How many divorces??

So, he has been posting all kinds of lies about me. "I'm not a monster". And shit like that... Whatever. We all know who was convicted! He got a girlfriend😀 I want to feel sorry for sorry for her. But, she's jumped on the I hate the ex I never met bandwagon! So, let me know how the beat downs go.. Oh, never mind I already know. So, now he's posting pics in front of the divorce center. That made my day! He FINALLY did something to make me happy!

My alimony has been cut off and no one knows why?? I got served with court papers today...... Wait for it.... He doesn't feel I should get alimony and ready??? He doesn't think I can pass a drug screen! This is coming from the biggest drunk and self confessed $150,000.00 crack smoker! The man who has been convicted of drug possession! I was reading up on NJ law & domestic Violence. This is just another way for the abuser to maintain control. Dragging you into court for dumb shit! I started therapy today.. It was extremely emotional. But, I know this is part of my healing. In order to be the best I can be, I need to heal & get this mess behind me. It's just gonna be a long bumpy road. But, As weak as I may appear... I'm one strong fighter! So, with that being saud he better be ready.. Because, I'm NOT taking anymore of his shit!

At 1:31am he sent me a video on Facebook Messenger. SMFH! When is this madness gonna end? The answer, never! I feel like I will NEVER have any peace in my life!

Well, in less than 24 hours he has found me. And is making all kinds of crazy accusations! (None true) Drunk as a skunk in a trunk! (He's not supposed to drink) Such a law abiding citizen! Yet, he's out and roaming the streets. In the mean time, I'm in fear for my life. Living like I have done something wrong! Living back un my prison. No more carefree days.. Now, I have to be careful and watch my every move.. I have to figure out how to break free from this fear! I can't live like this much longer.

Well, yesterday was a shit show! For sure! He once again got a slap on the wrist! No No (insert name) don't try to kill your wife again or your in big trouble Mr. Now go see your Probation Officer and cause more hell in this world! Fuck the Justice System! What a joke! This system that is supposed to prosecute criminals, and protect victims like me is a 3 ring circus! With no respect, no compassion and no morales! I had asked the Asst. Prosecutor if he knew what it felt like for someone to grab you by the throat and look you directly in the eyes as they take away your ability to breath??!! He smiled (yes he fucking smiled) chuckled and said yes! I call bullshit! If that had EVER happened to him he would find it funny! And the witness advocate, she was rolling her damn eyes! Arguing with me about how well she did her job! Really? That fat lazy bitch didn't do shit! The only thing she did do... Tell me to hide when they "accidentally" let my abuser out! So, I told them both to have a great fucking day! And when he beats me to death, I hope she's still doing her job when she gets to tell my daughter to ID my body because this fucking animal finally finished what he started!