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I am Russian originally, he/him, visions having/the void entering/things manifesting/horror games playing/having my own psychology.

If you need any advice - hit the button.

I try to be nice toward everyone, but if you think you were offended, then you wanted to be offended. Not because I was rude with you, but because you found a reason for your mindset.

At the same time, I am not your partner/your nanny/your relative. I am sharing with you what I do and what works for me. If you don't need it/don't like it/think it is useless, then.. feel free to go away, I guess?

Also, I see these questions too often, so I will help you quickly.

yes, you can manifest everything, your age/race/sexuality/age/so/body/face/etc. Even if someone didn't tell about the same experience, it doesn't matter you cannot do it.

yes, you can manifest everything from the void. If you are going to be smart here and say something "how do you know, if you haven't tried it yet", then it will be better for you to review your beliefs.

no, you don't need anything to manifest/enter the void shift. If you think you need to do something - this is just your assumption and it means YOU need to do something.

not going to open DM, don't even ask about it.

don't even try to ask anything personal about my private life.

Personal advice: YT channel to watch - "The Power of I am" (he is awesome).

Seriously. I was sitting by myself several days ago. I was feeling a bit stuck, like some parts feel dull. And just like a voice called to me, I opened Neville Goddard collection of books. His lectures are absolutely amazing.

About voice - yep, I started to hear it these days. It is not actual voice, just a feeling to do certain stuff. It helps to "upgrade" my setting, inner ones. To become better, to find answers.

Anyways, back to the topic. I see all these questions, a lot of questions, a million questions. "Is it possible?", "how would I..?", "how can I..", "what if I can't" and bla-bla. It means no one, yes NO ONE reads necessary stuff. Hey, if you read it, don't be smug, you are the exception. Because all the answers, on every questions have been given in Neville's books. Just read it okay, instead of asking. Ooookay, yes, I see, "but reading will take several days and here I can ask and get my answer fast". This is your problem - FAST. First, this is your world, no one can give you the answer, you need to figure it out inside yourself. Neville gives you the base, the absolute foundation. Second, the more you are in rush, the further you are from the goal. You are filled with all this impatience, rush, thoughts about time, regrets, depressive thoughts and etc. And you don't understand the simplest thing - if back then, when you started "your path of desperation and searching", if instead you got the knowledge and used it, you would be golden right now. You would have everything, all your desires/void/sp/money/whatever.

Yes, I will add here a part from my recent message on void confession. I was talking to a person on Reddit. She tried to manifest sp for two year. Quoting - nothing works for her, sc doesn't matter, in fact, she is the best and very hot, but sp doesn't want to talk to her and she attracts people she doesn't like. And universe doesn't want to give her what she wants. Several long messages from me and others changed nothing.

Let's see the point. If you know what I mean - move on.

The second you start to whine, the second you develop the thought you are not enough and agree to this, it becomes your identity. You agree to be this person (I mean "not enough"). Each time you think and talk, you add to your self-concept. I cannot blame her though, I was like this some time ago. And someone was telling me the same, but I was stubborn in my truth. And you know what - you are always right. When you say you are the best, or when you are not enough.

Stop doing it, stop adding to your old story. Stop rushing things. Stop being too stubborn and hold to 3d with all your might, like you like the last seconds. Find Neville, read it, contemplate it, then use it. Commit to it. You don't need 2 years to get something. I'd say, if you commit, you can get anything you want in days. Well, maaaybe the first time would be longer, because of past identity. But it is easier with time.

I will be honest - I didn't consider it as dualism or non-dualism. First time I started to read his "Power of Now" because someone on reddit mentioned this book as a tool to build their concept. And they were always manifesting in few days-weeks. As someone who struggled with manifesting back then, I thought - wow, cool, I should read it. And I stopped after few pages. Even though he was talking how he entered the void xDDD so I knew about the void few years ago xDD

Anyways, I returned back recently and this time I almost finished it. I just move slowly, doing meditations and observing how I feel and how I act every day. And he was the only person who could've moved me from the dead point, so, yes, basically, this is the only reason I advised him.

Next point - do you truly believe in what you say, do you feel it and experience it or are you just repeating after other people? I was doing the same - talking about awareness and stuff with a smart look on my face, and it seemed I understand it. But nothing changed, it didn't help, I was still on the hunt to "understand it and find the clue how it should be". And it seems you do the same. Another reason why you need to read Power of Now. Because you try to understand something your mind cannot get. Something that just IS. And you don't need to understand it.

