Jireh

I’ve been gone for a while for a lot of reasons and nobody knows my story. I’ve disappointed people along the way and even worse, I disappointed myself. I was silent, I had nowhere to go. I lost people. I realized the world is full of temporary things, even people. I don’t even know if someone will read my story anymore. Everything seems so different. I feel so different. I see people leaving me behind and because of that I learned to appreciate those who stayed. I had that thought of making myself well-known through my stories before, an ambition I thought could make me happy. It’s gone now. . Nothing lasts, not even dreams. Sometimes not even friends. Sometimes not even love but that doesn’t mean it’s not real at all. I think there are times and there are things that are not about making them last forever but instead making them something worthwhile. I know it’s sad when they leave but a new chapter will always come. New people will come. They may not be permanent but they can be worth it. . I know I left people for some reasons and for that I’m sorry. I’ve made promises I couldn’t keep. I feel like I living in my own darkness, the darkness I created myself, pretending I’m fine but really I’m not. I don’t know what my next story is. I don’t even know if I’ll even write one again. But I’ll always be here. Hoping for something to light me up. If you’re reading this, you can leave me, I understand I might not be worth something to you. I won’t even get mad. But I’d be happy if you stay. . ✋🏻✨🤚🏻 . #MindsOfHipster #handmentality #handsinframe #grammerph #freedomthinkers #vscophilippines #fairylights

All your life you've always been afraid. You've always been the one being left behind. You depend too much on people and cling only to their expectations. And the moment they let you down is the moment you lose yourself. You're scared to move on alone, who wouldn't be? . Sometimes you just gotta push through. People will always let you down. They will always break you. But if you decide to leave all those behind, then you'll know there's more worth moving on that staying in. You are limitless so stop letting them decide who you are and what you can do. They can judge you or maybe discourage you. But that's all that they can do. If you won't let them, then they can't touch you. . Don't be scared of people because those who discourage you only know little. Those who choose to go further beyond expectation know better. You are not meant to be confined inside other people's point of view, you are meant to do greater. In the end, you win. That's what matters. . ⛰☁️ . #MindsOfHipster #handmentality #grammerph #curationnation #wheretonext #roamersworld #vscophilippines #phculture (at Mt. Maculot Cuenca, Batangas)

It's when we lose the things we never thought we had that we realize how precious they were. Maybe because we were used to the thought that they will always be there no matter what. And we forgot that they're just like dust that when we hold them loose they start to drip away. . We take for granted those who care all because maybe we are too fed up of the thought that they care and they always will. But for how long? People only stay for as long as they can. No one stays forever but it's sad if we lose them now. . It's sad to think that once you were worth something to someone and now you're only worth a memory. If only we take one moment and think, put ourself in their shoes. Maybe we can see, right now, how precious we are to the people we are about to lose. . 🏜 . #MindsOfHipster #grammerph #freedomthinkers #wheretonext #curationnation #phculture #handmentality #handsinframe (at Dubai, United Arab Emirates)

LYou'll never understand life if you refuse to experience the things beyond your bounderies. You'll never know what you could do or where you could go if you're too afraid to take the first step. After all, life is not just about one place, it's not just about what you are now but it's about what more you can do with it. . Limits are only made so we can push ourselves higher. If we have no limits then what else would thrill us? It's not about who you are now or what resources you have but it's about how brave you're willing to take the risks. . I think it's best to invest in experience rather than the things that fade away. Not all of us are that brave, not even me, but some of us are taking a step higher. . 🌵☀️ . #MindsOfHipster #grammerph #curationnation #phculture #vscophilippines #freedomthinkers #wheretonext (at Dubai, United Arab Emirates)

I know we've through struggles in different ways. We have different stories. They maybe be good or bad and sometimes somehow it seemed the year only passed us by leaving us with empty hearts. It seemed we remember the struggle, the heartaches but is that really our story? . Whatever we've been through is only part of it. And we may feel that we deserve every inch of the struggle but more of that we deserve to create a better story. All the broken ways we've been only lead us to something we deserve. And we deserve the best. . Despite the world being so cruel we should never stop dreaming. We are part of it. And no matter how it puts us down dreams are what raise us up. The year is going to end soon. Another new year will come. It's not new life, it's not new beginnings nor new hope. It's only the continuation of eveything. But we can choose to make it better. . Merry Christmas! ✨🎄✨ . #MindsOfHipster #phculture #grammerph #curationnation #vscophilippines #handmentality

Why do we always hurt the ones we love? Or sometimes take them for granted? And sometimes in an unfortunate moment we tend to run away from people who love us way too much. Maybe it's because we don't feel the same way they do. Or if we feel something, it might not be as strong as what they have. Will we ever get to that moment to even look back at them and think how lucky we are to have people to appreciate us despite of our imperfection? People who are capable of falling in love with our flaws. . Maybe we haven't thought of the idea of how we really are special to them and we'll always never know. Maybe we haven't thought how it feels for them to love us. I wonder if it will ever hit us. The thought that behind our heartaches, disappoints and cold heart, there's that person who see our heartbeat. . Yes, we know they love us but we'll never know how much. The one thing we can do for them is look back and appreciate them somehow for putting us a piece in their hearts. Sometimes we just miss to look at them being too preoccupied looking for something else. Preoccupied with our own curiousities. We miss the real moment when real people love us. . 👤 . #MindsOfHipster #phculture #grammerph #curationnation #vscophilippines #freedomthinkers #kicksvibes

