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DOOMPREP ๏น an independent writing blog for แดถแดฌแดทแดฑ แดผแตแตแดผ of amc's FฬฒEฬฒAฬฒRฬฒแตแดดแดฑ แตแดฌแดธแดทแดตแดบแดณ แดฐแดฑแดฌแดฐ. [first established in 2017, remade in 2023.] PREVIOUSLY.. rabbitscream. psd credit.
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> @onfear / uncharted starter prompts. i thought you were gonna die.
there is a healthy distance between them that is still intimate, both spines kissing either side of the barn door that shelters them; not physically required to do so but needed nonetheless, is if convinced their strength alone could hold the barrage of corpses surging through the door had their whereabouts been discovered. the faint, guttural moans of an unseen enemy carries on the winter breeze, the mindless drag of fetid feet against the gravel by limbs that could barely sustain them. it whispers through the thin gap in the door. the sound is both distant and present, a foreboding hum that needlessly reminds them that safety is never guaranteed and danger was a mere pin-drop away. they breathe in a shallow but careful rhythm, a fragile cadence of which the maintenance of seems to grow in difficulty. a louder breath would no doubt shatter the brief moment of peace they had found themselves sequestered. silence persists for a long time before she breaks it, less like snapping a twig but more so the gentle ushering of waves ashore. whenever she spoke, she always reminded him of gentle, earthy sounds even when unanticipated, he was never spooked. the doe never runs at the rustle of the breeze, only raises her head in sinless curiosity. to her right, jake is quiet a moment more, face turned up to the roof to gaze upon an indifferent god. his eyes count the cracks in the forsaken wood and for a minute he's back at church, face pressed against the foot of the altar by a hand on his neck that acts only in god's stead. the pews are empty but the room feels full, he hears the words repent but he's ten years old. he thinks he was taught to fear god than love him from that first breath, the water filling his lungs as he is bathed clean and born anew. chest seizing and eyes burning. he is still drowning. he was always drowning. this is just a barn. the dim light sketches the edges of his expression in shadow, deep, charcoal lines that both age him and ground him in a long-forgotten memory, though little is revealed. he had always been difficult to read, even before, every painful sting of his youth held inside until the cracks in his facade began to splinter into fragments, the loss of those that had likely ruined jake landed him a bittersweet defeat. how do you carry on, when everything you know is gone?
โfor a second, i thought so too.โ jake says, his voice worn with resignation. the taste of fear is yet to leave his mouth, bitter and dry with the repeated rise and fall of his chest. breaths ebb and flow as his pulse begins to slow but his mind remains restless, flicking through pages of everything and nothing all at once. he shifts uncomfortably beside her, pressing his shoulders a little harder against the barn door. jake feels the strength of the wood push back, solid against his own back; the resistance it provides feels something like his own resolve, steady in the face of decay. his gaze drifts to a spot on the floor, something meaningless he can pour a little of himself into. he thinks of the ranch, unkept promises and broken faith. the hope that had been buried in the dust of home's carcass. how the numbness that pain acquired had changed the shape of his face, hollow and distant a blank canvas of untouched features that told no tale beside resentment and fatigue. but being beside her, despite everything they had each seen and done, that divine miracle of even seeing her again coaxes him towards a truth he had long suppressed; that maybe (and only maybe) there might be something left here for him after all. โand i also thought i don't know maybe i was meant to. like, maybe i wasn't worth saving. that it was the only thing that could make everything right, if it meant that you would be okay and you could do everything you were supposed to do with them.โ
weird urge out of nowhere to start the 100 from the beginning
i'll say it. jake CAN be a little self righteous and condescending. i think he's entitled to be tho, have you met his family???