The same with your desires - you don't need to understand any logic, anything above simplest point. You are the Creator, because everything happens from you. And when you think about something, it manifests. If you think it takes time, then it takes time. If you think it is instant, then it is instant.

In general, Tolle says the ego rules over your life, forces to want something, to seek constant validation, to get something to feel important, to be always true and guard your position. The ego is always on the search of drama, suffering and challenges. So, you need to abandon past and the future, live in Now and watch your thoughts, because the ego comes to you through thoughts first. Although, for me, it is different. I don't demonize the ego, it is just our old self, what we are used to be. This is why, if you are used to think your manifesting take time, then even if you say something different but deeply believe you need to wait, then.. sorry, but you need to wait.

So, well, it doesn't matter what you are used to be and/or to feel. You can change your views at any point.

First, think about reading what I said recently. Especially about "you can worry, but return to who you are". Do you think others don't worry? I worry, but before it takes any effect, I realize "this is just an old story". You always manifest from who you are. If you are powerful, then what can a little, poor worried thought do to you? you'd just laugh at it.

Second, I'd suggest to read E.Tolle and watch the channel I offered to watch in my info tab. Simply because if you try to change your life - it will most likely take a lot of time and even if you get something, the very same troubles will arise again. Your attention should always be on yourself. Often, it means to give up on the void and on "I want my desires desperately".

very important thing - have you ever heard me or someone saying "all your words are manifestations"? which means you literally manifest with your message that you don't feel fulfilled, that it won't happen, your dependence to do sats/feel somehow, feeling fake and etc. When you want to get something you always start with your thoughts - what you say and what you hear occasionally. First ones change your identity, second ones show which identity you wear. Make a habit for every day:

listen to what you say to yourself. If you said something bad - keep calm and re-affirm. "Oh, I forgot, I am so awesome, so cool, I am the best, no one is better than me".

If you hear thoughts from "old identity", accept it. The same as everything you see. I don't react when I see "he didn't write" or "less money" or "I don't want to go to work". I think "pff, I don't care what I see, I am the best, he knows and about to write to me", "I don't care what I see, I always have a lot of money" and etc. Think about it, as if everything you see is just an illusion, BUT! - your wishes/your dream life is already here, you don't wait for it.

I don't do sats/anything. Except for meditating, but this is Tolle's meditation, not for manifesting or something. I don't depend on anything - lucid dreaming or visualization or something. I imagine me having my desire, or feel it IF I am in the mood and that's all. If I am not, I accept I feel sad or something, I say this is okay, BUT! - at the same time I say the opposite "I am awesome/perfect/have all my desires already". I don't affirm against myself and I don't check. So, don't do something you don't want to do "just to get anything". You cannot fool yourself through feeling bad.

And it brings us to the next point - feeling good. I focus only on now moment. As soon as thoughts come to the past/future, I stop it. Nope, everything is awesome, I don't need it. I know I have it. Also, I pay attention to 3d just to do everything possible to feel good. To enjoy every second, KNOWING I have it, just "it is just covered by illusion". Like you know, it is like you have two wolves. One is your old reality and second is the new one. If you pay attention to the old one, worry, become pissed, cry, always affirm against yourself, check your stuff, complain, think about "what if", then it will eat your "new one". But if you calm yourself, if you stay present, if you affirm even if "you don't want to", if you stay true to your new identity, if you keep doing it no matter what, knowing you have nothing to lose, then your old one will die from starvation. And you will get everything.

When I said "even if you don't want to", I mean - sometimes you feel bad, you panic, you think everything is awful, you cannot do it and bla-bla. It takes will to stop, to prevent spiralling and say "yes, I did it, but fffck it, I am still me, no matter what". Because when you give up to your feelings, to the moment, when you accept "nothing works" and the same stuff.. well, no one can help you. Each time everything says "you don't have it", you need to use your will and say no. No, I have it. Even if you cannot see it now. Only you decide if you have it or not.

