Expressions Of My Inner Being

Most days I wish I never felt a damn thing for you. Spared of this bullshit so at the very least i'd feel comfortable being the places I love to be.

Dont get me twisted.....I will never let you interfere with what I'm doing in MY life. I dont care if you introduced me to this person, that person, or place. I'll allow anyone to make their own assessment of me. And of you.

I don't want to be hurt and betrayed by people I used to think so highly of. In these time I also miss them terribly. I miss how close we were. I know I ruined a lot by falling in and out with her. But it wasn't fair to abandon me....again.

I hate how angry I am but you fucking did this to us....

I hate that the ones I connect with and relate to are who I feel so drawn to. And they will indulge me in their low times and forget about me in the highs.....

I'm always a fucking mistake they didnt mean to cause. She doesnt even recall any of it... how convenient for her. I should've listened to everyone around me. To her own kin. I knew better..... so why does this hurt so bad? Why does it feel like she is the only woman left in the world?

Doesnt mean it didnt happen

Drunken lie or not

Discipline is what you're lacking

Now I'm stuck feeling like this was all a big mistake

You only wanted me when his attention went astray

I understand. A helping hand. A boy that would never tell you no.

I had a choice. And never voiced. That I couldn't let you go.

But you're the reason, I woke up. And the reason I dont sleep.

I said better late than never. Just dont make me wait forever"