> @madsway / uncharted starter prompts. i'm sorry, for what happened to you.
the silence throbs between them like an infected wound, thick with a sizeable, unblinking dread, as though time itself had ground to a halt. only the crackle of a makeshift campfire disrupts the stillness of their settling, casting restless shadows that flicker and dance across his resolute face. the warmth is lost on them both; his silence is colder than the night air, ashen irises fixed to the centre of her face and unmoving, a wordless indictment. he doesn't know what she expects to find within him. forgiveness, he supposed; except this here was no vigil and jake was no god to grant her the absolution she craved [if she craved it at all]. her sorries feel worn, threadbare with overuse jake was sure he had heard a thousand apologies spoken in a thousand different ways by now, echoing some former sincerity but hollowed out, drained of all meaning the longer it replays. neither have to look to feel the loss, the severance of all they had come to know to pave the way for a new mode of being. jake still feels the teeth of a stranger plunging into his right arm, the sacrifice for sin. MARK 9:43 IF YOUR HAND CAUSES YOU TO STUMBLE, CUT IT OFF. IT IS BETTER TO ENTER LIFE MAIMED THAN WITH TWO HANDS TO GO INTO HELL, WHERE THE FIRE NEVER GOES OUT. the barrel had kissed his brother's temple. troy had greeted his unforgiving end at the hand of a brother and then black. his irises plunge back into the heat of the night. molten embers spit into the open air; mere morsels of hellfire, the scorching depths that would no doubt await them in heed of what they had done to live up top. [but jake knew the forsaken were really here, spotted them in the faces of the living and the dead, feasting on one another until all that remained were the trees.] it is the cross they each bear, living when those they had loved die in their place; a penance to which jake could see no end, what remained of his limbs rain whipped and sore-stung, dragging himself towards a grave that had not yet been dug. evermore.
โwhich part?โ jake asks evenly, eyes flickering up to meet hers. they appear black with the night, reflecting the firelight but holding no warmth, as if his dark pupils were swallowing every detail laid out before him. they almost lack recognition in their steadiness, no spark. just a deep unsettling emptiness that spoke of restless nights and implacable memories. his gaze revealed no judgement, no anguish, but instead something worse a barren soul out of reach, untouched by apology or forgiveness alike. he supposes it is rather cruel for him to ask, to ask madison to choose which sin she requires pardoning; but the list was long and jake was aggrieved the last of his name, heir to a costly state that was no longer lodgeable. he could put the clark name to a number of occurrences that allowed the ranch to fall. their presence an omen, dark and foreboding, and yet there persists a remnant of feeling. something that keeps things steady enough between them to co-exist, to find common ground in an inaccessible enemy. but also, hidden in the deepest parts of him persists that innate goodness, the one that feels like oweing someone you once loved.
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i want what they have (literally no one has any idea what That is)
well. @exsniper
โชย ย ย ๐บ๐ฌ๐ป๐ป๐ฐ๐ต๐ฎ ๐ท๐น๐ถ๐ด๐ท๐ป๐บ , updated .ย ย ย (ย ย aย collectionย ofย variousย ย settingsย meantย toย inspireย drabblesย orย beย usedย asย ย promptsย .ย ย )
001.ย ย ย the seaside ,ย as the sun is settingย .
002.ย ย ย a cabin in the middle of the woodsย .
003.ย ย ย a picket-fenced home in the suburbs .
004.ย ย ย a dark bus stop lit only by street lightsย .
005.ย ย ย a private jet miles high in the skyย .
006.ย ย ย a funhouseโs room of mirrorsย .
007.ย ย ย an office building ,ย bustling and busyย .
008.ย ย the back row of an empty movie theaterย .
009.ย ย a run - down motel room .
010.ย ย a loud house party on a suburban streetย .
011.ย ย ย a university lecture hall during a classย .
012.ย ย ย the rooftop of a very tall buildingย .
013.ย ย ย a great ballroom during an elegant partyย .
014.ย ย ย the back of a wailing ambulanceย .
015.ย ย ย the wine cellar of a large mansionย .
016.ย ย behind the schoolโs gymnasiumย .
