DARKER, DEARIE

“You can squeeze my hand if you need to.”

“You are so beautiful. It pains me you can’t see it.”

“You’ve been through so much… you deserve to rest.”

“You’re scared. It’s okay to admit it, there’s no shame in it.”

“I’m always going to have your back. You know that, right?”

“There’s nothing to be scared of. No one can hurt you here.”

“You don’t have to be perfect. I would never expect you to be.”

“Here, punch this pillow. Do it. I swear it’ll help you feel better.”

“I’m here, whether you need hugs, or ice cream, or… anything.”

“I’m here for you. I will always be here for you, as long as I live.”

“Don’t let them get under your skin. You’re more than their jeers.”

“No, there’s nothing wrong with crying. Shhhh, there, let it all out.”

“You look like you need a hug. Do you want me to give you a hug?”

“You’re one of the strongest people I’ve ever met. you’ll survive this.”

“I swear, I’ll never let anyone hurt you, again. You’ll be safe with me.”

“No one expects you to be indestructible. It’s alright to break sometimes.”

“There is nothing you could ever do or say that would make me love you less.”

“Do you want to just order pizza, watch a movie, and forget about it all for a minute?”

“Even after all you’ve been through, you still have the gentlest soul. I admire that about you.”

“You don’t always have to be the hero. sometimes it’s okay for other people to save you, too.”

“If you need to scream… scream. You’ve been bottling this all up for so long, you need to let it out somehow.”

“You know, you’re braver than anyone I’ve ever met. If there’s anyone who can get through this, it’s you.”

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“You’re the boss.“

“My special monster.”

“It isn’t good to be alone.“

“I have disappointed you.“

“You’re not local, are you?”

“The boss. Yep, that’s me.“

“Time travel… that’s so cool.“

“Okay, time for a new plan. Run!”

“Oh yes, dear. You’ll do very nicely.“

“Do me a favor. Cause a distraction.“

“Right. Right, we’re getting out of here.“

“Put down your weapon, human female.“

“You know, I think you will be just splendid.”

“What happened to you? Can’t you speak?“

“I could open this door. Would you like that?“

“You’re making a habit of this, getting us lost.“

“Did you think I’d forgotten you, dear monster?”

“You know I cannot bear to look at sick people.“

“The signs are all there. The pattern of scarring.“

“I think there may be subtler ways of proceeding.”

“The Crimson Horror, that’s what they’re calling it.“

“I think… I think I’ve seen these symptoms before.“

“You won’t have to worry about a thing ever again.“

“He’s not the first one I’ve had in here looking like that.“

“The bright day is done, child, and you are for the dark.“

“Promise me you will not abandon me… Promise me that.”

“Do not despair. I offer a way out. There is a different path.“

“If I have not returned in an hour, you must fetch the police.“

“What happened to you? How long have you been like that?“

“Process didn’t work on me… maybe because I’m not human.“

“But, if you’re very good, you can stay here. You’ll be my secret.”

“In the wrong hands… Do you know what these are? The wrong hands.”

“Do you not yet understand? There can be no place for people such as you.“

“That’s nonsense. Stupid, backward nonsense, and you know it. You know it.“

“It asked for permission to enter and then it fell over. What are we to make of it?“

“I don’t mean no harm to you, but you try anything funny and I’ll leave you here to rot. Is that understood?“

“All these years I have helped you, served you, looked after you. Do they count for nothing, nothing at all?“

“Am I alone?“

“I was too broken to try.”

“Tell me why I hurt this way.”

“Don’t forget to take it easy.”

“You gave me your demons.”

“Would you die for me today?“

“You were too late, somehow.”

“You’re trying to save my soul.”

“So why do we hurt each other?“

“I’m ready for a reason to believe.”

“Should I even love you anymore?”

“All this hate will burn your life down.”

“Just forget the ones who let you go.”

“I want you to know you’re not alone.”

“Why do I believe the things you say?”

“Where does all this pain come from?“

“I really need them not to fail me, now.” 

“I’m too scared to look behind that door.”

“None of this makes sense in this reality.”

“I’m just holding on to my better demons.”

“Forget the ones too scared to know you.”