It MAY seem fake, but you shouldn't be aware of it - you shouldn't bring your attention and say "oh! I feel it as fake". Just move on. Affirm after waking up and go live your day. When thoughts come - affirm and go live your day. Someone can use robotic affirming. I don't like it. In my opinion , this is silly. You change your identity not by saying something 1000 times, but when your old self asks if something is true and you say no. After certain amount you start to feel it. You start to feel a lot of relaxation, just peace and quiet. BUT! - if you use robotic affirming and absolutely sure it can help - use, this is your choice how to calm yourself.

If you have never watched it, this is a body horror with Cinderella's idea. If you plan to watch and don't want any spoilers, then don't read further. But be aware - watching left me disgusted, but I woke up in the middle of the night enlightened. I saw a different perspective of this "tale".

Basically, there are three daughters, two "not cool" and one beautiful, our Cinderella-to-be. The father dies, the stepmother announce they don't have money and the oldest daughter Elvira (on the photo above) should marry the prince, to bring money. But considering Elvira is too "closeted" and unaware of anything around her, this "around" always manipulates her - mother calls her ugly and forces her to go through facial surgeries, "Cinderella" is arrogant toward her and her sister Alma (by the story Cinderella's father married Elvira's and her sister's mother), prince calls her ugly, everything seems against her. She goes through surgeries, through consuming tapeworms egg (to become thinner), through constant pressure and, it the end, through mulalating her feet, to fit Cinderella's shoes.

Like I said - "body horror" part is disgusting, but these days, info comes to me through different sources xD So, I suddenly understood why I got this movie. Simply because we all on Elvira's place. I was there too (ans still there often, when I let the old story to move me).

You allow someone else to dictate your story, to control your reality, you watch what someone else does, what they say, even when it is obvious you need to move on, you still accept your old story's shitty treatment.

Both of them - Elvira and Alma weren't ugly. Of course, they needed improvement, but mind, soft, like being cleaner, maybe some make up, different hair, you know what I mean. But definitely NOT going against yourself (accepting tapeworm as the sign of wanting to hurt yourself to please others, who say you are "not enough"), and definitely not doing everything for people who doesn't deserve your attention (the prince and his friends are awful, but Elvira still likes him and does everything just to attract his attention - and this is when if she was natural, just being her true self, he would fall for her easily).

I am not going to spoil the ending for you, but trust me when I say that - only Cinderella got her better ending. So, before you whine, before you envy others, before you listen to someone says or expect them to build your life for you, remember - Elvira was never happy and failed greatly at the end.

I finally find myself doing nothing and I suddenly remember my promise to do this post. Before we start, remember two things. I always write about MY experience, how I did/do, felt/feel, thought/think. If you don't do/feel it - I am absolutely fine with it, no need to inform me about it, feel free to move with your life. And second - this is my reality, living in in I write my posts how I like them. If you didn't understand something, though, you can always just ask.

Anyways, where were we?..

let's start with the most common one, which I see all the time. "I want to have this or that/lucid dream/enter the void, but I cannot. I hate my life". Basically, you just affirmed for you to have more of it, to have more of the life you hate, more of not having something you want. Each thing you say and think, it is an affirmation, something that will fulfill today or in the future. Especially, if this is aligned with your identity. This is why sometimes you have something very fast and sometimes it takes years.

Next. "I've tried to affirm, manifest, enter the void for some years, but nothing happens". Another affirmation. It doesn't matter how many years you wanted something or tried to get. If you count years, it means you don't have it, otherwise why would you? Personally, I live in Now, every second we are new, so.. why does it matter for how many days you affirmed, if the next moment you went to check his status or your bank balance? Only recently I understood what "the old story cannot give you validation" means.

Next. "When I enter the void, I will affirm and all my problems will go away". I exaggerated it, but you can get the hint. The people who think they will enter the void and suddenly everything will be okay, life will change and there will be a true paradise on Earth. Seriously, your life never ends with the void or manifesting. This is why you need reprogramming - you start to understand you don't need the void to fix anything, to get anything, to be happy or solve problems. Because you will always have it. Until you are alive. Nothing changes that, but with changing your mindset you stop to see everything as the end of the world. This is "just a life situation, not a problem" (quoting E. Tolle now :p)

Next. "I cannot spiral/cry/have bad thoughts/be sad/have a bad mood" or "when I change my self-concept, there won't be any bad thoughts". Both are false, although the second one is similar to the previous example. You can do anything. The main point is after you done with your crying, you gather yourself and RETURN to your identity of powerful god. This is the point - no matter what happens, you remember who you are and you act from it. You will still have thoughts, but you can open your mouth (not literally, unless you want to) and say "nope, I am not this anymore, this is old, fff off".