017.ย ย ย a boisterous bonfire at the lakesideย .
018.ย ย ย an otherwise empty parking lotย .
019.ย ย the shady bar of a noisy , dark club .
020.ย the grounds of an empty summer campย .
021.ย ย ย a large hedge maze ,ย easy to get lost inย .
022.ย ย ย a neglected or derelict treehouseย .
023.ย ย ย a spacious ,ย light-filled meadowย .
024.ย ย ย an underground illegal fighting clubย .
025.ย ย ย an abandoned scrapyardย .
026.ย ย a large penthouse overlooking the cityย .
027.ย ย ย an apple orchard in the middle of spring .
028.ย ย ย an empty playground with squeaky swingsย .
029.ย ย ย an extravagant greenhouseย .
030.ย ย ย the base of a large waterfallย .
031.ย ย ย a spacious walk - in closet full of lovely clothesย .
032.ย ย ย a solemnly quiet hospital roomย .
033.ย ย ย the dark depths of an abandoned mineย .
034.ย ย the deck of a fishing boat at nightย .
035.ย ย the thick crowd of an audience at a showย .
036.ย ย a long ,ย winding roadย .
037.ย ย ย the scene of a violent crimeย .
038.ย ย ย a fork in a hiking trail deep in the wilderness .
039.ย ย a cramped dressing room .
040.ย ย ย a dusty antiques shop full of relicsย .
041.ย ย ย the street of an unfamiliar city at nightย .
042.ย ย ย between the tall shelves of a thrifted book shopย .
043.ย ย a building abandoned during constructionย .
044.ย ย ย a house without power or running waterย .
045.ย ย a mysterious trail found in the woodsย .
046.ย ย the back of a taxi stuck in traffic .
047.ย ย the inside of anย elevator that wonโt moveย .
048.ย ย ย fairgrounds during a large eventย (or after hours)ย .
049.ย ย a garden bountiful with flowers or produceย .
050.ย ย a childhood home or bedroomย .
+ย ย 30ย moreย settingย prompts :ย ย 1 / 3 / 2024
051. the site of a horrible accident .
052. a closed pool , after everyone has left .
053. a home holding horrific memories .
054. by the side of a dangerously quick river .
055. a private hotel room .
056. a police station in the middle of the night .
057. a ferris wheel carriage under a sky of fireworks .
058. a lavish , invite - only party .
059. a public transit stop as rain is pouring down .
060. the back of a taxi going in the wrong direction .
061. the underworld .
062. a dusty , forgotten attic .
063. on the set of a television show or movie .
064. a lighthouse overlooking the raging sea .
065. in a post - apocalyptic bunker .
066. on a ship hundreds of miles from the nearest coast .
067. on the rooftop of a perilously tall building .
068. a tent pitched in the middle of the woods .
069. a crowded stadium during a football game .
070. the morgue during an identification .
071. an otherwise empty library during a late study session .
072. a place that feels familiar , yet you've never been here before .
073. a long hallway that seems to stretch on forever .
074. a signpost at the start of a hiking trail .
075. a bar or tavern bustling with life .
076. the dance floor of a masquerade ball .
077. inside of a car parked in a secluded area .
078. at the edge of a cliff overlooking a large lake .
079. inside a very old house with very old haunts .
080. the antiseptic interior of a space station .