“Do the angels sing if you can’t hear them?“

“I still feel so much pain here from the past.”

“Life was a cold song that taught me not to cry.”

“They are children who cannot love or accept love.“

“And there’s no easy way to tell you that I’m gone…”

“I never thought I was good enough for anybody else.”

“When no one cared about me, dreams were all I had.”

“When I finally met an angel, I didn’t know what to say.”

“And there’s no easy way to say that we both changed.”

“I remember suffering with every single word they said.”

“Does the sun shine on you everyday, wherever you are?”

“I’ll be waiting here, to show you how to come back home.”

“I wanted to believe that I belonged somewhere on my own.”

“And even when I ran away, the voices in my head… they stayed.”

“I have you now.”

“I seem to have found it.”

“I’m lucky I found you first.“

“Did you think I had a choice?“

“This is our most desperate hour.“

“Surely he must be dead by now.“

“I find your lack of faith disturbing.”

“You mean it controls your actions?“

“How am I ever gonna explain this?“

“I have a very bad feeling about this.“

“Help me, ____. You’re my only hope.”

“Yeah, but this time I’ve got the money.“

“I’m getting too old for this sort of thing.“

“She’ll die before she’ll tell you anything.“

“Great shot, kid! That was one in a million!“

“You didn’t think I was gonna run, did you?“

“They’re more dangerous than you realize!“

“Aren’t you a little short for a stormtrooper?”

“These are not the Droids you’re looking for.“

“What an incredible smell you’ve discovered!“

“Your eyes can deceive you. Don’t trust them.“

“You must do what you feel is right, of course.“

“If you give it to me, I might forget I found you.“

“We have no weapons! You can’t possibly — !”

“Listen, I can’t get involved! I’ve got work to do!“

“I can’t even see! How am I supposed to fight?“

“They’ll soon be back, and in greater numbers.”

“You came in that? You’re braver than I thought.“

“I’ve got to go home. It’s late, I’m in for it as it is.“

“I’ve been looking forward to this for a long time.“

“In my experience, there is no such thing as luck.“

“If you are right, he must not be allowed to escape.“

“I am altering the deal. Pray I don’t alter it any further.”

“The plans you refer to will soon be back in our hands.“

“Kid, I’ve flown from one side of this galaxy to the other.“

“Who’s more foolish, the fool or the fool who follows him?“

“When I left you, I was but a learner. Now I am the master.“

“You’re all clear, kid! Now let’s blow this thing and go home!“

“I recognized your foul stench when I was brought onboard.“

“It’s too late. You should’ve paid him when you had the chance.“

“I’ll pay you back, plus a little extra. I just need a little more time.“

“I’m surprised you had the courage to take the responsibility, yourself.“

“You don’t know how hard I found it, signing the order to terminate your life.“

“It is possible — however unlikely — that they might find a weakness and exploit it.”

“Look, next time you wanna talk to me, come see me, yourself. Don’t send one of these twerps.”

“_____’s put a price on your head so large, every bounty hunter in the galaxy will be looking for you.”

‘ are you bleeding? ’

‘ take it easy. you hit your head. ’

‘ where does it hurt? ’ 

‘ sit still and let me take a look! ’

‘ how did you get that black eye? ’ 

‘ you should see the other guy. ’ 

‘ did i say you could get out of bed? ’

‘ that’s going to leave a bruise. ’

‘ i’ll get some ice. ’ 

‘ that’s what you get for picking fights. ’

‘ are you trying to give me a heart attack? ’

‘ what’s wrong with you? ’

‘ you can barely stand. ’

‘ did you throw the first punch? ’

‘ that’s a nasty bump. ’

‘ get in the car. you’re going to the hospital. ’

‘ at least bandage it. ’ 

‘ no, you’ll get an infection. ’ 

‘ wet floor signs are there for a reason, you know. ’

‘ you’re lucky. that icicle could’ve killed you. ’

‘ where’s your gratitude? i rescued you! ’

‘ i’m calling the nurse. ’

‘ was that stupid dare worth it? ’

‘ what happened to you? ’

‘ sit down. i’ll make some hot chocolate and fix you right up. ’

