Hey! I’m a fandom old, obsessed with Stranger Things since 2016, and writing fanfiction since 2023. I predominantly write for Steddie, but rare pairs are creeping in. You can find all my fics over on AO3.
I finally tidied up my masterlist. I’m trying to group them in some kind of order, hopefully this is a little easier to navigate.
All my fics that have been written for any of the CC Fest events and pop ups are here.
Corroded Coffin Fest: Seven Deadly Sins - My Masterlist | Tumblr | AO3
Pleasant Valley Sunday | Tumblr | AO3 | 2.5k | Rating T | Steddie | AU, Firefighter Steve Harrington, Corroded Coffin are the best and worst neighbours | Steve gets his sleep disturbed by the band that just moved onto the street
Look Up at the Storm | Tumblr | AO3 | 2.3k | Rating: T | Eddie & Wayne, Eddie & Al, Angst, Emotional hurt/comfort, fathers and sons, Good Uncle Wayne, S01 | Eddie waits for the outcome of Al’s sentencing.
Holding hands at the end of the world | Tumblr | AO3 | 3.7k | Rating: M | Pairing Steddie | Eddie and Steve at the end of the world
Wicked Game | Tumblr | AO3 | 4k | M | Pairing: Jeff/Eddie, Steve/Eddie | CW: use of homophobic slurs, period typical homophobia, internalised homophobia |Tags: Angst, unhealthy relationships, unrequited love, background Steddie | Eddie is a ball of anger and Jeff is caught in the crossfire.
You're The One I've Waited For | Tumblr | AO3 | 12k | T | Pairing: Steddie | Fluff and tiny bit of angst, mutual pining, protective Gareth, Steve Harrington is a sweetheart | Steve wants Eddie to have the perfect thanksgiving. He ends up giving him so much more.
There Is a House... | Tumblr (snippet) | AO3 | 6k | T | Eddie Munson, Wayne Munson, Corroded Coffin, Horror, Implied/Referenced Character Death, Ambiguous/Open Ending | Eddie and the boys get up to no good on Mischief Night and have to make amends. If only it were that simple.
Give Me a Break | Tumblr (snippet) | AO3 | 6k | T | Pairing: Steddie | Tags: Pre-Steddie, pre-season 3, attempt at humour, Eddie Munson whump, Gareth is a little shit, maybe a hint of foot fetish? | Eddie winds up in the hospital and gets a surprise visitor to help him with a little problem.
Run fast, don't stand in the sun | Tumblr | AO3 | 2.3k | M | Pairing: Steddie | CW: Death, description of canon deaths | Tags: Dark Eddie Munson, police officer Steve Harrington | Be careful where you play ding dong ditch.
On The Mend | Tumblr | AO3 | 4k | T | Pairing: Steddie | CW: descriptions of injuries and medical procedures, medical trauma | POV: Mixed | Tags: Hurt/comfort, medical whump | Eddie and Steve fall in love over the railings of a hospital bed.
Home | AO3 | Tumblr | 1.6k | T | Pairing: Steddie | Tags: Angst, Grief | Eddie and his kids pack up their family home, but the ghosts of a happy life make it hard to leave.
Come Alive | AO3 | 7k | M | Pairing: Steddie | Mental Illness, Angst with a happy ending | Nobody has seen Eddie for weeks, and nasty rumours are spreading through Hawkins. When Dustin can't get any answers from Wayne Munson he turns to Steve for help.
California I'm Coming Home | AO3 | Tumblr | 3.2k | T | Pairing: Steddie | Rock Star Eddie and Good Uncle Wayne | Wayne Munson moves to California and lives the high life.
I'm A Bad Boy For Breaking Her Heart | AO3 | 3.6k | M | Steddie | The Harringtons Are Doing Their Best | Eddie finally gets to meet the parents.
Only The Horses Can Bring Us Back Home | AO3 | 3.4k | T | Steddie | Horse Girl Eddie, recovery, therapy | Recovery comes in many forms aka Eddie falls in love with a horse.
I Can Love You Better Than Him | AO3 | Tumblr | 2.3k | T | Steddie | Getting Together, Bad relationships | Steve and Eddie reconnect after three years apart.
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I've read a few recently published books, and there's this recurring pattern where if anyone does anything bad and interesting, they have to later talk about it in a way that makes it clear that it was a misunderstanding/ justified/ not their fault, so they're still a good person. and if they have a disagreement with another character, they have to therapy talk it out, regardless of their background. it doesn't matter if this is a street urchin with three teeth who just stabbed and kidnapped someone, you will get eloquent sterile therapy speak that will smooth out any possible emotional tension. and everyone asks for permission before they kiss, and waits for a clear enthusiastic yes. again, doesn't matter the character's background or situation, they will ask "can I please kiss you," because if they didn't, that could get all yucky and uncertain, couldn't it? and if a character is from a rich family, they will hate being in a rich family, and hate wealth signifiers, and actually be all for class equality. and everyone is casually queer, without thought being put into how that would mesh with the society that is being described. like yes, this is violent class-based system obsessed with inheritance, but no, it's not actually a problem that the child they've coldly groomed to take on the family mantle is unwilling to beget an heir because of gay. the parents might be terrible, cruel and fascistic, but they're not homophobic! I don't know, it just seems like EVERYTHING that could actually be messy gets sanded and sanded until it's smooth as a shark, but the Fun Violence is allowed to stay, because bloodshed doesn't actually bother anyone or have any consequence apart from your rogue character shrugging and going oops, was that me? the rogue is still a good person though. if you think they're not, just wait for the two solid pages of introspection. and yes they started the book by slitting two throats, but that was fine. they will ask permission before hugging you.
There are many reasons for this that are braided together, but I'm going to be bold and say it: I think a lot of this has to do with rising illiteracy.
I just read a Fortune article the other day about the fact that some college students can't read a single sentence. One. They cannot parse the meaning of a single sentence. That's terrifying. (Here it is on Yahoo without the paywall, btw.)
The thing is that you do not have to be wholly illiterate to struggle with reading. About half of Americans have low literacy, meaning they read around a sixth grade level or less.
This puts publishers in a terrible position. They need to sell books to an audience that cannot read books made for adults but that doesn't want the simplicity of grade-school books. The books need real adult problems without the nuance, hence the therapy speak and the black-and-white thinking.
Another thing is that cognitive flexibility influences literacy, meaning the reverse is also true; cognitive inflexibility determines lower literacy. Cognitive flexibility is the ability to update your schemas or combine multiple pieces of information without being expressly told to do so. It also impacts whether you can identify the mismatch between what someone says and what they do, which is the gold standard way to avoid therapy speak.
Poor cognitive flexibility means you can't have messy situations, because then the reader doesn't know what to think. Everyone has to be sorted into Good Person and Bad Person, and if the Good Person does something that may seem Bad, then they become a Bad Person unless the text assures us that they are still Good.
You will see many positive Goodreads reviews for these books. I'm not saying every single person with a positive review for a book like that has low literacy, but it's more likely than not. The same thing that drives you insane is what compels other readers who can't handle more complex texts.
Basically what I am saying is that if you want something with nuance, as a reader or a writer, you probably need to seek out selfpub stuff. I know that a lot of selfpub is garbage specifically because of the lower barrier to entry, and a lot of good selfpub stuff is not highly rated because getting reviews takes time and energy.
(I'd like to say my own stuff is good but doesn't have a lot of reviews because that requires active solicitation and I'm busy. I'm competing with millions of authors, both selfpub and tradpub, who have larger budgets. Anyway.)
Still, if you go sifting, ask for recommendations, and follow selfpub authors, you're likely to find more complex work that was not brutalized to fit the lowest common denominator.
Corroded Coffin Fest Pop-Up: A Million Words and Counting...
A million words. Six zeros behind that one.
The theme for this surprise pop-up event is Million, which is the number of words we have now surpassed as a group for our Corroded Coffin Fest Events! Look at that! Amazing work, everyone.
(I've had this event in my drafts for months just waiting for us to hit this milestone, and now we have! 🎉)
This event takes place for 11.5 days (roughly 1 million seconds!) from right now until June 12th.
You can interpret the prompt in any way you'd like, as long as you've focused on one or more members of Corroded Coffin.
GUIDELINES:
Please tag us here at @corrodedcoffinfest when you post your entries so we can reblog them!
There is no word limit for this challenge.
You'll get a comment from this blog with a "🎉" when it's been checked and added to the queue.
Submissions can be connected to other prompts or works, but they should still be able to stand alone.
Feel free to use the ao3 collection after you've been reblogged here!
