Do it now, Remember it later...

I fucking hate woman

Well fuck... These effects are hitting me hard

WAS I NOT FUN ENOUGH??? Now that you can drink with all these smash players and play smash and smoke as much as you want? Is this the party life you wanted??? Was my life I gave you not satisfying....

Did I really not mean that much to you???? Really??? I did so much for you and you FUCKING DATE SOMEONE ELSE!!!!!! FOR A MONTH BEFORE TELLING ME!!?!??!?? I feel like shit now...

Hey... It's me again... Just got word of my worst birthday present.. She was taken under my nose and it's all my fault...

Hello old friend, it's been a while.. It's quiet here. I've been thinking about her again

I feel like I dressed nice for nothing :/

Sometimes, do you really miss me?

This is what is going to change my life...

I just need to make myself happy and rely on myself because if I rely on others it’s going to hurt me more.

Woah.... Waking up today felt so surreal. I woke up next to the girl I loved and felt happy to be alive.... All because of the dream I had I think I received a sign in my dream because it made me change my views on life. The day before I felt down in saddness and felt what if I never existed, and that is exactly what happened. I died in my dream and I got to see how everyone reacted to my death and to see if they lived there life normally or actually felt sad. I got to say that it truely changed my views. I must live for what I have and life may be hard and full of hurtful things but that is no reason to take one's own life away. I'd like to thank who ever, that gave me a sign and opportunity to experience simulation in my dream.

Hey everyone....sorry for all these updates, but my heart just can't take it. I have no true best friend anymore to talk to with except just keep a diary on here. Lately I've been thinking bad things.... Really bad things..... Sometimes I wish living was a lot easier instead of sadness, I've been thinking that if I was never around anymore, maybe ppl can live better or I can stop being mad fun of...... at work I'm harassed all day and pressured in how much of a piece of shit I am and how I never do my job... Ppl who I used to call "friends" make fun of me, call me a faggot, and wish to torment me, my mom calls me fat and both my parents think I'm worthless and a waste of time since I haven't gone back to college, and my gf lately seems to push me away and has a lot more with my friend than me to even notice the little things I do for her.... 🎶"You had my heart, at least for the most part. But everybody's got to die sometime"🎶

Why can't I make you laugh like he does.... It's not the same like we where before. Yeah, you say you love me a lot but sometimes you don't really show it... I feel like the outcast that I have been my whole life again

Sometimes I fell like your "toys" are there to pick up what lack in..

That empty feeling you get when your girl has to leave your house...

Saw my ex for the first time since Sept. When we broke up. She really has let herself go :/ I remember when she was a fitness nut. What happened? Also she was wearing my ring still... Weird