talking w partner and i think along with plenty of other reasons i dont draw much "furry" anymore, ive largely burnt myself out on digital art as it doesnt capture my art style the way i want it to , then traditional requires me to pull out old notebooks and pencils and hunch over my desk and is an uncomfortable affair that i seem to avoid. everything is so hard when youre clinically unhappy and tired and in pain . pulling out the art notebook. even turning the computer on is a chore. i feel like i need more incentive but i have no prescriptions and i dont receive any feedback on art besides one "Like" every four months or so

weirdest thing about back when we still tried to make friends with people in the "oc" art space is when they'd be overly friendly and placative but would also seem to find the strangest problems with what you were doing or harmless jokes you shared that you'd get this feeling nobody actually wanted to be friends at all. we got the feeling that they just wanted proximity for some type of personal gain not because they liked us or appreciated our art in any respectful way. i carry so much hurt still with me from that space. i love my characters and writing stories but we never want to be an "oc artist" in a community for it anymore. just post things and go

In one of my worlds there's a forest with trees that phase in and out of existence. They lead you to where you need to go. They will also stop you if you try to force yourself through. Most are afraid to step foot in the forest because they believe the forest "erases" those who enter it whose intentions are not innocent

I received a BIG flash drive for christmas and it allows me to bring files from my old devices without the corruption that my previous drive would induce. I can finally retire it. Thank you for your service, little red flash drive that I found on the playground 20 years ago.

i wish i had my health back.. months and months gone year after year with no art to show .. tired all the time.

sorry most of the things i'm uploading are old. Some i've never posted online some i have to the wrong places. I hope i'll be forgiven for not drawing anything substantial in a while . I don't have energy and stamina like i used to and i spend what i do have with friends instead of alone drawing