next. "I can check results and this is okay if I don't react". Ummm... weeell, I thought the same. But .. since your identity manifests everything, not your reaction, you just keep following the same pattern. This is like .. if you identify with not having something, and you want to check it, you see it is not there, you confirm it and keep living in not having it. Unless!! - you affirm you have it, instantly. But..why do you need to check it, then??

next. "If I don't feel anything, I must be doing something wrong" or "if I feel bad, I must be doing something wrong". Both are not true. Each way is special, only for you. You may change your mindset in one flip, one day, one night and etc. Do not compare. otherwise you would feel bad for sure, because you will attract envy. I felt differently - sometimes it was absolutely cool, sometimes it was awful (and both still go, but for now it is different, closer to "sabbath" state).

next. Writing the previous one, I suddenly remember one of my favorite. "I need to know/believe/understand it". All three is bullshit. The void is awareness, it is something you would never understand with your mind. The same as feeling of being present. it is beyond it. While being obsessed with the void and thinking people are hiding something or I cannot understand it, I was constantly asking and looking for explanation, methods, ideas, anything. Because I was sure - I need to get it. Otherwise it wouldn't work xDDDD It is not true. You have two sides - logical and let's say spiritual. Logical will never understand awareness and "I know it is here/done", or you not needing the proofs, or feeling something is coming. It is beyond comprehension. But spiritual will never follow logic or explain something with words. You just feel something, it is formless and you cannot ask or make any plans with it. When I met that special person, I knew it was him, without any proofs or questions, I even knew his name, considering there is no way I could've guess it. You just trust it.

The last for today. "I need proofs, because there are liars/someone was exposed/it all may be a lie/etc put anything similar here". I cannot express enough, but it is silly. You all believe some shady people, with signs "liar" across their faces (not literal lol), but cannot believe yourself. This is not about them!!! This is about you personally! If you search for any sign through comments on YT "I want to know if this subliminal works", and then, when you see someone with positive comment you think "oh, they are lying, I don't believe them". Or if you search through someone's stories here, to try and find any sign of them lying. Or you asking them for proofs (I don't envy moonlighttroope after that, no wonders she deactivated after that). This is not them being liars, this is you being in identity of lacking. The more you suspect them lying, the more you get it. I am not saying you should believe openly, when someone says "show me your nudes and I will manifest for you", obviously you should have some brains to not follow it. But! - just for a thought - if you suspect anyone being a bad person, how would it help you to manifest what you want? isn't it easier to assume anyone says truth, the void is easy, you can get in and manifest instantly?? Considering you believe in manifesting, right? otherwise I don't know why you are here. Again, you manifest from your identity. So, if you think "everyone lies", then you will get only reality, where everyone lies to you.

But of course, no one owes you any proofs xD I'd laugh each time I see such demands. If you don't believe - well, this is your own problem.

If you have more questions, something I didn't mention above, but you would like to know - feel free to ask under this post, no need to use "ask" for that. And yes, pink is very cute color xDDD

I perceveid that every symptom I feel it is like "wow maybe this is really happen" and I pay attention to it or daydream and comeback to 3d, even when trying to do sats (as a way to take off void state pressure) but then I just sleep and it is another day and I didn’t feel the wishfufilled or see any signal of change in dreams or physically, then my first thought is "it didn't happen again" and I try to think the opposite but it's almost how the thought was the first when I woke up and will not change the fact that it didn't happen.

I don't know to explain it better.

it is not dumb. See it as obsession = thinking/doing too much. If you think about something too much, it becomes an obsession.

letting go is not abandoning any wishes or deciding to not have it. It is "the opposite of obsession". This is like if previously you thought too much, this time you just relax. If you were doing 1000 methods, this time you do nothing. Forced means doing. The same as with manifesting - the ego (or the old story, pick what you like more) wants you to be doer, to do to much. So, if you listen to this "you need to do it", then either do it and calm down, believe fully it works, or (if you know you cannot believe 100%), just say "nope, I am natural, I have it without methods".

One of the latest lucid dreams happened without reality checks, without affirming and doing nothing. Even before 5 am (usually it happens after 6 am). So, do not make rules. You just restrict yourself.

