DivineDarshu

I am simply a result of my choices 💕

Except from Battling Dark Forces by Torkom Saraydarian

"A man or woman is a battleground of forces. You are the field of battle. Your physical body, your emotional body, your mental body, your spiritual realms are all battlefields on which various forces fight to gain victory. In your physical body, health and disease fight against each other continuously. In your emotional realm, negative and positive emotions are fighting continuously. In your mental nature, good and bad continuously battle. Your inner being is also a field of conflict in that the directions that you have are either right or left; they are constructive or destructive. Any future progress, any advancement, joy, health, peace, and enlightenment in the future are the result of your decision as to what forces you are going to deal with to fight. Your blood cells fight; your thoughts fight; your decisions and motives fight. Your success and liberation depend upon which side you choose. If you choose negative emotions, your body, mind, and emotional nature will eventually be destroyed. If you choose positive emotions, your body will be healthier, your emotions more calm, your mind more rational and logical, and your direction correct. You are going to choose on which side to stand. This decision is the main theme of the Bhagavad Gita. Arjuna, the human soul, stands between two armies. One army is the forces of darkness, the other is the Forces of Light. If he joins the side of darkness, he will lose forever. If he joins the side of Light, he will conquer darkness. His future depends upon his decision. Everything that you do, every physical, emotional, and mental condition in which you find yourself is the result of your choice."

"My experience:

I had a tough childhood because my father was my biggest critic ( this is an understatement)

I felt severely unsupported and even unwanted to a degree. This led to really bad decisions and a lot of shit.

Cut to last week, my husband and I had our first huge fight post marriage.

My parents showed up at our doorstep and lo behold, my FATHER took my side and stood by me!!! He helped my husband understand my perspective, reminded him go great me with gentleness and understanding.

I was so surprised! I was crying of being overwhelmed. Such is tbe power of healing and forgiveness. This is the fruit of putting in all the work of journaling and affirmations and meditating all of last month religiously with this group. ❤️

I feel extremely grateful."

This was sent to me by one of my aura healing client ❤️

This time around when I was at the same place once again, I just paused and thought to myself, what is it that I must learn from these circumstances? Is there something that I am not letting go or is there something wrong I am manifesting in my life? Even after doing healings regularly, how could I have to face the same scenarios repeatedly?

With so many questions in my head, I fell sick, and I just couldn’t move myself. I asked someone else to do my healings and I started spending time with myself seeing my patterns. I figured that I had to forgive a few people in my life and, I was manifesting things out of my fear. I just was not letting go of the scenes from my head. I thought I had forgotten it but that wasn’t true, the fear of not letting it happen again was so strong that I simply manifested it all over again.

It is quite tuff to remove the fear that I had been giving space to grow in myself, but the journey has begun, and it feels lighter. Healings have helped me stay steady and observe my feelings, which feels beautiful. 

Recently, I had been to a spiritual camp, and we all were doing some physical exercises together. In one of the forward bending exercises, my spectacles fell, and I suddenly could see everything blur. In that split moment I understood the anecdote that I had been hearing since years. I just realized that a few seconds back while I was exercising, I was pretty much judging everyone around me based on how they looked, how they were doing their exercises, what they were wearing and most importantly, I could very clearly see their mistakes. But, after my eye wear was kept on the side, my entire attention was on myself.

I could feel the mistakes that I was doing and, I started working on improving myself. I realized, I was making similar mistakes as others and once again when I wore my contacts, I was conscious of looking at the seniors only to improve myself and make myself better and better. Instantaneously, I could only see everyone around me trying to be better and to be able to perform the task in hand just like I was.

The lesson simply beautifully dawned upon me, I was given these set of beautiful eyes to see the world to improve myself everyday and to help others whom I see struggling too. But I got clouded with being judgmental and seeing flaws only in others, thinking that I am superior and better than the rest. Glad, I could see my mistake and be more conscious about it.

While, as easy it sounds, it took me a long time to come around to even start with releasing.

In the start I would listen to the forgiveness sadhana audio and wonder, what is so difficult in forgiving, however, when I started writing letters about the incidents and people who have knowingly, unknowingly hurt me, I realized how I was feeling every emotion once again. The emotions of rage, hurt, pain and even revenge starts popping up while writing. I can feel the tiredness once I finish writing, it feels as though the emotions consumed me so much. The body feels weary for it finally realizes the heavy weighed emotions are not really needed by the body.

For longest time, I thought I had forgiven everyone, but that is not true. Every time I do forgiveness sadhana, I feel a layer of emotions get removed and there is still a lot more to remove, Simply, like peeling an onion, one layer at a time. Also, new layers get covered, with new day and new incidents. Now, after making conscious effort of doing forgiveness, I would not say I do not get angry, but at least I realize that I am feeling bad, angry or hurt. Which helps to do reflection on myself and to understand if it is worth holding on to. It still gets tuff for me sometimes, but I am glad I began.

I do suggest all my clients to write and burn about the incidents that they want to get rid of. They all tell me initially it is exceedingly difficult, slowly, they just cannot stop writing. They say it feels lighter and better after they are out with the stories.

Slowly, I started facing some falls in my life. I would always wonder that I am a good girl then why I am facing so many troubles? No one really understands me. I have done nothing wrong to have deserved anything that is stressful or hurting!

However, after learning healings and practicing the techniques of purifications, I understood the true meaning of the prayers “Hum nahee changey buraa nahi koi” . It is a line from one of the Sikh prayers, which says “I am not perfect, and nobody is bad”. It is a simple prayer which my mother would keep singing to us when we were kids. While I was busy finding flaws in others and blaming others for what was happening around me, I was lowering my own frequencies and inviting the situations.