All submissions should include any pairings featured, a rating and any content warnings (CW) or tags that you think are appropriate. Also include the the song you chose! (Whoops, no required song for this one, lol.) All explicit material needs be under a cut. Headers make my life easier, and a sample of one could look something like this:
Prompt: Million | Word Count: 3421 | Rating: T | POV: Gareth | Relationships: Gareth & Eddie | CW: None | Tags: Famous Corroded Coffin, Record Deal
For the artists! Art is definitely welcome! Any entries for the prompt must be focused on at least one Corroded Coffin member, and fit the prompt and guidelines.
Please submit your entries between now and 11:59 PM EST on June 12, 2026.
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written for the @corrodedcoffinfest June microfic challenge
prompt: knot | wc: 586 | pov eddie | rated: T | tags: pre steddie, background robin/chrissy, eddie has a crush on steve, subtle flirting, eddie hates camping - until steve changes his mind | also on ao3
Eddie made a lot of bad choices in his life but this one might be his worst yet. Letting Chrissy talk him into a fucking camping trip with Buckley and Harrington, a whole damn weekend spend out in the wild, sleeping in tents and all, ugh.
There's a reason why Wayne looked at him like he'd grown a second head when he told him about the trip, knowing too well that his nephew is not made for the outdoors. They tried that once, when Eddie was 12, and agreed to never do it again for both their sakes.
He should’ve stuck by that, but here he is now, sitting uncomfortably on a log, swatting at mosquitoes, feeling bored and itchy and useless. He offered to help the girls get the cooler from the van (‘No, Eddie. We do not have to hunt or fish for food,’ thank fucking god for that!) but got the hint when Chris said they're fine on their own.
So he sits there and mopes, watching Steve pile up twigs and newspaper scraps to build a fire, and as much as he hates to admit it, is impressed by how quickly he gets it started.
"Where d'you learn that?" he asks honestly curious, his heart skipping a beat when Steve turns to him with a proud, gorgeous smile.
"Oh, uh. Summer camp. When I was 13," he replies and shrugs it off like it's nothing.
Of course. Fucking rich kids and their fucking fancy Summer time activities.
"My parents went on a trip to Paris and didn't trust me to stay home alone."
No, actually? Fuck Steve's parents for going on vacation without him.
"What, like, some boy scout thing or something? Where they teach you how to tie knots and stuff?" Eddie jokes and Steve laughs, says "Yeah. Something like that."
Seemingly satisfied with his work, Steve takes his attention away from the steadily crackling fire and sits down beside Eddie.
"Had my first kiss there, too," he fake-whispers, leaning in like he's sharing a secret the trees and birds around them aren't supposed to hear.
Eddie's ears are burning, but it's definitely from the heat of the fire, not because Steve is suddenly so close now, their knees are touching.
"Oh, really? Did you sneak into the girls' quarters at night?" Eddie laughs weakly, feeling just a tiny bit jealous for reasons he’s not willing to give any thought right now.
"Hell no!” Steve huffs out, “The counsellors threatened to put anyone they caught breaking the rules on cleaning duty. Do you know how nasty the wash rooms were? Scarred me for life, man." Steve shakes his head and scrunches his nose in disgust, then his lips curl up into a cheeky grin. "Luckily, I didn't have to sneak out." Steve winks at him and it takes Eddie a second to get what he’s implying. "His name was Alex."
Oh, okay. Yep. That’s- great.
"Sounds like you had a lot of fun," Eddie says, acting casual when on the inside, he's having a minor (major) crisis.
"Mhm, yeah. Learned a lot at camp."
Steve stands, picking up some logs to feed the fire with, looking back over his shoulder when he suggests, "I could show you, while we're here."
Eddie swallows roughly.
He has the sinking feeling Steve is not talking about showing him how to start a fire, or how to tie a knot.
And suddenly, the thought of sharing a tent with him doesn't seem so horrible anymore.
Prompt: Knot | Word Count: 586 | Rating: E | CW: Sexual Content | POV: Eddie | Pairing: Steddie | Tags: AU, Omegaverse, Alpha Eddie, Alpha Steve, Alpha/Alpha, Freak 4 Freak
Eddie wants to know what it's like.
He can't really know, he knows that. He's not an omega. His body isn't going to give, not in that same way, but the desire to take has slowly scrambled his brain. It's all he can think about. And he needs to find someone, some other freak, willing to try to knot him. Now.
He scans the options from his spot at the end of his high table. Eyeballing every alpha that walks by, he knows they are all no good. Not for this, not for anything. There's nobody in this senior class he'd let anywhere near him.
Then, his eyes catch on a familiar head of hair.
Well, maybe one.
But he's not an idiot. Steve Harrington isn't gonna fuck another alpha. Especially not one that's such a freak. Not when he has all the omegas in their class throwing themselves at his feet. The stink of them is a cloying cloud that follows Harrington everywhere he goes.
Eddie flexes his ass, clenching, squirming in the cafeteria seat. This is ridiculous. He is a freak. At least his cock is, as it's currently getting all horny over another alpha.
Steve lifts his head from his tray, nose flaring, swiveling like a goddamn owl until his eyes lock on Eddie's. A knowing smirk curls on his lip.
Well, fuck. Just kill Eddie now.
Eddie gets cornered outside the school in the alley between the buildings, and it's fucking stupid. Everybody knows not to corner another alpha, especially not one their age. Young, dumb knotheads. All of them.
But Steve Harrington didn't seem to get that memo, and Eddie melts back against the brick. He doesn't want to fight Harrington. He wants to fuck him.
Correction: He wants to be fucked by him.
Eddie spreads his legs tilting his hips upwards. It's obscene, and forward, but Harrington seems to react to it positively.
"Yeah?" Eddie asks, and Harrington's eyes are blown wide as he scents him, extensively.
"Yeah. Let's go."
Steve wraps a big hand around both their cocks, stroking hard as Eddie looks around this very plaid room.
"Fuck," Steve says, "I love your cock. You gonna pop? Let me feel your knot against mine?"
God, he's a freak, too.
Eddie nods, frantically. Absolutely. He still wants. But they can start here.
He feels the beginnings of Steve's knot, and it just fuels his own.
Somehow, Steve's hand fits around them both, and he's jacking them both off, hard. Knots sliding together, getting bigger, catching against each other in a way that Eddie's never felt before.
Fuck.
Eddie comes, making a mess all over both of them. Steve follows, and they are just absolutely slick with it as Steve squeezes both of their knots, gently pulsating his grip. Eddie comes again. Groaning.
Eddie's knot starts going down first, and when Steve feels it, he loosens his grip, allowing his own to deflate as well.
Flopping onto his back, Eddie slings his forearm over his eyes.
Steve does the same, arm brushing Eddie's.
"That what you wanted?"
Eddie laughs, the sound vibrating throughout his chest.
"What?" Steve asks.
"I wanted you to knot me."
"But you're not — oh."
Eddie's humiliated. He rolls onto his belly. He can't look at Steve.
The hand touching his ass cheek startles him, and he jumps.
Steve's wet thumb brushing against his hole is like lightning shooting up his spine.
"You think it's gonna fit?"
Eddie laughs, unhinged. Wouldn't you know it? Freak finds freak.
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Bingo Card: 1990s || Prompt: Nirvana | Song: Come As You Are | Word Count: 8858 | Rating: E | CW: Past Trauma | POV: Eddie | Pairing: Steddie | Tags: AU, Omegaverse, Meet Ugly, Strangers to Friends to Lovers, Alpha Eddie, Omega Steve, Knotting, Happy Ending
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It's sweltering. Eddie lifts his shirt, wiping his face. He knows he's only got about three or four good hours left to get this project finished, before he's gotta head home. Hunker down and ride this out.
He stinks. He can smell himself inside the shop, and that's saying something.
Eddie has never enjoyed his rut. Not as a teen right after he presented, and definitely not now that he's got a business to run, with paying customers waiting. It's an annoyance. An inconvenience. And if he could, he'd just skip it. Being a beta sounds pretty damn nice to him.
Unfortunately, he can't change shit about his life, never has been able to, but he promised Wayne he'd get more done before closing up. That much he can make good on. If he's gonna be out of commission for the next three days, he's gotta get ahead.
Problem is, Eddie's never been ahead a day in his life.
Eddie catches the movement from just outside the shop, making him curious. There's a man loitering around, jacket slung over his arm, working his fingers against each other. Eddie's hackles rise, and then go down again.
This guy doesn't look mad. Nor is he slinking around, being shady.
He looks like he's patiently waiting for something. Eddie definitely doesn't have any appointments scheduled, and he doesn't see any cars in need of attention.
"Can I help you?" Eddie hollers. No matter how good looking this guy is, Eddie doesn't have time for anything else. He can't add anything to his plate. He's got maybe an hour before he'll be unfit to be around the public.
Not that Eddie's ever really fit to be around the public. But that's how he likes it. Eddie would prefer it if he never had to actually interact with the customers at all.