If you seek something outside of yourself, then you are waiting for something to happen. It happened to me in void obsession - I waited for something to happen, for some symptoms others described. So, you are constantly checking, looking if it works or not. Re-read what I said first time. You should trust yourself. You need to seek validation from yourself, not from me. Even if you wake up and you are still the same, well, don't say it. Say "oh my god, I feel it, I have everything I want, I am so happy, so this and that". Then forget about it and go, live your day. If you lived in doubts for long time, most likely your life wouldn't change in 1 hour or 1 night. Sometimes it happened, but often it takes more time. But it doesn't mean you should think about it and count. You affirm every second. Every word is affirmation. So, if you say to me "it didn't happen", what are you going to have in result?

it is all about discipline. About watching what you usually do, how you think and how you live your life, how do you react of things. Even if you checked at you bf, or your balance, it doesn't mean you failed. Just start to do something else and say you affirmation. "I just checked, I am so rich" or "He loves me so much, thinks only about me". But there is a delicate balance. For now, my partner is offline, for some time. So, I am not going to check and spiral "what and why and where and etc". I am going to imagine the best outcome and feel joy and happiness. Then forget about it and do my own stuff. If thoughts return, no matter good or bad, I am going to repeat it. At some point, your rewiring will work out and you will notice you more positive than negative. But even if you started to spiral or cry, the moment you realize it stop, calm down and say "this is okay, I am allowed to feel it. But I am not it anymore. This is past". This is normal, it is going to affect you for some time. But not always.

In simple words, remember my analogy - always act from someone you want to be. If you want to have lucid dreamer, don't say that you didn't have any dreams tonight. Imagine you had it. Or say you had it.

But! - what was important for me. If you feel any resistance (and I think you feel or will feel), do not fight it. Basically, whatever awful comes to you, just agree or meet with silence. Whatever you like more.

At first it may feel exhausting. Let's say you want someone to write to you. And you have these thoughts. "He didn't write, he doesn't like you, he would never be with you, because you this and that". Meet every thought with "so what?" or "okay" or "thanks", anything but negative. As soon as you start to argue/fight it/complain/reason => you lose. The old story cannot be reasoned with. it is old story, it dies because you don't care.

Now, I will repeat in simple words, to avoid confusion.

decide who you are (not what you want, because you are not a doer, you are changing your identity, it is important)

observe your thoughts, negative ones and remember or write them down. As soon as they appear, use "so what" stuff, to calm them down. Proceed until there is silence.

as soon as they disappear, affirm your statement "I am this and that, I am perfection, the best one, he loves me, I am rich, healthy and etc".

If you have thoughts again - do the same. Keep your affirming short, you don't want to talk yourself to death.

You are ALLOWED to have bad thoughts, cry and have bad days. But you are not allowed to let it affect you. Even if I am tired or sad, I just feel it, I am not it, I am perfection. I don't give a fuck what everything thinks about me, my world in my imagination.

"so russian" - what it supposed to mean? Blunt? Rude? straightforward? Because I've heard all of this. I quitted attempts to be "nice nanny", I don't see any way it can help anybody. if someone is offended, well, it only means they wanted to be offended, this is a victim mentality, I was in this for years.

"how it will happens"+"how would I trust"+"after so many failures"= victim mindset. Short answer - reprogramming your old self, through controlling your thoughts, emotions and persisting.

Longer answer is you should be on the edge of collapse. When you have nothing to lose. Only then you will reach "I am going to do this, because.. what awful is going to happen?"

Until then, you will hold all these false beliefs - "someone will manifest for me" or "someone will enter the void" or "I need to search for something" or "I need to know or to understand". All this is bullshit. I guess, I have to write a post about beliefs, how the reality reflects your thoughts. If there will be enough people interested, I will do it. For now, I am just enjoying myself outside of Tumblr.

I was holding all these thoughts for years, thinking, feeling and following in actions. Because anyone would rather suffer and wait for a miracle, than change themselves and be the miracle. When I was lazy and living in the old mindset, I thought "I need to find a proper method" and "I need to understand it". When my health became worse, I thought the same - someone will help me. Again, no one will come to save you. No one will babysit you and hold your hand. Well, unless they are someone who wants your money/attention/etc (like recent story with Milana lol).

Start to think that you are alone here. Start to watch your thoughts. Decide HOW exactly you want to be. How exactly you want to feel and behave. Then, when old thoughts appear, understand this is not who you are anymore.

