out. He tried to think back on whether or not he'd met her before. He knew he hadn't.] No. I don't think so.

  The sexy times, Luce! Have you been listening to other people have sex through bad silencing charms??

Wh...No! Oh god, no! Detlev, that's gross! I thought you were talking about the party going on. 

  American football, huh? That’s not a very popular sport here in the good old U  of K. Football seems a little aggressive. I mean Quidditch is aggressive too sometimes, but football just seems flat out painful. Is everyone in your family non-magic? I mean that must be a hell of an experience, being a part of two worlds at the same time. Both my parents are as pureblood as they get so I wouldn’t really know, but Merlin, your knowledge of how things work in the world must be so much more vast than the rest of ours.

Yeah, my parents are American...if you couldn't tell. It...is. He tried to get me into it multiple times but I'm..not really built for it. I don't like sports, too much...contact? I'm the only one. Yeah it's weird, they tell everyone I'm at boarding school. I...guess? I don't know, but yeah home is uh-different. It's all very different, but people, they're the same.

  The silencing charm, are you talking about them being used for what I think you’re talking about them being used for?

That..is strongly dependent on what you think they're being used for.