This dude included. Maybe especially this dude, because he looks like another alpha. A preppy motherfucker. That's just asking for trouble today. And Eddie? Eddie's been in enough trouble to last a lifetime. He's on the straight and narrow now.
He did his time, and he's never going back inside.
"Just waiting," the guy calls back, not budging. As if he's stuck to the concrete under his feet.
"For what?" Eddie shouts.
"You, I think."
And then he wiggles his fingers in Eddie's direction. A little taunt of a wave if Eddie's ever seen one. Eddie bristles.
He's not buying whatever this dude is selling. He puts down his socket wrench, and steps outside the garage. When he does, it's not his own smell that fills his nose. Nor the familiar one of the garage. His safe haven. His home away from home.
No, now it's him.
Omega.
Fuck. That's not. He's not doing that. Not again.
He's a confirmed bachelor for a reason. He tried the love thing once. Didn't work out so good. And he paid the price for getting entangled like that. Now, he's quite alright with being a lone wolf. Wayne's the only pack he needs.
Eddie yanks down the garage door, slamming it to the concrete, twisting the handle, and jamming his key in the lock. He's left every light on, and his music playing. Wayne's gonna gnaw on his ass later.
Worth it. Because right now, he's leaving. Eddie damn well ain't looking for trouble. Trouble has always been able to find him easy enough as is.
"We're closed," Eddie says, giving this omega a wide berth.
"I'm not here for the shop. I'm here for you," he says, falling in step with Eddie as he heads towards the van.
"For what?" Eddie says, whirling around, holding up his hand, desperate to put some distance between them. Defensive. Suspicious. He doesn't need no more trouble. "Who the hell are you?"
"Steve," he says, cocking his head to the side like Eddie's an idiot, "I moved in recently."
Steve nods down the block. It's too vague to pinpoint where he means. Eddie hasn't exactly been scoping out the other businesses on the street. He keeps to himself. It's smarter to mind your own goddamn business.
"And?" Eddie asks.
"I've been catching whiffs of you all week. Today, you were strong enough to lead me here."
Eddie laughs, kind of meanly, "You sure you ain't an alpha? Hunting people down because they smell good? Like some kind of pervert."
Steve laughs, like he isn't offended by this accusation, holding up his hands. A sign of coming in peace. Eddie doesn't feel peace at all.
"I wasn't expecting someone so surly," Steve says, but seems absolutely unbothered that Eddie is clearly very bothered.
"Yeah, well. Here I am. I'm surly on a good day, and this ain't a good day. Now, I gotta go," Eddie says, making a move towards his driver's door.
Steve slides forward, closing in on Eddie again. He's even taller than Eddie realized. Bigger. As tall as Eddie is, and definitely sturdier. An outlier of an omega.
"You smell good."
"I smell like motor oil and multi-generational disappointment. Move," Eddie says, and Steve smiles, barely stepping to the side, as he grins like an idiot. Eddie doesn't return the gesture.
Eddie's never been cornered by an omega before. It's fucking bizarre.
Steve lifts his chin, takes a deep breath, sucking in a lungful of air through his nose. Like he's trying to catch even more of Eddie's scent. It feels invasive. Intrusive. And Eddie does not like intrusiveness.
"You're going into a rut."
"The fuck is that to you?" Eddie snaps. What a freak.
"You want some help?"
Eddie slams the van door, and Steve curls both of his hands around the open window frame, hanging on. Maybe he's a prostitute. He doesn't look like one, with his stupid, little polo shirt tucked into his jeans, but Eddie doesn't fucking know. You can't judge a book by its cover, and all that shit.
There ain't no way in fucking hell Eddie would ever fall for whatever this trap is. He wasn't born yesterday. He's been around every block, and he ain't going down that road again for love nor money. Definitely not for omega pussy. The State of Indiana can fuck right off.
"No means no," Eddie says, turning over the key, jamming it into reverse. Steve lets go, and Eddie kicks up gravel as he peels out.
Five days, and a whole lot of chaffing later, Eddie's back at the shop. That was the worst rut he's ever had, and he's had some doozies. Now, he's slid under a pickup with a leaky oil pan, and about two extra days behind on work. Of course he is.
"Hey, uh, you…under there," a voice calls out.
Eddie creeps out from under the truck and it's Steve. Fucking Steve. The pushy omega.
Steve is squatted down. Smiling awkwardly. Eddie pulls off his mask, and now he can smell him. He's throwing off a whole lot of confusing scents.
Mainly shame.
So, probably not a prostitute.
Eddie is still flummoxed by that interaction they had, but he wouldn't have forgotten his scent. It was burned into his nose for days. Eddie blames it for his horrendous rut, honestly.
"Hi," Steve says, "uh, I think I owe you an apology."
Eddie waves him off. It's fine. No harm, no foul.
"It's fine," Eddie says.
"It's not. I don't even think I got your name before I tried to lure you into bed," Steve says, looking sheepish.
Eddie laughs, more amused today than he was the other day. Not being on the precipice of going into a rut will do wonders for his general disposition.
"I'm Eddie," Eddie offers.
"Well, Eddie, I'm sorry. And embarrassed. I'm not usually so…"
"Forward?" Eddie supplies.
"I was gonna go with whorish, but forward is sure nicer."
Eddie laughs.
"It's fine. Never been stalked by an omega before. That was a new one."
Steve smiles, "Yeah, well. I'm not exactly conventional. I didn't even know I was going into heat. I wasn't due. Not that I'm regular. But still. You just," he says, looking away, "you smelled so good. And apparently that means I thought it was a good idea to do whatever the hell that was. Sorry."
Nobody ever tells Eddie he smells good. Off-putting, yes. Good? No. This guy's nose is clearly malfunctioning.
"It's fine, I mean. It happens. Probably. Not to me. But I know you didn't really want me. You don't even know me. You can do much better than this."
Steve huffs out a rueful laugh.
"I don't know about that," Steve says, eyes cutting away. Scent giving off distressed omega, which is alpha kryptonite, at least to Eddie. That's why Eddie tries to just keep his distance.
But that's not an option today.
Honestly, though. Is Steve nuts? He's gorgeous. Eddie has the urge to reach out and squeeze his hand, but his hands are greasy, so he stops himself. However, Steve looks so pale and clammy, Eddie changes his mind and does it anyway. Hands will wash.
He gives Steve's hand a squeeze, and Steve squeezes back. His hand is far too warm.
"It's really fine."
Steve sags, like a relief has washed over him. Eddie laces his fingers with Steve's, holding on. Pressing their wrists together awkwardly. Trying to soothe him. Eddie's not good at this. Comforting omegas. Comforting anyone. He's out of practice, if he was ever in practice in the first place.
But Wayne would have his ass if he didn't at least pretend to act like the gentleman he's most certainly not.
"Are you okay?" Eddie asks.
"Yeah. I'm just fucked up. My body," Steve says, and he reaches up and wipes his free hand all the way down his face. "I think the other day threw me into some kind of temporary rejection sickness. From an alpha I didn't even know the name of, and chased down like a lunatic. How fucked up is that?"
Eddie swallows.
Steve keeps talking.
"They warned me things would go fucking haywire if I didn't find someone, anyone, to mate with. That time was ticking. That I was too picky for my own good. That this is my own fault. If I'd just take a knot, everything would settle down. Like I'm some sort of ancient, old hag at forty-one for not being mated."
Eddie moves closer, touching Steve's cheek with his other dirty palm. Steve doesn't seem to mind, not with the way he leans into it.
"You're definitely not an old hag."
"And you're not so surly now," Steve says, and Eddie laughs.
"Yeah, well. Let's keep that between us?"
Steve nods.
"I'm sorry I was so forward," Steve says. "I'm unconventional. Just ask my parents and my doctors. It's a nice way of saying I'm a freak."
Eddie smiles, "Well. That makes two of us."
Steve grins at him. So, Eddie continues.
"There's nothing wrong with waiting. It's smart. I didn't get mated, but I got real close once. It was a bad idea. Beyond bad. And when the dust settled, I knew I'd never do it again. Not getting yourself into that position is smart, Steve. You've been smart."
Steve nods, "I'm not even looking these days. Maybe I was being picky at first, and then I just got used to being independent. Perhaps to my own detriment. But I swear I've never acted like I did the other day. I'm so embarrassed."
"Don't be," Eddie says, "biology is fucking weird sometimes. No hard feelings."
Steve nods, and pulls his hand out of Eddie's and Eddie lets him go. Steve looks exhausted.
"Thank you, for not taking advantage."
Eddie's heart squeezes.
"Not that I wasn't willing, I was, but that definitely wasn't me. Not the normal me, anyway."