uncharted sentence starters
โ if youโre done lying to me, then you should stop lying to yourself. โ โ itโs not going to be easy, you know. โ โ well, it sounds like youโre working for a nutcase. โ โ make sure that youโre safe.ย โ โ look, i wanted to tell you! i wanted to! but how could i?ย โ โ see? iโm not just a pretty face. โ โ iโm sorry for what happened to you. โ โ i think i have a bit more experience with this thing than you do. โ โ wait, wait, wait. something about this feels kinda hinky. โ โ what a warm and homey place, huh?ย โ โ iโm willing to forgive and forget. for old timeโs sake. โ โ looks like he was killed. ripped to shreds actually. โ โ these guys have been tailing me for weeks. thought i lost them. โ โ should i be flattered, or worried?ย โ โ so with our luck, whatโs the odds this volcano is going to erupt on us? โ โ i hope i donโt go to hell for this. โ โ i can handle this. iโm tough. i grew up with nuns.ย โ โ fair warning, last person who betrayed me wound up dead.ย โ โ you told me youโd say out of trouble. โ โ how do i know youโre real? โ โ donโt ever point a gun at me again. โ โ make sure that youโre safe. โ โ i have made a lot of mistakes. a lot. iโm not a perfect man.ย โ โ i had a lousy father. lousy childhood. โ โ sounds terrible. check his wallet. โ โ letโs not forget who walked out on whom. you donโt get to be jealous. ย โ โ progress demands sacrafice.ย โ โ shut up. i really thought you were gone this time. โ โ i canโt leave you alone for one minute, can i? โ โ on a scale of 1-10, how scared were you that i was gonna die?ย โ โ i canโt walk away. iโm tired of walking away. โ โ even an enemy must be fed and sheltered. are you my enemy?ย โ โ we can still stop him. i can help you.ย โ โ gotta say, you have a real knack for breaking things. โ โ do as i say not as i do. โ โ looks like hell spit you back out. โ โ whatโs your story, anyway?ย โ โ i donโt take big risks without a good payday. โ โ i guess it runs in the family, huh? โ โ you canโt reform the villain and save the day. itโs just not done like that. โ โ sorry, i just need to get my head back in the game.ย โ โ this isnโt our fight. itโs my fight.ย โ โ i wonโt let them hurt you. โ โ skip the mind games. you donโt know me.ย โ โ no offense, but your ancestor was a right asshole. โ โ youโre unusually quiet. whatโs up your bum?ย โ โ that was my last cigarette. โ โ okay, well, why donโt you just walk away? โ โ why this obsession? iโm just worried. โ โ i canโtโฆi canโt breatheโฆi justโฆcanโt breatheโฆย โ โ donโt touch me. get away from me. โ โ if you let these bastards win - after this - i will never forgive you. โ โ youโve got your pride all tangled up in this thing. itโs making you reckless. โ โ any trouble you shoot first and ask questions later. โ โ dangerous to be out so late.ย ย โ โ easy now. look at me. โ โ my leg! donโt touch it! i know itโs broken!ย โ โ are you going to join me, darling? โ โ this is my gig. you want your share, you play by my rules.ย โ โ we donโt get to choose how we start in life. real greatness? itโs what you do with the hand youโre dealt.ย โ โ i always felt that we were destined for something great.ย โ โ you should relax. youโll live longer.ย โ โ i taught you better than that. โ โ so thatโs a no? felt like a no.ย โ โ quit acting like youโre gonna lie down and die, all right?ย โ โ i have a spare bed.ย ย โ โ is there no bottom for your ignorance?ย โ โ even cornered dogs bite back.ย ย โ โ that one is my favourite. it makes your eyes twinkle.ย ย โ โ admit it. youโre gonna miss this ass.ย ย โ โ you think iโm a monster, but youโre no different from me.ย ย โ โ how many people have you killed? how many?ย ย โ โ you will not stand in the way of destiny.ย ย โ โ you stick with me, iโll teach you a few things. โ โ well, if youโd like, i can tell you where to stick it.