‘ are those bandages? ’

‘ you need stitches. ’

‘ look out for that tree branch. ’

‘ i’ve got you. just stay awake. can you do that for me? ’

‘ lean on me. ’

‘ you got two choices: let me carry you, or die out here. take your pick. ’

‘ shit, you’re burning up. ’  

‘ you’re not dying. it’s only a sprained ankle. ’

‘ lie down. ’

‘ i’m sorry. i know it hurts. here, hold my hand. ’

‘ you’re in no condition to be walking around. ’

‘ wake up! wake up! ’

‘ i don’t feel sorry for you. ’

So - I can’t promise I’m not gonna be spotty with my attention span (since my hyperfixations still do tend to cycle even with my medication lmao) but I’ve decided I want to officially return! In that same train of thought, I’m older now, and I’ve had this blog for almost 9 years now; so I’d like to think my writing skills have improved at least a little, so I’m gonna steer clear of the one-line replies I used to do far too much of 😅

“ i still have the scars. “

“ you will not hurt me, again. “

“ and, despite it all, i survived. “

“ my innocence died with them. “

“ please, give me a reason to stay. “

“ eventually, you just get used to it. “

“ even hell would spit me back out. “

“ you’re still a fighter, right? prove it. “

“ remorse has no place in my heart. “

“ i’m sorry. i never meant to change. “

“ strike me again and you will learn… “

“ i am stronger than this. i have to be. “

“ ——– but, you said that you loved me? “

“ you point and laugh as i crack and break. “

“ is there anything left in your shallow heart? “

“ i know there’s no fixing me, i’m too far gone. “

“ how did your gentle heart become so jaded? “

“ don’t cry for me, now. don’t you dare. not you. “

“ you’ve been fighting too hard for too long, now. “

“ my halo keeps slipping down. it’s choking me, now. “

“ their lives aren’t worthless. they’re just… worth less. “

“ your touch does not need to be soft. i will not break. “

“ i’ve paid for my sins. now, i come to collect for yours. “

“ your hands looked like safety… until they turned to fists. “

“ i was too young. i didn’t know. i tried. i did try. i am sorry. “ 

“ there is nothing beautiful about the way i’ve been broken. “

“ but moving on means letting you go, and i’m not ready, yet. “

“ spit out the blood and keep going. be strong. they still need you. “

“ someday, i’ll be strong enough, brave enough… not today, not yet. “

” poor little lamb, so lost and afraid… bleating for help that never came. “

“ you threaten to throw me to the wolves? do it. i’ll be in better company there. “

“ in all these years, your arms are the only place that have ever felt like a home. “

“ as the flames rise, i will laugh while you choke on the ashes of all your mistakes. “

“ you were iron and i was glass. how easy it must have been to shatter me at your feet. “

“ the worst part is when i can look someone in the eye and say ‘ it’s okay, i’m used to it’. “

“ ‘ where’s your conscience? where’s your heart? ‘  they’re six feet under, dead and gone. “

“ come back to bed, my dear. you’ve woven these sheets with webs of lies… now sleep in it. “

“ i don’t know which is worse: remembering everything you did to me, or knowing that you don’t. “

“ you are whole galaxies encased behind patient smiles and a gentle heart, beautiful and infinite. “

“ you are a thunderstorm. fierce. intense. powerful. dangerous. and I wouldn’t want you any other way. “

“ somehow, without me even realizing it, you became so, so important… the most important part of my life. “

“ i was broken, again and again, melted down, remade, reforged, until nothing remained of who i’d been before. “

“ all of your pretty words cannot convince me there is a shred of beauty left in that vile, putrid wreckage you presume to call a heart. “

“ they shattered you apart, rebuilt you from the shards. and, now, when you look in the mirror… you can’t even tell who you used to be. “

            𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚟𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞'𝚛𝚎 𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚎𝚘𝚞𝚜 𝚙𝚊𝚝𝚑, 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚟𝚎                                               𝚢𝚘𝚞'𝚛𝚎 𝚊 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚌𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚐𝚘𝚘𝚍. 

                                        —   𝙱𝚞𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞'𝚛𝚎 𝚗𝚘𝚝.   —