Eddie nods. Steve's surprise heat probably zapped him, just like Eddie's rut did. Eddie's not really one for company, or for an audience while he works, but, well. A sucker is born every minute. Eddie has always been proof of that.
And he wouldn't mind getting to know the real Steve. He seems like an okay dude after all. So, Eddie makes an offer.
"Listen, I got some more work to do, but if you wanna hang out around here you can."
"Yeah, definitely," Steve says, smiling like Eddie's really offered him something, so Eddie rolls out his office chair, the nicest thing they've got around here, so Steve can sit right next to the pickup slides back under.
And Steve talks, asking Eddie questions. About the shop. About his life. About everything. He tells him that his parents didn't expect an omega son, and kinda fucked him up about it for a long time. By the time he'd gotten his head on straight, he was already old by unmated omega standards. Set in his ways.
It snowballed from there.
Eddie knows a thing or two about things snowballing out of your control.
And when Eddie rolls out from under the vehicle again, oil pan fixed, oil changed, Steve's got color in his face, at least more than he had earlier, and Eddie kinda feels like he's made a friend.
In perhaps the weirdest way possible. But still. Having Steve's company wasn't half bad.
When he's locking up for the night, Steve standing nearby, Eddie looks at him, "Friends?"
Steve smiles, "Friends. Definitely."
"Need a ride home?"
"Nah, I'm right over there," Steve says, and Eddie quickly realizes he meant that. Because Steve walks right next door to the small house. It's been empty for a long time, until it wasn't.
Steve.
He wasn't gesturing towards downtown, he was nodding next door.
Eddie guesses that means they're neighbors. That explains why Steve must have thought he needed to smooth things over.
They're gonna be in the same vicinity, like it or not.
Eddie thinks he might like it.
After that, Steve Harrington is around on the regular. Eddie finds he doesn't mind. He even misses him being around when he goes missing for a few days in a row, always coming back looking like he's been wrung out. Migraines, he says.
He also suspects that Steve wasn't experiencing rejection sickness, but isolation sickness. Eddie's a loner, but Steve Harrington is alone. He has a beta best friend across the country that he talks about, but that's it.
He's starved for companionship, for touch, and Eddie likes a project. Always has, always will.
Steve always disappears as soon as any other alpha turns up. After the first few times of getting what was clearly unwanted attention, he made it a habit to slink off into Eddie's office and hide until Eddie's alone again. If he hears Wayne's truck pull up out back, it's like he vanishes into thin air.
Just like he just did, moments earlier. Eddie was mid-sentence.
Eddie doesn't really get it. He's gorgeous. But it sure explains why he doesn't have an alpha if he hides from every one he crosses paths with. Eddie's sure there's more to that story, there has to be, but he hasn't pressed Steve to explain why he's so isolated from the world.
That's fine. Eddie hasn't explained all his damage either.
Eddie hears the back door open and close.
Wayne scents the air.
"Okay, kid. I gotta ask if you're not gonna tell me on your own. That omega smell is all over this shop, what's going on?" Wayne asks.
"I've told you. That's Steve," Eddie answers, bent over the car that's pulled into the shop. A customer reported a clanking noise that Eddie's trying to pinpoint.
"Steve, who I've never seen hide nor hair of, not even once."
"Yep. Lives next door. I've told you that."
Wayne makes a noise of disbelief, and Eddie turns his head to look at him.
"What? You think I'm lyin'?"
Wayne shakes his head, but it sure looks like he doesn't believe Eddie.
"No. Just. What's he after?" Wayne asks.
"Nothing. Company," Eddie says, "A friend. I'm his friend."
"And you're sure he's not looking to bring you trouble?" Wayne asks, and Eddie shakes his head. He's pretty sure that's not the case. But his mind obviously thought that, too, at least at first.
"He's not."
Wayne nods.
"Fine, you sure you're not, you know, courting him, then?"
Eddie laughs, "No. We're just friends."
"And yet he hides from me," Wayne prods.
"He hides from everyone. You ain't special, old man."
"Doesn't seem like he hides from you," Wayne says pointedly, but Eddie doesn't take the bait. Just goes back to working on the car.
Steve is allowed to pick and choose who he wants to interact with, and if that list is so short that it's only Eddie, well, then so be it.
"You really don't have anybody? No mate? Boyfriend? Girlfriend? Nothing?" Steve asks one night. All the extra shop lights are turned on so Eddie can work late into the night. Steve must have seen him working, because he wandered over an hour ago. Now Eddie's being grilled.
No good deed goes unpunished.
"Nothing. Really," Eddie says.
"Crazy," Steve mutters, but if Steve doesn't have someone, Eddie doesn't know why Steve thinks Eddie should.
"Why? You don't have anybody either. It's not a requirement," Eddie banters back, and Steve laughs, rolling around in Eddie's office chair that he drags out whenever he comes to visit.
If it low-key smells like omega, like Steve, all the goddamn time now, Eddie pretends to ignore it.
"You're just nice, is all," Steve says. "Kind."
Eddie cackles, "If you say so."
The next day, Eddie's patching a tire while Steve organizes a filing cabinet. Eddie didn't ask him to, but if he wants to, well, he can knock himself out. It's nice. Being together, but not feeling the urge to fill all the quiet spaces.
"Eddie?" Steve says, speaking for the first time in an hour, as if he could read Eddie's mind and just wanted to prove him wrong. It makes Eddie smile.
"What's up?" Eddie asks.
"I'm gonna go home. I don't feel good," Steve says, and that gets Eddie to look at him.
Fuck, he doesn't look good.
Eddie stands without realizing he's doing it.
"Here," Eddie says, leading him to the dirty couch in the corner of the office. Steve sits next to him, and Eddie pulls his face closer, until his nose is buried into Eddie's neck, Eddie's hand pressed to Steve's forehead. He's burning up.
It's weird. It's been so long since he's touched anyone like this. He doesn't really understand why Steve, who is so standoffish with the rest of the world, has taken to him. Eddie thought he'd made himself scary and unapproachable. With his hair, and tattoos, and outwardly surly disposition. Steve Harrington just doesn't care about any of that, apparently.
"Better?" Eddie asks after a few minutes. Steve nods, pulling back and resting his head on Eddie's shoulder for a brief moment, before pulling away. Eddie's not his alpha, but he is an alpha.
And if he can help him feel better, he will.
Eddie discreetly scents him. Smells like regular Steve. Now that he's confident that Steve's not in danger, he encourages Steve to go home and rest.
"Go home. Take a nap. I'll bring dinner over after I close. Deal?" Eddie asks.
"Deal."
"Wayne made fried chicken!" Eddie shouts, kicking Steve's front door closed with his foot as he balances the bowls of food covered in foil.
Fried chicken, mashed potatoes, homemade gravy, corn, rolls. The works. If Eddie didn't know better he'd think Wayne was trying to woo Steve. Well, maybe he is. Woo him out of hiding.
Steve comes in, and he's riper than usual.
Eddie can't pinpoint what's going on. His first instinct is heat but Steve smells like this all the time. There should be a much bigger change.
"You feeling any better?" Eddie asks, and Steve raises his hand, rotating it in a wishy-washing movement.
"Eh," Steve says, and Eddie's not gonna overstay his welcome. Not if he doesn't feel good. If he's got a migraine, he doesn't need Eddie's loud ass here.
"Eat, I'll see you when you're feeling better," Eddie says, and Steve nods.
Steve doesn't show up. And keeps not showing up. By day seven, Eddie's officially worried sick.
Eddie makes his way over after he closes the garage, and grabs the spare key from the top of Steve's door frame.
In case of emergency. Eddie deems this as such.
"Steve?" Eddie calls out, and there's no answer, so he climbs the stairs, and he smells him before he sees him.
Pushing open the door, Eddie can see that his nest is full of Eddie's things. The whole room smells like oil, sweat and a hint of gasoline. It's. Well, it's a lot.
Under that, Eddie can smell Steve. His sweat, his slick. Eddie flares his nostrils, closing his eyes as he breathes deep. Steve's curled up in the middle of it, hair so wet it's clinging to his forehead, his neck. Curling around the edges. Eddie's never seen him look like that.
"Steve, are you okay?" Eddie asks, and Steve jolts.
Eddie holds up his hands, "Hey. You're okay. It's just me. You haven't come by in a week. I was worried."
Steve nods his head, laying it back down on his pillow, "It's bad this time. It'll let up eventually. Or I'll die. I don't have a preference at this point."
Steve might not have a preference, but Eddie sure does. Steve's not dying on his watch.
"Can I do anything for you?"
"Could I scent you?"
Eddie doesn't mind him doing it, but it feels like he's overstepping. He barged into Steve's house, and now into his nest? While he's in heat? He is in heat, Eddie thinks, but he just smells like Steve always smells.