ย โ โ face it, genius, youโve been played.ย โ โ yeah, keep smiling, asshole.ย โ โ i got nothing to prove. โ โ donโt hand it to me. iโve had everything handed to me โ โ you donโt know when to give up, do you? โ โ you stick your neck out, youโre asking to lose your head. โ โ oh, and now youโre blushing. โ โ just so you know, itโs not my first lost city. โ โ are you always this clever? โ โ i was trying to rescue you, as a matter of fact. โ โ you know, at this point, iโve run out of words. โ โ what do you say we really ruin this guyโs day? โ โ whether you die or not, i donโt really care. โ โ i thought youโฆi saw you get shot. โ โ itโs like a camera. you justโฆpoint and shoot, right?ย โ โ god, whoโs being unprofessional now? โ โ i always knew you were gonna make something of yourself one day. โ โ letโs just pretend i skipped all of sunday school. โ โ oh no you didnโt do that. thatโs not funny! โ โ save the world, triumph over evil. โ โ are you trying to kill me? โ โ know what i love about partying with a bunch of crooks? nobody cares that you smoke indoors.ย โ โ you gave me a goddamn heartattack.ย โ โ iโll die a thousand deaths before i let you win.ย ย โ โ i didnโt tell you because i was afraidโฆof losing you. โ โ what ever happened to just living a normal life?ย โ โ even if you think youโre protecting me, you donโt have a right to shut me out like that. โ โ i meanโฆ thanks for saving me. โ โ en garde, dickhead. โ โ i love you. โ โ come on! we can get out of here together. โ โ everything i touch turns to shit. โ โ how did you find me anyway? โ โ iโve got my eye on you. โ โ you were going to sell me out, werenโt you? โ โ love to know what youโre thinking.ย โ โ well, well, well. get it?ย โcause you know, itโs a well.ย โ โ itโs a shame weโre leaving empty handed though.ย โ โ okayโฆyeahโฆhow do i look? โ โ thank me after we get out of this alive.ย โ โ youโre lucky that i found you when i did.ย โ โ theyโre just saying that because it gets to you. โ โ look, if youโre into shady stuff itโs totally cool. โ โ ha. thatโs my girl.ย โ โ i made a promise that i was done with this life. โ โ listen, sunshine, the world doesnโt care.ย โ โ well, thatโs it. now you know everything.ย โ โ donโt even think about not coming back. โ โ you know, i shot the man who told me that. โ โ i thought that iโd be satisfied. instead, iโm left with this strange feeling of emptiness. ย โย โ as thrilling as the next adventure may be, in the end, youโre always left with that same feeling. โ โ you know, i didnโt think i could trust you either. โ โ i almost lost you once before. i just canโt do that again.ย โ โ donโt even think about not coming back.ย โ โ thatโs it! no compassion! no mercy!ย โ โ sentimentality in this line of work will get you killed.ย โ โ i need your helpโฆand you need mine.ย โ โ i kept your tears in a jar.ย โ โ i expected you to have my back.ย ย โ โ tell you what. when i get back, pizzaโs on me.ย โ โ death. it smelled like death.ย โ โ so they have beaten you, eh? your questโs over? ย โ โ you listen to your mum, okay? ย โ โ trust me - your ego will mend.ย ย โ โ i hope i live to regret this.ย ย โ โ these men were all shot.ย ย โ โ be a lot easier just to let go.ย ย โ โ what? no witty remark? nothing clever to say?ย ย โ โ seems like i am always saving your ass.ย โ โ i never asked for any of your bloody heroics.ย โ โ the guys in prison used to say, โyou can steal to eat or you can steal to get rich.โ i say, why not both?ย ย โ โ you were never a chocolate and flower kinda girl.ย ย โ โ i donโt have your luck. people like me know when to walk away from the table.ย ย โ โ appreciate the update, captain obvious.ย ย โ โ you made your choice.ย ย โ โ donโt tell me youโre buying all into that supernatural nonsense.ย ย โ โ i couldnโt sleep last time i saw that.ย ย โ โ itโs actually nice working with a woman for a change.