The simplest example. You want to be rich. You can just affirm in the morning, when you wake up. Affirm to have certain amount or just being abundant. If you hear something "no, this is not true, you are liar bla-bla", stay calm, watch it, listen. Then either do nothing or re-affirm. But only after you calm. This is important - you cannot hate yourself/these thoughts, you cannot react negatively or spiral to your thoughts. But! on the other hand, if you forgot and started to cry, this is fine, don't hate yourself. Cry, do whatever, then return to your affirming, when you are calm. The main mistake here is to think you shouldn't have thoughts or feel bad/sad/upset/whatever. You can do everything. This is old story, I am not this anymore. Simple.

You don't have to visualize, of you don't want to. Or affirm. Or do anything. But on the other hand, you should watch your thoughts, to be aware of your patterns. Know your enemy, okay? Although, your old self is not your enemy, but your know the tactics.

Avoid counting days - "hey guys, I am in this for X days, I am so cool, okay?". Avoid doing something because "I have to". Nope, you don't have to, this is not about doing, this is about being. Fff, looks like I have to write that post about thoughts reflecting in your reality... Okay, in simple - you always live in a loop. You say/feel/accept something as true, it becomes your identity, and BASED of your identity you see your reality. So, first you get something like "not enough money". You say "oh my god, not enough money, what should I do?". You accept it, you think it is real, otherwise why would you react. And now this is who you are - a person, who doesn't have enough money (wild trick - you always have unlimited money, but your identity shows you only what you allow to have). After that, you see everything through your identity - prices, possibilities, jobs, people's behavior, everything reflects your truth "not enough money".

So, this is why wise people say "take inspired actions". It always stems from your identity. When you change who you are, you will see everything differently.

Now, the last point. The most curious. "how would I trust that it will happens". If you don't trust yourself, then, sadly, it will never happen. This is why I abandoned attempts to enter the void. It was always forced. I wanted to take "this stronghold". I was crying, with thoughts - why other enter and I cannot, especially considering they entered from the first try (now I know lol). All you say reminds me of me back then. You are obsessed with the void, thinking it will make you happy and solve all your problems. This is another mistake. It won't. Not because "the void is not real" or "there is no instant manifesting". Nope, I am not talking about it. Even if you are able to enter it now, it will make you even more obsessed. You would enter because of everything, any small detail will make you spiral and enter the void to manifest it away.

You give up with these attempts not because of it not being real or because you are submitting to your failures (void is you and there aren't failures, unless you say so). But because everything starts with you. Ask yourself - if you know you can manifest right now, would you really need the void? if you knew you don't have any problems, would you be upset and looking for something or would you enjoy any second, knowing you already have anything? All this tied to the inner self, not to the void. I am sure you saw all these posts, where people say lucid dreams and the void come when you are relaxed, not when you force it to happen. Think about it too.

One more thing, for the road. I suppose there will be questions (if not from you, then from others). Something like :

how do you know it works? (I don't need to know I feel it).

others didn't need reprogramming, why do you say I need it? (if you don't need it, then why do you here? you should be somewhere else, enjoying your life, because this is not the place to be when you are God and have everything).

someone did it for years and nothing happened (..well, ask yourself - if you make pancakes and it always goes wrong, would you rather try to understand what is wrong or just continue forcing it??)

(and it comes to another question) you've said I don't need to do anything and all worries are from old self, so I should assume I do everything right and continue (okay, here we are talking about different stuff. When you reprogram yourself, you can face either resistance, your mind will suffer, it will reflect in your reality, you mat see awful stull, just to make you react and spiral, because you are addicted to failures. OR you may see nothing at all. But it means nothing, nothing happens, nothing manifests, no movement. But it happened to me in the middle of reprogramming and it never for long. And of course it is only for you to react/cry/spiral/say nothing happens and it doesn't work. But all reprogramming never takes YEARS, all bad and suffering never takes a lot of time. You will feel it. You may feel worse today, tomorrow will be better, then it can be bad again. It is not linear.)

why I cannot just ask someone to manifest/enter the void for me, I know it works (feel free to do it, if you want).

how do you know if this is true, you may be a lair and just faked everything (I love this question, seriously xD imagine I am a liar. How did everything change? everything I've told others and wrote here? the void just disappeared? or you don't have to do anything because of me? no matter who I am and what I do, I do it for myself and in my own reality. You aren't affected anyhow, unless you choose to be. No one on Tumblr or in the world can affect you, unless you want to. They can be liars and you will still manifest instantly and enter the void. You all just create more problems for yourself with wanting proofs for everything).