Still, what choice does he have? Steve is suffering.
"Okay," Eddie says, shedding his jacket.
He sits down awkwardly on the edge of his bed, and assumes Steve is gonna scoot over and press his nose into Eddie's neck.
Eddie was wrong.
Steve crawls around until he's got his nose pressed into Eddie's groin. Where he smells strongest. He's not touching him, but he's close.
Fuck. Eddie's got control. He's not a young pup. But this is asking for a lot.
Steve's fingers grip Eddie's forearm, and the skin on them is pruny, and Eddie knows why. He can't think about that.
Steve's resting his head on Eddie's thigh now, and his purr is vibrating them both.
"That's it," Eddie says, petting Steve's hair.
"I'm tired," Steve says.
And Eddie imagines he is.
"Are you in heat?" Eddie asks.
Steve shrugs, "Always kinda am, I think," he mumbles. That explains a lot. The lack of change in his scent, the fact that he always makes himself scarce around other alphas.
He trusts Eddie. Eddie swallows. Tightening his grip on Steve's shoulder. Fuck. Steve's really gotta develop a plan before it gets this bad again. This can't keep happening. Not like this. It can't be good for him. You aren't meant to always be in heat.
"You're gonna have to line something up for next time," Eddie says gently.
Steve groans at the suggestion, his scent souring around the edges.
"I know you don't want to, but this feels dangerous."
This time, Steve nods ever so slightly
"I know. They're getting closer together and longer. Kinda all the time, on some level."
They definitely are if Eddie's never been able to tell the difference. It feels like Steve must always be on the way into or on the way out of a heat.
Fucking hell.
"It'll be okay. It'll be better. You'll see."
Now that Eddie knows, Steve has stopped hiding it, and Eddie realizes his migraine problem has been greatly exaggerated.
He doesn't have a headache problem, he has a heat problem.
And another fucking heat is already ramping up. Eddie feels like Steve's last one just ended days ago. He can smell the difference now that he knows Steve's pretty consistently in a low-grade heat at best.
"Steve."
"Don't even," Steve says, sitting down at the table.
Eddie's never seen anything like it. He's given him undershirts, and once, his sweaty handkerchief. The last time the shop rag truck came around, Eddie looked in the barrel and realized he really didn't have that many to send out to be laundered. Like, they'd all up and walked away. When the uniform truck came a week later, that's when Eddie realized someone had helped themselves to his stinky things.
Seeing his nest just confirmed it.
He orders more shop rags, and another set of uniform shirts. He'll just have to take at least one home every night, and then bring them back in when it's time for them to send them out to be laundered if he wants to keep them away from Steve's sticky fingers.
Steve clearly wasn't lying when he said he liked Eddie's scent, even if Eddie thinks that's kinda nuts. Eddie doesn't smell good.
Still, Steve needs to find heat help. And sooner rather than later.
And it's not gonna be Eddie. Not that Steve has come onto him again, or asked for that, he definitely hasn't, and Eddie's not about to offer. If Steve didn't try to get anything out of him in his nest the other day, he's pretty sure they're totally past that weird first encounter.
Which is good.
That'd be too messy. And Eddie's not looking for messy. He likes Steve and he doesn't want to fuck up a good thing. They're friends. Great friends, now.
Still. Dude needs laid.
And, well, maybe Steve is being too picky. A heat service, anything, might calm his instincts down. Something is haywire and in overdrive. He can't go on like this indefinitely. He needs a fucking knot. Dirty, greasy shop towels ain't gonna cut it.
But Eddie's definitely not gonna be another person in Steve's life to insist that Steve's doing something wrong with his own body.
"Are you a virgin?" Eddie asks a week later when Steve's only in a mild heat, not the full throes.
Steve laughs, "No? Where'd you get that idea?"
Eddie chuckles. Fuck, he doesn't know. It was stupid.
"Sorry, I don't know. Ignore me," Eddie says, taking a big bite of his sandwich.
"I've never been knotted, but I've had sex. Plenty. I'm not celibate. I'll have you know I was a babe in my youth."
Eddie nearly chokes, and tries to recover with even a trace of dignity. It's impossible. Steve's laughing.
He's still a babe now.
"Just never took a knot. Despite all the alpha whining I had to endure as they tried to cajole me into it."
"Never?" Eddie asks.
"Never," Steve confirms. "I just. I dug my heels in, just because I could. I'm stubborn. And then it went on for too long, that just letting some random alpha knot me seemed stupid. When I find one I think is worth it, if I do, then I'll do it. I'm not a prude. Furthest from it. I like sex. Love it. Am good at it, thank you very much," Steve says, and Eddie laughs. Fond.
"But being tied to some asshole alpha just to get my pussy filled wasn't my idea of fun."
Eddie nods. Fair enough. It's not like he has room to talk. It's been years, nearly twenty, since he's done it himself. There's a vulnerability to it, from both sides, and Eddie's just not into doing that with random omegas he can pick up in the bar on the bad side of town.
But Steve's never gonna meet the one, because the only person he ever interacts with, as far as Eddie knows, is Eddie.
Steve continues. "And right now it feels too dangerous to have casual sex. I'm in a drought, man. Dire times, indeed. But I'm always giving off the scent like I'm in heat these days. Alphas react to that. Well, most of them do, anyway."
It's pointed. It's not that Eddie hasn't reacted. Steve smells good. Always. Of course he does. But Eddie can control himself, and eventually he'd decided that that's just what Steve smells like. Eddie didn't fucking realize he was just always in some level of a heat. That's insane. Nobody lives like that.
Except Steve, apparently.
"I'm not scared of alphas. I know you think I am. But I know I can hold my own. I'd just rather not have to, you know?"
Eddie nods, and brushes his fingertips against Steve's wrist. Lightly marking him.
Steve brings his wrist to his nose, and inhales.
"How long have you been having this many heats?" Eddie's never seen someone have this many. It cannot be good for him.
"Since about the time I moved here. I mean, I was already having them way too often. But there were clear breaks, you know? Now, not so much."
Eddie hums in disapproval.
"Have you ever been in love?" Steve asks, as if that's the next logical part of this conversation. Maybe it is.
Eddie nods curtly, "Once. You?"
Steve shrugs, "It was always pretty one-sided."
"You just weren't that into them," Eddie confirms, or so he thinks. Steve shakes his head.
"No, they weren't that into me. Story of my life."
Eddie can't imagine how that could possibly be true. Steve's a catch. How he hasn't been caught is beyond Eddie's comprehension. If Eddie was in the market…and yeah, that's not a road he's gonna go down. Not now. Not ever.
"Then they weren't worth your love," Eddie states, and Steve smiles, but it's sad around the edges.
"I wish I believed that. I believe in love, at my core. I want to give love, and have that person want me to love them. I want to be someone's mate. Someone's whole world."
Eddie feels his gut twist with guilt that he's blatantly ignoring the fact that he could love Steve. Does love him. Eddie's just not a good partner, or alpha. Hell, if you ask some people in this town, he's not even a good person.
Steve deserves better.
"Anybody would be lucky to be loved by you," Eddie says.
"Yeah, sure," Steve says, like he doesn't believe a word Eddie's saying. It frustrates Eddie.
"No, really. The luckiest."
Steve smiles at him, and Eddie returns it.
"C'mon. It's time for lunch."
The next time Steve comes into the shop, Eddie can smell him first, then he sees his shoes.
"Steven. What can I do for you today?" Eddie teases from under the car.
"You think it's the knot I need or just a big ol' load of alpha come?" Steve asks out of the blue, so fucking bluntly, that Eddie nearly bangs his head on the undercarriage of this car he's working on.
Fuck. Well. That's an image.
"Eddie? Are you listening?" Steve questions.
"I'm listening," Eddie confirms, "I mean. I don't know. Which one is less horrifying to you?"
"Definitely the latter," Steve says, moving to sit down cross-legged by the car. Tilting his whole body nearly in half, so he can see Eddie. "Options I've come up with so far: One-night stand. Hooker. Sperm bank."
Eddie tinkers some more, but isn't really doing shit. He's far too distracted.
"What do you think?"
Eddie swallows, "The last one."
"Yeah, I think so, too."
The universe hates Eddie. Because they are still talking about this.
"The sperm bank said I'm too old, which, rude. I wasn't trying to get pregnant, and I explained that to them," Steve bitches, feet up on Eddie's desk, as he eats his burger. Steve had brought lunch and bad news. "They looked at me like I was some kind of pervert."
"Well, that is rude," Eddie agrees, shoving a handful of fries into his mouth.
"I guess I'll have to get black market street sperm," Steve says, and Eddie swallows a bite so big that it scratches his throat, giving him a moment of fear that he's gonna choke to death.