We meet a lot of temporary people in our life. We are never sure who's staying and who's going away. Sometimes being so attached to a person is easy but difficult when you have to let them go. And of all the people we meet, we are sometimes confused if one of them is meant for something more. Sometimes memories happen and memories go away. . Perhaps at one point in life, we'll meet that one friend who's going to make a difference. Someone who understands our tears rather than only see our smile. Maybe that loneliness we feel is just a way for us to see who's worth it because it's in loneliness, somehow, that we see the real people. . There are no strings in the world that attach us. Destiny is only coincidence. Fate is just a story. But what brings us to people is our openess, our acceptance that people leave and people go and our value for the people who stay. We are not meant to be with someone but we are made to be with someone and it's our choice to grab it or not. Our choice to be alone or spend our life with that one person. . 👥🚘 . #MindsOfHipster #whitesomnia #grammerph #curationnation #phculture #vscophilppines #finestessentials #wheretogo

I spent my morning contemplating on myself. On how I've been so far with my life. People have been asking what's behind my story. Or how I've been doing. And honestly I don't know. I guess I'm just so preoccupied with the thought that I'm used to be just with myself. That it's hard to lean on people who aren't willing to do the things you'd do for them. Sometimes I catch myself thinking how it's like to be with someone. Someone who accepts my imperfection. . I've always been open to people who needed someone to share their problems with. I love the thought they trust me. And weird as it seems, sometimes, to be honest, I wonder how it feels like to be them for having someone like me. To have someone I can run to anytime without hesitations. Not that I praise myself for that, it's just that maybe I might never find someone who's willing to do things for me like I'd do for them. Someone like me or better. Weird. . But nevertheless, here I am, as always. Despite of the things I've been through I'm still okay. A lot of things changed, new untold stories but here I am still. Always wondering what's going to happen next. Life just interests me with so much wonders. It's weird to be me. . 😶☕️ . #MindsOfHipster #phculture #grammperph #handmentality #cupsinframe #curationnation #vscophilippines

People are not always permanent. Others walk away at some point while some stay for as long as they can. It's sometimes sad to think that not everyone can stay when you need them too and not everyone can be like how you'd like them to be. . People are there and then they're gone. There's no guarantee who will stay. But maybe with that brief moment we can make them feel valued. That even if we know they won't be there for us forever, we are thankful they are here now. . It's okay to lose people. You don't have to keep everyone. When you are suffering you don't need everyone to be with you. You just have to keep those who despite your sufferings are worth spending it with. . 😌 . #MindsOfHipster #phculture #grammerph #wheretogo #roamersworld #vscophilippines #curationnnation #whitesomnia (at Lakawon Island Beach Resort)

So where do I go from here? From the repeated rejections I had. Should I stay and hope for a little longer or should I walk away? And if I stay would there still be a chance to reconcile? And if I leave would I lose something valuable? It confuses me not to know the answer but I had to make a choice one day. . Rejection has played its role over and over to me. It seems to become an expected part of my story. And so I’ve moved a couple times, but at this moment it seemed staying is still tempting. What do I get from staying? Perhaps something or perhaps nothing, who knows… It’s just that, in a weird way, staying is painfully comfortable. . But you need not worry because you won’t feel anything from me. If I walk away, I will walk away silently as I have stayed silently. Don’t worry about me, my presence won’t hurt you and even my absence won’t. But right now, just give me time to figure out silently, where do I go from here? . 👟👟 . #MindsOfHipster #phculture #curationnation #vscophilippines #grammerph #kicksvibes #BounceVibes #adidasalphabounce #adidasbounce

There are roads in life where we meet people along the way. In that precious moment we realize that some journey are worth taking no matter of not having the idea of what lies ahead. Sometimes it’s not because of what you are going through, sometimes what matters is who you are with going through everything. It’s nice to meet friends you can lean on when you’re tired. . Moments like that let you see that even in just a little span of time, you have someone. We need people, we need friends. We don’t have to pretend we need no one to look strong. It’s okay to admit you’re tired, it’s okay to admit you need someone. It’s good to feel everything, every joy, pain, disappointments, worries, love, heartache… Because everything that this life throws at you will make you stronger. Needing someone is not a weakness, it’s a call for hope. . It’s never a guarantee that people will always stay by your side. There is always a point they will leave. The world won’t revolve around you alone. You are just one trail behind big roads. But if you choose to make an impact right now, to the people who matter most, you are a trail worth passing through. . 👥🏔 . #MindsOfHipster #wheretonext #roamersworld #grammerph #phculture #curationnation #vscophilippines #sinopinas (at Malabuyoc, Cebu)

