My Third Letter to you Mum
It’s been 92 days since you passed Mum. It really doesn’t get any easier. I’ve been dealing with so much paper work and sorting everything out for Dad, that i still haven’t had the time to really take everything in. I am almost done but there are a few things that are still dragging on. I never knew stuff like this could take so long. A lot of weight has been taken off my shoulders now that i sorted out the house and Dad doesn’t have to move out and be homeless. Of course he would never be homeless as he would live with us but you know what i mean. I think dad is finding it very hard but trying to stay strong. He is very lonely bless him but staying strong.
I go to see you every Wednesday with dad and we go for something to eat after. We have a moan, bitch and de stress about things that have been going on. I’m still trying to unravel everything that happened to you in such a short frame of time and how you must have been feeling through it all. It eats at me at the wonder if you knew what was going on when you had the stroke and we were all talking. I felt so bad that i was crying in front of you and you couldnt say or do anything to make me feel better. I could see it in your eyes that you wanted to just hug me and say it will be ok but that bloody stroke meant you couldn’t talk to move a lot. I feel it took a lot away from us that fecking stroke. I feel that we were focusing on sorting stuff out when we found out about the cancer that we didnt get to say the stuff we wanted to as we thought there would be more time. We were trying to stay strong you and I and plan what was going to happen. Because we were so alike, we didnt get to open up and tlak about how sad we were or comfort each other in the way we should have with the timeframe we had.
I miss you so much mum and i just don’t know who life can go on without you and your smile, laugh and our chats every day. I miss being able to call you when i’m on the school run and i miss spending time with you, just us on our mother and son evening. I’m so grateful we got to have so many though. I have so many great memories.
I love you Mum so much. You are everything to me and always will be.













