Dolphin Club

I can remember this time we went to a festival and took drugs. I spent my trip crying and telling him how much I loved him and how beautiful he is. I wish we could go back to those days. I wish we could be back together.

Some of his 'friends' or people he knows have started messaging me. I don't know what to do. I have just been ignoring everyone else who has been messaging me. I feel so weird about this. I guess more people know we aren't together now but it's weird that these two boys are trying to talk to me now knowing that they are kinda friends with him. I'm not interested at all in them. I just feel so uncomfortable now.

I am hurt and honestly I dont know why people do relationships if this is the kind of pain you feel. I have definitely been scared by this situation and don't want to ever go through it again. In saying that I know it will get better. That pain will heal and the feelings will fade. I really wanted to be with him but that's not what he wants. all I can do is do better and grow myself. It sucks that it has came to this. But I will be and I am fine

My boyfriend broke up with me. It killed me last month but I'm doing fine now. I'm just upset because it's clear he was talking to his who hates me and take his advice. He never said to me before that I was dependent on him! I was never! I had a social life outside of our relationship. I went out a lot without him and I really didn't need him like that. Now he is saying that crap to me. Even now I am busy and going out all the time. So no I was never dependent on him. In fact he needed me to go out with he would even say that. Yeah it's clear he was speaking to this friend. It upsets me because we were together for 2 years and he was edged on by this person who hates me to leave me. Honestly it's so dumb to even think to talk to that person knowing how he feels about me. This person made up lies about me to my now ex boyfriend to try and fight and make me look bad. His agenda towards me is not a nice one and I'm just upset that my relationship was easily manipulated by this person. Anyway I do hope my ex is able to grow and be less dependent on this person who manipulates him. I hope he realizes that he is an amazing person and is worth someone fighting for. I don't have hard feelings anymore. I'm growing and have attracted more people in my life in this short time. Also my DMs are going to mad that I can't deal. I actually don't want people to message me anymore. I think I needed that to get my confidence back and feel good about myself. Yeah boys need to leave me alone now. I'm not ready for that shit yet

I'm not doing well anymore.

Trying with all my heart to make things better.

I'm getting over this shit

I just wanna feel like I fucking MATTER. Because I do.