You can't expect people to do same things you'd do for them. They are not as strong as you are and they are not as weak as you are. Sometimes your sacrifices are only worth for a moment if you think about getting something in return. But if you sacrifice unconditionally, it won't matter if you get nothing in return, it's definitely worth something. . You can't expect people to feel the same way you do. And you can't beg the feelings you want from them. Sometimes all you need to do is wait, or perhaps move on. You can't expect it but undeniably most of the times you hope. Within you, is a small voice hoping. . And you can't expect people to be always be there for you. You have to accept that life will only permit them to stay as long as they can. You have to be strong on your own. Not just for yourself, but to people who need you more. . You don't need reward for every good you do. You don't need the attention for the sacrifices you've done. Sometimes all you need to do is smile back looking at the things and people that really matter. . 👤 . #MindsOfHipster #grammerph #curationnation #vscophilippines #finestessentials #phculture

Most people don't see pass through us. They only see what their eyes are letting them. They see the beauty of photos we share, they see the elegance of life that we let them. But sometimes behind all the photographs is a soul feeling incomplete. People dwell on their impressions, they don't know our hearts. Of what we are going through, of who we really are. . Sometimes photographs are places of comfort for us to hide. Showing them beauty behind the darkness we've been through. Expecting good impressions for a dark reality hiding behind. They judge us without knowing us. And whether it may be good or bad, they don't know our stories. Our photographs are only superficial, a cover of who we really are. . It doesn't matter what we are going through, or what we've been through. It's okay to hide. It's okay to let people see the the good instead of our darkness. But sometimes it consumes us not to be able to express reality. To act the way people want us to despite of how we should in reality to ourselves. Maybe at some point we should think a little, this life is temporary, perhaps a little expression of reality is good. And then it's up for people to accept us or reject us. . 🖐🏻📱 . #MindsOfHipster #handmentality #handsinframe #whitesomnia #viaalto #curationnation #grammerph #vscophilippines #phculture

They say you're stupid for waiting too much. That you've given up a lot for waiting. They say you should go on and move for the better, and perhaps save precious time. When even reality tells you it's hopeless you still chose to wait. You yourself doesn't even know why. . To wait for something you dream of. Sometimes getting you to the moment of giving up. But giving up is just too shallow for something you really want. Giving up is too shallow to satisfy yourself of moving on. Sometimes, for you to be satisfied, you have to fight for it. And if you get it or not, at least you tried something than nothing. . It's easy to walk away but it's hard when you look back. There are moments when all we need is a little more patience and hope. They say it's hard to wait around for something you know might never happen. But it's harder to give up when you know it's everything you want. . 😌 . #MindsOfHipster #phculture #curationnation #vscophilippines #grammerph #whitesomnia #finestessentials #mystoryinwhite

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I didn't greet you to tell you how good the morning is; I greeted you so we can talk. I didn't send you good nights because I went to sleep; I sent you good nights because I can't sleep thinking of you. I didn't make you coffee so you can wake up; I made you one so you can spend time with me. I didn't say hi because I remembered you: I said hi because I thought you forgot me. I didn't annoy you because I'm bored; I annoyed you to get your attention. I didn't ask who is with you because I want to know you're safe; I asked you because I get jealous. I didn't tell I miss you because I do; I told you I missed you hoping you'd say it back. I didn't go away because I had enough; I went away to see if you'd care. I didn't appear for while just because I don't want to; I wanted to know how you were without me. . When time comes you'll see the meaning behind the things that I do, I hope we're not too late. Because I didn't wait for me to move on; I waited for you to feel something. I didn't ask for too much but I can't deny, deep inside, I didn't just ask for nothing. . ☕️♥️ . #MindsOfHipster #handmentality #handsinframe #phculture #whitesomnia #grammerph #curationnation #vscophilippines #cupsinframe #mystoryinwhite #finestessentials (at Nature's Village Resort)

Sometimes it seems life is pushing you down. Leaving you with nothing but questions. No matter how hard you try, you don't always always get what you deserve. No matter how good you are, people will always seem to leave you behind. Sometimes the more you fit it, the more that it will hurt you. And if you contemplate about it, you start to see yourself so little. . Then you get to the point when it's better to just shut your eyes and see nothing. To close your mind from everything. Feeling that your world is beginning to be smaller, smothering you. You lose your self-esteem as if you are nothing. And you just stand there, looking at everything, telling yourself how could you not be good as the others. . But you shouldn't feel that way because you are more than what you think you are. It doesn't matter what you've been through, what you are going through. What matters is how you see yourself now. You are beautiful beyond your looks. You don't fit in because you are made to stand out. You are always made capable. People may judge you of your choices, let them, because you can do better. Open your eyes and see. Life is not meant to be good or bad. It's not meant to be fair of unfair. Life is only a reflection of what we allow ourselves to see. . 🌲🙍🏻🌲 . #MindsOfHipster #phculture #curationnation #grammerph #vscophilippines