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Stress has got me pressed I'm laid out like a lazy house guess feeling like a bum most days I dnt brush I just chew gum...my mind ha it's like it's not even mine so many different voices to many choices it's to hard to pick one do this or do that I dnt kno so I multi task do ur self a favor dnt ask if u felt the way I do you'd break like glass scattered like ass passing like gas while every one stares n laughs these are my days of my life dnt wanna live but dnt wanna die so sometimes I do I cry FUCK ,!!!!!!!!!!!

I live in a hell all my own not as a kid but now that I'm grown..this bitch I'm with can't handle her dope her name believe it or not is Hope...but wen she came into my life away went all my hope...she introduced me to this meth smoking drug but I dnt blame her I dnt play the blame game I could have said no like I have many times b4...but i decided to smoke and let her drag me to the floor..but this floor was more a door a door that led to much more...not a place of horror but a place that felt really normal it felt like I belonged here the dope helped me cope...b4 I was drinker I'd get smashed like trash in a garbage truck waking up with with no memory but feeling regret

Every night I see shadows where there's no light..is it just in my head...am I tripping cuz the dope gone straight to my head...I toss n turn laying in my bed I can't sleep I'm deep in thought or am I deep in sleep and this is all a dream more like a nightmare when I compare cuz a dream is bright has smiles blue skies with birds chirping ppl laughing...nightmares be like pure darkness no smiles dark skies ppl with red eyes...

Lost in a cold world feeling naked but it gets worse...people all around me but I'm all alone...feels like I'm drowning and everyone just watching recording and taking pics everyone wanting to post my death...i reach my hand out but no one reaching back so I do the only thing I can n throw the middle finger up n go down like a man....i dnt need their help it's them In need of help so I reach out my hand and they all reach back but I can only save one so I save myself cuz there is no one else that can save me but myself

Up late for no reason just here kick n it with no tension finally getting peace of mind B4 it was like my mind wasn't even mine... voices were all around yet no one was to be found.... barking from a blood hound came in n out lights flashing like lightning but the only storm comes from with in myself but I've learned how to calm the storm as if I held it in my palm by simplie playing my favorite song...they say music calms the savage beast so let the beats play so i close my eyes for the night has past and a new day has arrived