Nope. When I was obsessed with the void, all I had was several seconds. As soon as I become aware of the void, I would be thrown out from it. So I moved to another things - self-concept, lucid dreaming and etc. At some point you should understand - if you are obsessed with something "I've been doing it for years" or "I need it so much", then you have a problem. Not with the void, because, in fact, you can enter at any second, even sitting in your toilet. But your obsession will prevent it.

I was seriously not in the proper mood recent days. Partly because of the reason coming in this post. And partly because of this community. And I am not going to explain that. If you understand - you will try to spend as less time here as you can. If you don't understand - cannot help with it.

Anyways..

I was really bored today, so I spend some time in confession. And some stories made me cackle. Not in a way to laugh about other people's troubles. I was in the same stage some time ago.

Anyways again.

The main question - should you reprogram your mind or not. Some people say "oh wait, you don't need fixing, you don't need to do anything, just assume you are this and that". But I will say - this is bullshit. If you are strong-willed, if you know your stuff, then sure, you don't need anything. But in this case you should've achieved your success by now.

So, let's look at reasons, why you should think about your mind has been running poorly.

If you can be swayed so easily (the reason I mentioned confession), so anyone can make you cry, upset, irritated or depressed, if you can forget anything because of someone else's words, then maybe you NEED to work with your will and mind? This is not okay, if you say "oh yes, I can enter the void so easily", then someone writes "the void is not a magical place, so your wishes are not guaranteed" or "you can enter only if you do this or that/you can have lucid dreams only if you do this or that", and you are crushed. Entering the void/having lucid dreams are about control and letting go in the same measures - control over your wishes and decisions and not bothering about everything else, knowing it works. No one should direct your reality. Even if they say "the void is not real", you should be unbothered.

If you change your mind easily. You are supposed to choose something and stay with it no matter what. If you want it today and tomorrow you don't, if you are happy today and tomorrow you want to give up and etc. you won't ever be able to get what you want, unless some miracle happens. You should be firm in your directions. If you KNOW you have it, you have it no matter what, no matter what happens around you.

if you had some/any trauma in your past. Especially unhealed, because sometimes it is outside of your control. I was in toxic relationships, so when something close to it happened (someone tried to control me/something vague was happening/my so didn't have chance to talk to me), I was just spiralling. I couldn't do anything, because it was out of my reach, it just happened, even before I could think anything and decide "how perfect I am".

https://www.tumblr.com/voidstateconfessions/805448728243748864/hey-everyone-its-azuramanifests-im-happy-to?source=share

Someone says I am rude. Maybe so.

Some time ago, when some bloggers would talk to me in cold way, I could've become weary, upset or something. Now I understand why they did it. In my own way, of course.

I was like you, asking the same question over and over again, overthinking and imagining others know something I don't. They hide it from me, don't want me to know the truth. And I was searching for THAT answer. I thought I will find it and it resolves everything. The life suddenly flows to me and I become happy as fuck. That's a lie. If you think the same.. I have bad news for you.

The same was with the answer "this is so easy, why can't you see it?". It was so frustrating!! I was so angry with people telling me that. "How can't they see it being so hard?? I am suffering here and they don't understand!!".

All this is a bullshit. Each time I see such messages, I remember myself, spending a lot of time to get something that was always mine. No one can take it from you, I promise.

The answer is hilariously easy. I told you in my earlier post - first you create your reality and then you see it. There is no other way. When you say it is easy, it becomes easy for you. When you say you don't have it, you .. don't have it lol

You live in NOW moment. There is no yesterday or tomorrow. This is why it is really important to remember. You cannot think "I spiral now, but tomorrow I will be steady". Or "I train myself and it becomes easier with time". Or "I need to wait for results". Or all these checking for proofs "I was affirming for 1 week, where is it??". Time doesn't exist. Imagine you just started, you just decided you have it, 1 sec ago. Your week means nothing if you can switch back to doubting/checking.

In rough words "you manifest now, you get your results later, BUT! - you HAVE to treat it as you KNOW your results are here, now, you have them".