"Don't do that," Eddie quickly says, once he's dislodged it from his throat.
"You have a better idea?" Steve asks.
Well, fuck. If it means they can stop talking about this, Eddie will make a donation to the cause.
"I mean, I could jerk off in a cup. If you want. At least you'll know it's, you know, sanitary," Eddie says, blundering over his words. Sanitary? What the fuck. It's the most insane thing he's ever said, he's certain.
Steve laughs, like he's delighted that Eddie had to force those words out of his mouth. Asshole.
"Sanitary," Steve repeats, taunting him.
"You know what I mean. Don't do anything illegal. That's a bad idea. I've got come. Like, what am I doing with it?"
He sounds like a fucking idiot, but Steve is just staring at him. Looking far too hopeful.
"You really would?"
And even if he knows it's a stupid idea, Eddie nods.
Eddie squeezes his knot, milking another load out of himself into the little plastic cup. This is insanity. Purely chaotic behavior that they're both participating in right now. Eddie has lost his mind right along with Steve.
He draws it up into the baster Steve had given him.
It's still warm when he delivers it to Steve's door. Standing on his porch, waiting for the weirdest hand-off in history.
Steve waves him inside, damp hair plastered to his forehead. Eddie follows, but wasn't prepared for Steve to hike up his leg onto his kitchen chair, sliding the baster up the leg of his shorts, and well. Fuck. Steve's head is tilted back, throat exposed, and Eddie wants to bite.
Eddie wants to bite him more than he's ever wanted to bite anyone. Stupid fucking instincts. They've only ever gotten him into trouble.
He needs to get out of here. The smell of Steve this deep in heat, mixed with the scent of Eddie's own come now coating Steve's insides is too much.
"Better?" Eddie asks, and Steve nods, pulling the plastic out of himself, bringing it to his nose, giving it a sniff, before he licks the end of the empty baster.
"Jesus fucking Christ, Steve," Eddie says, and his dick is rock hard again. He's gotta be too old for that to be the case, at least outside of a rut, but goddamn if it ain't pressing against his zipper painfully right now.
"Figured it couldn't hurt," Steve says. "Thank you."
"You're welcome. See you soon, hopefully," Eddie says, and then rushes out the door, and back across the lawn.
If he jerks off in the garage bathroom like he's a teenager again, that's his own goddamn business.
Steve reports that it helped, but that it was only a temporary improvement. Knot. He needs a knot.
Eddie isn't jealous. He isn't.
Together they look at all the heat services around, trying to find one that seems promising and on the up and up.
Steve has a binder spread out in front of him. Eddie looks over his shoulder. Alphas. Lots and lots of alphas. All vetted. All perfectly safe options.
The best heat service in the state. Expensive. Very expensive.
Eddie hates them all.
"How do I pick one?" Steve asks, thumbing through the pages, like he's disinterested.
"By smell?" Eddie suggests. Eddie thinks that's what you're supposed to do.
Steve scratches at a sticker on the sheet, and Eddie wrinkles his nose. Scratch and sniff alphas. What has the world come to?
"Not that one. Gross," Eddie says, reaching down and flipping the page.
Steve scratches the next one. Worse. It's worse.
"They all smell bad," Steve huffs.
"They can't all smell bad."
"Well, they do!" Steve snaps.
Eddie reaches down and takes the book, flips to the front, and then the back. There. An index. Full of different top notes and the pages they can be found on. Some are obviously far more common than others. There are 24 entries under coffee.
"Cedar?"
"No."
"Whiskey?"
"No."
"Fresh cut grass."
"I'm allergic," Steve says haughtily.
"Well, what smells good to you then, your highness?" Eddie asks, and Steve looks up at him, giving him the look.
Eddie rolls his eyes.
"Well, I'm so sorry my stinky garage notes aren't commonplace," Eddie banters back, and Steve laughs, snatching the book back. Slamming the binder closed, pushing it away.
"I'm not doing this. I don't want to."
Eddie wants to shake him, "Steve. You're gonna hurt yourself."
Steve crosses his arms across his chest, and man, is he a stubborn fucker. He looks like a petulant child, not a middle-aged man with the first streaks of gray in his hair. Eddie's been going gray since he was twenty-two. The stress, Wayne said. Now, his dark hair is peppered with wild, wiry grays that never want to mind.
"What do you want? Me to knot you?" Eddie asks sarcastically.
Steve looks up at him with those big eyes.
Well, shit.
"Steve."
"I mean, ideally, yes. But no means no," Steve repeats back to him. "You've already gone above and beyond. And I'm so grateful. Being friends with you feels like I have an alpha in my corner, without all the stress of finding a mate."
Eddie pulls his hair out of his bun, re-doing it, just for something to do with his hands. He'd do it. Fuck. Of course he'd do it for Steve. He's just scared to death it's gonna ruin the one friendship he has these days. Sure, he has friends. In theory. Out in the world, living their lives. But actively here? Every day? It's just Steve.
And he likes that it's Steve.
"I'm always in your corner," Eddie says.
"I know," Steve answers, with a smile. "Please pick one for me."
Eddie picks up the book, and scans the scents. There's one entry under asphalt.
Eddie flips to that page and hands it over. Steve scratches the sticker, and gets a whiff. It's fine.
"Okay," Steve says. "Number 52 it is."
Eddie sits outside the back side of the garage, smoking a cigarette. He can see Steve's house from here. Mr. Asphalt showed up five minutes ago.
Worry churns in Eddie's gut. He hopes this works out for Steve. That it's a good experience, and that it helps him.
Eddie's stubbing out his cigarette when he hears Steve's screen door snap closed.
Mr. Asphalt is walking back across the lawn, and pulling away. That was fast. Too fast.
Steve comes down the steps as soon as he's gone, and Eddie slinks back into the shop, so he won't be caught spying.
When Steve appears in the open overhead door, Eddie plasters on a fake smile, "Well?"
Steve shakes his head, and Eddie feels relief, and then feels guilty about that.
"No?" Eddie asks.
"No," Steve confirms.
"We'll find a different one," Eddie suggests.
Steve shakes his head, "No. I'll be okay. I'm not doing that again."
And there's no way Eddie can make him.
Steve picks up a socket wrench, and flips it in his hand. Over and over. A nervous habit. He'll fiddle with anything, Eddie's found.
"I'll do it," slips out, Eddie's mouth betraying him.
Steve stills. Staring him down.
"If you want me to. I'd do it. For you."
"I want you to," Steve says quietly.
Eddie nods.
However, Eddie cannot in good conscience go through with this without coming totally clean with all his darkest secrets. All those binder alphas have been thoroughly background checked. Eddie hasn't.
He wouldn't pass one, if he was.
"I'm an ex-con," Eddie blurts out. "I did two years in my early twenties. I'm not dangerous."
Steve just nods along, non-plussed. Eddie doesn't get him. He really doesn't.
"Okay," Steve says.
"Okay?" Eddie questions.
"I know you're not dangerous, Eddie. I do know you. We've spent months getting to know each other. Anything that happened in the past doesn't change how I feel about the version of you I've gotten to know. And, for the record, I've never felt safer with anyone else in my entire life."
Eddie swallows.
"Do you want to tell me what happened?" Steve asks. "You don't have to."
And, yeah, Eddie does.
"I'm my father's son," Eddie says, "even if I swore I'd never be. I was so cocky about it. That I'd never wind up in prison like him. And yet," Eddie says, looking down. "I had an omega that I really loved, and we wanted to get mated. At least I thought so. My omega's ex-boyfriend had an issue with that. He made sure I got pinched for dealing. A set-up. I sold weed to an undercover cop. They said it was within 500 feet of a public park. I couldn't even see it around the corner. I fucked up."
"I'm sorry," Steve says, stepping closer, fingers brushing against Eddie's tattooed neck. Eddie had done everything he could to keep people away from him after he got out, and yet. Here's Steve.
"I fucked up. I've never forgiven myself for becoming just like my old man instead of like Wayne. I've tried hard to fix that since I got paroled. I'm done. Free and clear, now. Have been for a long time. But it was rough. I couldn't get a job. But I had to have a job for my parole to not get revoked. So, Wayne quit his union job. Cashed out his retirement, and bought this garage."
Eddie gets choked up just thinking about it, let alone talking about it.
Steve is looking in his eyes, right up close. It's kind of intense. Still, Eddie needs to continue.
"We made it work. And those four years were hard," Eddie says with a sigh, "I think the two in prison were easier. You can't convince yourself you're free on the inside. Outside, though? It was just an illusion. I was searched all the time. They wanted to find something. Anything. To send me back. He still had connections, and a vendetta against me. All for falling in love with someone who was never really mine in the first place."
Steve presses his nose into Eddie's neck, and Eddie's hand finds Steve's back, clutching.