ย โ โ iโm lucky youโre on my side.ย โ โ do you really think all this really could be true? ย โ โ you know, itโs kind of romantic down here.ย ย โ โ just wish iโd brought something to read.ย ย โ โ you can relax. weโre safe here. โ โ i am surrounded by traitors and fools.ย ย โ โ just donโt get us killed.ย โ โ what are you shaking for? โ โ parents must be worried about you. โ โ i wonder what youโre really scared ofโฆnot bullets, or blood, or broken bonesโฆ โ โ i donโt need your bullet-ridden-corpse on my conscience. letโs go. โ โ yeah, iโm fine. oh, but - youโre bleeding.ย โ โ i do seem to attract the scum of the earth. ah - no offense. โ โ all this grandeur, hidden away from the world.ย ย โ โ if we donโt make it out here, i just want you to know - i hate your guts. โ โ iโve got a bad feeling about this place. โ โ thatโs my blood. thatโs my blood. thatโs a lot of my blood.ย โ โ you should play the hero more often. it suits you.ย โ โ eyes ahead, donโt look down.ย โ โ here - grab my hand. โ โ no matter what it is, youโre supposed to come to me so we can work it out togetherโฆ as a team.ย โย โ you know nothing is ever truly destroyed. just purified and reborn.ย ย โ โ you just - totally crushed that moment. you know that, right? ย โ โ youโre a selfish dickhead.ย ย โ โ i do speak a little bit of ____, you know. wait, what did you say?ย โ โ i know you. youโre no hero.ย ย โ โ i wish you couldโve been there. โ โ hey, are you happy? โ โ youโre not gonna pass out on me or nothing, are you?ย โ โ look, iโฆumโฆ.iโm not good with the whole people thing.ย ย โ โ iโve had worse nights, believe me.ย ย โ โ letโs find somewhere a little more private. โ โ hey, take it easy. youโve been out for almost half an hour.ย ย โ โ to rule people, you first must sow chaos.ย ย โ โ itโs not stealing if it was mine to begin with. โ โ take me with you. โ โ iโm left with this strange feeling of emptiness. ย โย โ anyone ever tell you, you have a funny idea of romantic?ย ย โย โ itโs nothing that years of therapy wonโt fix. ย โ โ no. itโs my turn to walk away.ย ย โย โ nothing about our lives have been fair, but weโve made it work. โ โ your people will beg me to save them.ย ย โ โ weโre not on a first-name basis.ย ย โ โ you know nothing about me.ย ย โ โ do tell. maybe over some drinks? ย โ โ we must keep to the shadows.ย ย โ โ hey, you cool? โcause i need you to be cool.ย ย โ โ you must be tired of these lectures. i know iโm tired of giving them. โ โ here, take this. youโll catch a cold. โ โ is that a sin? i think thatโs a sin. โ
MY BROTHER, MY WOUND
@/bookwyrminspiration / john steinbeck, โchapter 9: the piggybackโ / richard siken, โcrushโ / genesis 4:9 / natalia diaz, โa brother named gethsemaneโ / ocean vuong, โon earth weโre briefly gorgeousโ / taylor jenkins reid, โdaisy jones & the sixโ / john darnielle / @/filmnoirsbian / conan gray, โthe exitโ / traci brimhall, โcome the slumberless to the land of nodโ / layana clouet, โa love letter to a dead thingโ / anne carson, โantigonickโ / michael dickman, โkilling fliesโ
@imunities, โitโs fine! i mean, itโs notโ fine, butโฆ itโs fine.โ
the oscillation between fine and not fine is a feeling jake knows well, burying all that burns and employing that one word to circumvent it all. fine. it avoids the question posed, dismissing the idea that there could even be anything else. [human life was a slender thread, from there to not there in one swift cut: by now, jake knew it would always feel this way, not good and not bad, but something that just is.] jake didn't like that feeling, looking at friend and foe alike, a simple collection of details recognised and subsequently forgotten, as though not to burden the heart more than the beating it had already undergone. distance was kind in that way, but far from a manner he'd once homed.
