NOSTALGIC CHICHI 🪷

sorry for acting gross perverted obsessed & deranged. it’s cause i am gross perverted obsessed & deranged

I'm so chronically online, to the point where I would deadass still read fanfiction and doom scroll on tiktok, even if I found out the world was ending tomorrow. 😭 like instead of spending my last day on earth doing something productive, I would be on the Internet LOLOLOL.

i personally love to over analyze everything and suffer

It is so fucking exhausting fighting your brain every day dude

i actually do run out of time for a lot of things constantly due to being broke or neurodivergent or sick LOL. sometimes it really is just too late. and those opportunities are never coming back and sometimes it’s my fault for not taking them and sometimes it’s just unfair circumstances. either way theres no magic platitude i can tell myself that makes me entirely disregard that regret. or stop grieving the loss

the art of pretending it doesn’t hurt

in that weird silly little spot between ‘wanting to curl up in a ball in the dark’ and ‘let’s go fucking crazy and do something insanely reckless’

can’t remember what it’s like to not feel tired

i can predict everything that’s going to happen ever again with complete accuracy

my red flag is that i think everyone i meet hates me

I guess I am just gonna suffer in silence.

Kinda really hate myself lately