"You don't realize how much freedom you have until you're subjected to warrantless searches all the goddamn time for years, at all hours of the day and night."
Steve rumbles against Eddie's chest, throwing off a calming scent that Eddie soaks up, greedily.
"After four years of going from home to the garage and back again, and that's basically it, it was a habit. And I never changed it."
"Understandable," Steve says, cheek brushing Eddie's neck.
"I just wanted to be left alone," Eddie admits.
"And then here I came to bother you," Steve says, fingers grazing the other side of Eddie's neck.
"And then here you came to show me that letting people in isn't so bad," Eddie corrects.
"Mmm," Steve hums against Eddie's neck, sending vibrations through his body, straight to his dick.
"So, if none of that scares you—"
"—it doesn't," Steve interrupts, and his scent says that's true. One of them is distressed right now, and it's not Steve. "Take me home."
"But you're not…" Eddie starts, but he is. He always is. There's constant heat around the edges of Steve's scent, and Eddie shouldn't at all be surprised by that by now.
Eddie takes Steve's hand in his own, and doesn't let go, even as he has to lock up the shop one-handed.
They're doing this.
Steve's body is unreal. Eddie's never seen an omega like him before. Solid, hairy. Honestly more hairy than Eddie's ever dreamed of being. He's an omega, but still extremely masculine in a way that Eddie is definitely digging. Thick thighs that have wrapped themselves around Eddie's hips. Squeezing.
Splayed against the bedding, Steve looks more at peace than Eddie's ever seen him. Eddie runs his hands over Steve's warm, too warm, chest.
"You sure you still want this?" Eddie asks, sweating dripping down his brow. He's showing restraint. "With me?"
He's nervous.
It's not that he's never done this, it's just been a while, and Steve's never. There's pressure to perform, to get it right.
Pressure to hope that this will actually help Steve, and not just be a bad idea that they dove headfirst into together too fast.
Steve nods, breathing ragged, throwing off so much horny scent that Eddie's drunk on it. On him.
Eddie's let someone in again, and he's terrified. They haven't discussed this enough. Eddie knows that. He's doing it anyway, and if he gets burned again, well, fuck.
"Okay, sweetheart," Eddie says, nudging the head of his cock against Steve's opening. Easily sliding into Steve. He's so slick, so open and ready, that Eddie groans at the sensation. Steve clutches at him, bearing down, as he makes a noise that should make Eddie come immediately. Somehow, he doesn't. That's a minor miracle. But he knows it's not gonna take long. Age, be damned.
Eddie tries to rein himself in as he's thrusting deeper, once, twice, but doesn't take much longer before he's feeling his knot start to catch. He'd be more embarrassed if it didn't feel so good.
Steve keens, squirming, lifting his ass off the bed.
"Sorry, this is so fast," Eddie apologizes, and Steve makes a dismissive noise. "Not a great first experience, I know. Last chance to back out."
"God, no. Fuck. Just do it," Steve whines, and fuck. Eddie's gonna.
Eddie's knot pops past Steve's rim one more time, and that's it. Locked into place, Eddie comes harder than he can ever remember coming in his whole fucking life. Steve's leaning forward, arms wound around Eddie's neck, pulling him close, as Steve mouths at Eddie's neck. Smelling. Tasting.
Blunt teeth grazing Eddie's mating gland.
They are playing with fire here, but maybe they always have been, Eddie realizes.
Eddie comes again, body spasming as Steve clenches around him, pulsing. Steve's so tight. Eddie's instincts are to bite him, to claim him, to keep him forever. He won't, but he's not gonna make it out of this without some additional damage.
Just what he needs. More of that.
Steve's fever breaks, and he's soaked. Trembling, and Eddie pulls him close. He's cooler than he's ever felt any time Eddie's ever touched him. Maybe he has always been running a low-grade fever. Fuck, that'd be awful.
"That's it, sweat it out," Eddie whispers, brushing his lips against Steve's forehead.
The next round is more comfortable, and Eddie tries to shove back the feeling that they are having actual sex here. This time isn't as urgent, it's just learning to move with each other. And they move together damn good.
Steve's no shrinking violet. Not that Eddie really thought he was, but he's an active participant, as into this as Eddie is, and that just fuels the fire burning inside Eddie.
Round three is filthy, Steve running his mouth about getting bred. It should terrify Eddie. It doesn't. It won't happen, they've likely missed their window for that happening on its own by years, even without all the issues Steve's reproductive system clearly has.
Eddie's okay with that. He's never felt the urge to have pups of his own. He's always been far too scared he'd repeat the cycle again.
Steve whines loudly as Eddie eats him out. Steve riding his face, Eddie with two fingers buried in Steve's cunt. The amount of slick might drown him, but at least he'd die happy. Steve's clutching at the headboard, grinding down, and when he comes, the extra slick he releases coats Eddie's face.
Steve pulls up and Eddie licks his lips, still holding onto Steve's thighs.
He's never had sex like this. Not even close. How the fuck was Steve not locked down by someone in the past twenty years? It's absurd. Any alpha worth a damn should trip over their own knot just for the chance to worship Steve.
Steve crawls off, and flops next to Eddie, and Eddie reaches down and takes his hand into his own.
Steve's heat has broken. Honest to god, broken. For the first time since Eddie's known him. Eddie feels relief for him as they rock together one more time. Because they want to. He smells different, and Eddie almost feels like he's meeting Steve for the very first time.
Eddie's knot catches, and they're tied together once more.
Steve turns his head, nudging his neck towards Eddie's mouth. Eddie runs his tongue over the swollen gland, and Steve sighs. His scent is still heavy, but much less horny.
It smells a lot like pack.
Like love.
As if Eddie's found a home again.
Eddie moves to suck on the swollen bulge, and it bursts in his mouth. Eddie freezes. He wasn't anywhere close to biting him.
"I'm sorry," Steve says, fingers pressing into Eddie's back, like he's scared Eddie's about to bolt. How? They're tied together. And what the fuck is he sorry about? This is on Eddie. Maybe he was being too rough. Too careless.
Eddie needs to spit or swallow, and he can't exactly ask Steve which he prefers. He pulls back and meets Steve's eyes. Trying to find out what he should do, what Steve wants him to do. If he spits it out, if he doesn't follow up on the broken gland with a bite, it will likely eventually heal.
They do get broken sometimes. Accidents happen, sexual or otherwise.
Or, he can swallow, bite him, and complete the bond.
"I want you," Steve admits, like it costs him a lot, eyes big and damp, "but I know you said you don't want a mate. No means no. Spit it out."
Eddie growls, a low rumble in his chest. All Eddie wants is Steve. He's just fucking terrified of that. But now he's far more terrified of not having him.
Steve's eyes fall soft and hooded. He touches Eddie's cheek. "Okay. I hear you, honey. Alpha. Yes. Swallow."
That's all Eddie needs. He swallows, then tilts Steve's neck and bites him. For real, and with purpose. Steve keens, clamping down on Eddie's knot, making Eddie come again.
Eddie runs his hand over Steve's hair, over his face, thumb brushing his damp cheek. Eddie presses his own cheek to Steve's, sure his own is wet, too.
Then, Eddie pulls back, tilting his head to the side. Offering. It's not needed for the bond to take. Most alphas don't want marked up like that. Eddie's not most alphas, and thinks it can only make their bond stronger if Steve wants to bite him back.
Steve sinking his teeth into Eddie's neck sends a flood of relief through Eddie's system. A release of tension he didn't even know he was holding, has maybe always been holding.
He comes again. Into his omega. Into his mate.
Steve is his, for real. Forever. And he is Steve's.
Eddie never thought he'd be anybody's anything.
"That's it, sweetheart," Eddie says, throat working hard around the words, still feeling Steve's teeth clamped down, "Make me yours."
Steve growls.
Unconventional, most definitely. Eddie smiles.
Steve is latched on pretty good, and Eddie refuses to rush him.
They've got all the time in the world now.
One Year Later
Eddie changes the rim on a car that drove a little too far on a flat tire. The whole place stinks of burnt rubber.
Until it doesn't. He smells Steve before he sees him.
"Hey, sweetheart," Eddie calls out, and Steve walks his way. Leaning down to kiss him.
Steve moves around the shop with confidence now. Waiting on customers of all kinds, taking on a huge share of the business end of the garage. Wayne was relieved. One, that Steve was real, and good, and not just more trouble knocking at Eddie's door demanding to be let in.
But also for the help. He needed it. The bookkeeping is not Eddie's thing, but Steve's good at it. He's already collected on some overdue accounts, just using his blunt directness. Eddie's impressed.
Steve Harrington takes no shit. Not from Eddie, and not from the customers. Not now that his heats have leveled out to a very normal amount for an omega his age.