โit doesn't have to be. fine. you're allowed to breathe, soak it in for a moment.โ it's not up to him to reason why, but he attempts it nonetheless. [there was never a right time for anything, any event to them now was inopportune.] it caught them by surprise as though completely unanticipated, as if their entire lives were not shrouded by death and decay. perhaps it is the final aspect of the before they keep alive, a hopeful inanity that fingers grasp onto until the final bout of strength vacates their bodies. the trust in own abilities that they could save everyone, save themselves. own chest heaves with exertion, danger tucked away for the present moment. โall we have is time, right?โ
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@onfear, starter call.
life for them could be categorised as a series of befores and afters. before alicia, things had been far less complicated. blood or nothing instilled into him like a mantra, the otto name that locked him in chains and prodded him to perform, without the time to think or feel all that much about anything else. [how quickly it all ended: the horde, the bite, the anger, the after.] it felt like a lifetime ago, just as much as it felt like yesterday, meeting as strangers that wore faces of the dead. but with the ranch burned and final eulogies uttered, he couldn't now deny that it felt something close to freedom. and though years divided the then and now, it seemed to him like the circumstances created by pure chance foiled his feelings of entrapment, as though alicia alone had usurped his painful destiny and transcended his meaning within the world as they now knew it. [how much he owed her, how few words he had to say so.] but it felt wrong to pour over the corpse of the past, when they had attempted so much together since to better the world around them. with how much love they shared quietly through actions that spoke more than they ever could. the before meant very little now when the after had meant everything.
โremember how you took care of me? the days after the ranch got poisoned?โ a bead runs a rivulet down the side of her cheek, an amalgamation of the fever that courses through her and the wet rag he holds against her forehead. [it's reminiscent of a time that seemed more precarious, the before to the end of everything.] the between ran close to a decade, years that cascaded into one long day. โi was thinking about it yesterday. how you just did that and how no one else ever had.โ he allows his arm to fall, forearm across knee as the dry earth below laps at the meagre droplets. his childhood had merely been a small adulthood, taking care of two pitiful drunks and a brother destined for a darker path without someone of a more dutiful age to guide him into the light. when jake was sick, he wasn't, fought tooth and nail to claim fine whenever a fever took its pyretic hold. always a caretaker, never a patient. โalicia, i'm with you until the end. however long or short that is, i'll take care of you.โ
@80more, starter call.
the ranch was quiet, quieter than it had been in a long time. the thought trickled through him like a cold ravine, chilling his core and making him fret. the people were scared. his people. and he no longer knew a word to say in order to comfort them and make things right. [thoughts of initiative flooded him, wonderment regarding to whom the crown fit: it was a moment for him to step up, and yet he can't help but feel their confidence wane the moment he opens his mouth.] it declines with each word, each choice, never a satisfactory response to the hard decisions he made for their own preservation. there would always be happy and unhappy people within their community, but as of late he finds himself faced with the latter far more than what was ordinary. jake frowns, casting a gaze over the ranch, shrouded in darkness and momentary peace. it could all change in an instance.
โbuilding a better future, that's what this place has been about from the start.โ voice is tinged with sadness, difficult to detect with the conviction that always comes with jake's words: he was always resolute, leadership a borne trope that drifts further from his reach with each day passed. [people joked that jake had an answer for everything. he did, wordless moments few and far between, especially in times so trying of his patience. there was nothing that couldn't be settled with a conversation.] but lately, his hopes were knocked, the speeches that always seemed so effortless slowed to a halt and he no longer had it in him to be their beacon. it just felt hard. โit feels like we stray further from that every day.โ
โI want to calm down, to rest, to outlive this nonsense.โ
โ Anne Sexton, from a letter to Dennis Farrell written c. June 1962
maybe i could give jake a thg verse......
hi i've graduated (again) <3
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slides a dollar to the dash. apocalypse muses
got a family free evening so i guess ill be setting up my twdg multi. gonna do little about sections for each character that i plan to write so people who haven't played the games can get to know them too ๐ซต