And Eddie knows without a doubt that while they were both scared to jump into this thing, because the baggage they've both carried around for decades is heavy and cumbersome, that they made the right decision. Together.
Eddie has a mate.
He has Steve.
And he loves Steve, just how he is. There's no box Eddie would ever want to shove him into. This is the omega he wants. Loves. The one that's perfectly Steve, just as he is.
Eddie's happy. It's weird, still foreign and novel. That he's allowed himself to be happy with Steve, guilt-free. The past, the past. The future, wide open.
As Uncle Wayne would say, good things come to those who wait.
Steve watches Eddie try to fix his hair after they see a concert.
Steve sits on Eddie’s desk chair and watches across the hallway as Eddie wrestles with a wide toothed comb at his bathroom sink. He’s feeling good—tired, but not like the night should’ve been over hours ago—and despite the drying sweat and sobering up, he thinks he’d be happy just endlessly hanging out, drawing lines up and down Eddie’s body with his eyes, zoning out to the tendons in his hands.
Eddie had backcombed his hair earlier, because he wanted it BIG for the concert. That was good—he and Eddie had stayed at the edge of the pit. He’s a natural wall, and Eddie lit up like a dog chasing a car as he got to shove people. When Steve found a loose shoe and handed it to a tall guy, Eddie had caught his eye and beamed at him like he was being useful and fitting in. It’s easy, somehow. He was worried, looking like himself, in line at the thing, but there were other guys who looked regular too, and he’s not that preppy these days. Dressing for monster guts had changed him.
Eddie’s using oil on the knots in his hair. If he just got in the shower and used conditioner it’d go better, but Steve’s not going to suggest that because then he would have to find something else to look at while he simmers pleasantly under the echoes of their night out. Eddie’s gonna have to shower anyway, he’s not going to want to go to sleep with all the cooking oil in his hair, but that’s later. Maybe Steve can time it so he suddenly has to piss when Eddie’s in there and then maybe they can hang out, like he and Robin do, with the curtain shut tightly but trusting each other to be cool.
Watching Eddie work at his hair is not like watching Robin get ready, though. He doesn’t stare her down from wherever he can and catalogue the cut-out of her body like he does to Eddie—like he could take scissors and take him and put him on top of whatever picture he wanted to.
He could make a whole book of Eddie. Cut-outs of any second like a freeze frame in a movie and he could—
“Jesus FUCK!”
Steve jumps up and has to take a few breaths, watching Eddie’s frustration—boiled over; pasta water all over the stove—before he can swallow down his heartbeat and go into the bathroom.
“Alright. I’m taking over,” he declares, Coach style, like he never does with his friends but Eddie just gives him big eyes and holds the comb out. “Take off your shirt.”
Eddie eyes get even bigger but he does, flinging it across the hallway to the corner where his laundry basket is buried under dirty clothes. Maybe later Steve will declare something about that too.
Steve surveys the bathroom and takes Eddie’s wrist for no good reason, guiding him into the kitchen with its big sink.
“Run the warm water,” he says, lingering until Eddie nods, and even then he waits until the air gets awkward before he lets go. “Not too hot.”
He grabs conditioner and a towel, folding it to cushion Eddie’s naked back against the counter.
“How do you want me?” Eddie grins, toothy—funny. Steve wants to bend him face down and fit his hips to his ass, sink his fingers in his hair. That’s how.
“Face up, I’ll be careful.”
Eddie lays himself back, waiting, and Steve’s mouth fills with spit with anticipation.
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This is one of my own creation: Jeff and Gareth are the only two members of Corroded Coffin who are able to read sheet music/sight read. Ergo: they work melody, and Eddie and Unnamed Freak work more with lyrics. I’d imagine Jeff and Gareth as the band kids I grew up with: screwing around during band class but they end up being the pivotal pieces of the orchestra. These are the two you whisper a frantic “where the hell are we” to if you’re lost and can’t find your place in the song.
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Prompt: Million | Word Count: 888 | Rating: T | CW: Post-Apocalyptic | Pairing: Steddie | POV: Eddie | Tags: Canon Divergence Post-S4, Hurt/Comfort, End of the World, Survival, Just the Two of Us, The World is Bleak, But We're Together, Steve's Sick, And Eddie Has To Take Point
Set in my connected one-shot End of the World AU 'verse, but can be read standalone.
A million miles. That's how far Eddie thinks they've walked.
He tries to do the math in his head and quickly realizes they haven't. That's too far. Years. Decades of walking.
A million steps, though? Probably.
There's a bag strapped to Eddie's back, and a second to his front. It's too heavy, but Steve's not doing so well, so Eddie's carrying the heaviest load for a change. Eddie'd given him medicine, dosed out of the big book, but he's scared it's losing potency as it ages. There's no way to get more, or least nothing fresher, so they've got what they've got.
Eddie's the one that's always sick. Always weak. And it freaks him the fuck out that it's Steve right now.
"Two more miles," Steve says, walking like every step he takes is killing him. They probably are. Eddie knows Steve can't possibly know how far they are from anything. They don't even know where they are, not for sure.
"Two more miles," Eddie still agrees. Because he will always agree with anything Steve offers up. It's just the two of them. They gotta work together, not against each other.
And at this point, two miles, or ten, doesn't really matter.
A demobat is flapping towards them.
They can hear them coming now. With the world this quiet, this still, they are very hard to sneak up on, which is kind of awesome. But Eddie knows that goes both ways. They are also making a lot of noise, just walking along.
Eddie shrugs the bags off, both of them falling with thuds. Steve's bat in hand. He can do this. Has. But Steve generally takes the lead.
The bat swoops low, and Eddie drops his shoulder.
Swinging, he makes contact with the bat, and it squalls. Shrieking at the audacity of Eddie striking it, as if it hadn't intended to rip his flesh from his body again at first opportunity.
He hits it once. Twice, getting it to the ground. And then, he does the maneuver he's seen Steve do so many times, stepping on it, before ripping it in half.
Eddie looks over towards Steve. Wanting approval? Maybe. Wanting to make sure he's still okay? Definitely.
Steve is fine. Breathing a little heavy, but still upright as he coughs.
How they can still catch illnesses with no other humans around is beyond Eddie's comprehension. But Steve is sick. Pneumonia, maybe, with the way his lungs sound.
"Got him," Eddie says, smiling, and Steve nods, holding his thumb up.
They've gotta find somewhere for him to rest. Two miles have come and gone.
Eddie isn't exactly sure where they are, but everything is covered in lush foliage. Kudzu, Wayne's voice in his head provides.
Swallowing the lump in his throat, Eddie picks up the backpacks. He doesn't have time to wallow in his feelings. They gotta keep moving. Keep searching. For what, he's not sure. But Steve says walk, and Eddie will walk.
There's a set of abandoned train cars up ahead, and Eddie figures that might be as good of a place as any to sleep for a while.
"Train?" Eddie asks, and Steve nods. Train.
Eddie pries open one of the doors, checking it out, and it's empty. Except for some huge sacks of rice. Excellent. He hoists their backpacks up into the train car, and then squats down, making a booster step for Steve with his hands.
Steve steps into it, and Eddie pushes him up into the car. Then, he pulls himself up afterwards. Shoving the door closed behind them, only leaving a crack for fresh air and a sliver of light.
The pallets of rice seem like a pretty good bed to Eddie, and he motions for Steve to climb up. He does.
Steve sighs, like the relief of being off his feet is overwhelming. Eddie knows how that feels.
"Want me to take off your boots?" Eddie asks. Taking off shoes is a luxury these days, and Steve looks around, like he's weighing the risks. Finally, he nods.
And Eddie heads over, unlacing Steve's boots carefully, and then gently sitting them down, right within reach in case they need to bail quickly.
"Ah," Steve says, smiling, stretching his toes. "Thanks."
Eddie stands at the end of the pallet, and cups one of Steve's feet between both of his hands, kneading his thumbs gently into the sole of his foot.
"You feeling any better?" Eddie asks. He has to feel better. Eddie can't do this without Steve.
"Now I am," Steve says, and Eddie isn't sure if he's just humoring Eddie or if he is actually turning a corner. Eddie hopes for the latter.
"That's good," Eddie says, and rubs Steve's tired, aching feet until Steve pats the bag of rice next to him. Eddie doesn't need to be told twice.
There's plenty of options, other pallets, but being anywhere other than side-by-side is unappealing. Eddie lays down, shoulder touching Steve's.
Steve coughs, but it sounds marginally better than it did yesterday or the day before that. Eddie'll take it. Baby steps. Moving forward is all they can do. When you're the only people in the world, as far as they can tell anyway, that's the only option.
Hell, maybe they'll even find someone else out there in the next million steps.
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