After some months of healings, I could see that situations around me were changing, people around me were changing and there was more love and happiness around me.

Steadily, I realized that by doing twin hearts meditations, blessing the whole world and invoking the Guru for blessings, I was not only being in gratitude but also was sharing the energies with the world.

In the process, increasing my frequency and attracting the vibrations of love. Such a simple principle, only in giving we receive.

SOTD: cotton saree of my husband's ajji.

Coupled with my floral crop top.

I simply love, how neatly I wore the saree😁

Initially, when I used to do healings, I used to heal myself also after all the healings were done, but slowly, I could feel myself being healed with each healing I took up. I have noticed that when I am in some phase of life, I receive healing requests of people from whom I need to learn.

A lot of times, people think we as healers know it all, but that is not true, we have learnt the techniques and have the tools to heal but, we learn with every healing. Healings are just the beginning for us, there is a vast ocean of knowledge that is still pending for us to absorb.

Practice is what makes us better, and with each practice we learn more and more about ourselves. With each interaction I have with my patient, I get to understand myself better and, I feel gratitude of how much I already have.

I used to keep complaining about what I do not have, and now thanks to being a healer I make a conscious effort of living in gratitude.

Keeping myself sane, during this insane times!

Celebrating myself with love and accepting myself just the way I am😘

Self-healing is not easy. Yes, the end result is very appreciating and serene but the process is messy. Last couple of days I have been rigorously working on healing myself. It is like peeling an onion, just when I feel I have removed the dirt and pain, another layer reveals itself.

I have particularly been working on acceptance of myself. I could feel the hurt and pain every time I asked my body for forgiveness. It gets stressful to live each moment again where I did not take care of my body and tortured it. I relived all the dirty touches to the dirty looks, I felt the grief of not being capable to stand up for myself, I cried for all times I let someone else belittle me.

Only when I started writing, I realized how much I had bottled up inside me. The scraping took up a lot of effort and tired me. I hauled for I was angry with myself, how could I not see the value of my body and respect it. How could I think that my body was an asset just to lure someone to get my work done. How could I disintegrate myself just to prove the world that I am not a normal woman. How could I pretend to be heartless and make fun of others emotions in the name of being practical.

The questions haunted me and I felt ashamed in front of my own body. I couldn’t look myself in the eye, but, I drained it out of me and restarted my journey by telling myself that I forgive myself and accept myself with all my dirt. I picked up my miserable self and once again found peace in myself. I commence my voyage of self love.

As it's wesak full moon, one of the most important full moons of the year, the energies are very high starting from now till tomorrow night.

Whatever you do or feel enhances so make conscious efforts of staying positive, doing positive and also keep blessing others.

If you feel angry or irritated, take deep breaths and remain silent.

Love yourself and others and please keep blessing💕

But Tyra gives me daily a dose of love and happiness.

And the one thing I learn every minute from her is that live every moment as if there is no tomorrow!

What are you learning from your furry baby?

Universe is flooded with Divine energies; it is our incapacity to be able to absorb and utilize the energies sufficiently to keep ourselves healthy and bright. Lack of energy or excess energy is the reason for diseases to manifest. Thus, it is important that we intake healthy energies from the environment.

The primary source of Energy to the world is Sun, we all know that Sun is the starting point of the food chain. If the Sun does not shine its divine light, the plants cannot grow at all and that would end the entire food chain. The Sun not only gives us vitamin D but also makes us brighter. Sunny days generally make it a happy day, people tend to become gloomy if the sun does not come out or if it has been too cloudy for days. The Sun is powerful and thus, we cannot take too much of its rays, its preferred to inhale the sun rays of either sunrise or the sunset.

The second source of Energy is Earth, our mother Earth nurtures and roots us with motherly love. She does get her source of energy from the Sun, but she mixes her own portion of love and gives us the grounding energy. Walking bare foot over green land, helps you take in the earth energy. The other way of staying in touch with mother earth, planting is advised and to mix the mud by bare hands.

The third source of universal energy is Air, breathing in fresh air gives your body higher oxygen and thereby, enriching your blood with health. If the air you are breathing is not clean, then your body is deprived of healthy blood and creates various diseases in our body.  The Air fills us not only with oxygen but also some vitality globules to keep us fit.

These were the three main sources of energy in the environment, two other mixtures of primary energies are flowing water and trees or plants. Both brilliantly absorb three main sources of energy, the Sun, the earth, and the air. Flowing water is known to de stress and rejuvenate you, while the plants are known to give us vitamins, minerals, and other body building materials.

We are living in the mist of abundant environmental energies, as if the energies are waiting for us to tap into them and grasp them. Unleash your potential by being a brilliant channel of environmental energies, all you must do is be a part of the universe.

Universe is nothing but a beautiful solution of energies, frequencies, and vibrations. All living and non-living beings vibrate at certain frequencies and there by emitting and attracting corresponding energies. Nikola Tesla said- “If you wish to understand the Universe think of energy, frequency and vibration.”

We all are beautifully designed modems which keeps intaking energies and emitting out energies. We take in energies from our surroundings, pump in the required amount in our body and release the contaminated energy. It is as simple as our breathing, we take in Oxygen, the lungs process it and mix it with blood for a healthy circulation in our body. The blood which is a carrier also gets back carbon dioxide (used up air) to the lungs for it to pump it out of our system. Similarly, we have chakrams which are modems in our body that intake energy and emit energy from our system.

We are made up of a lot of chakrams but a few major ones play the key role of grasping the energy and circulating it to their respective areas and also throw out any used up energy from that area out of the aura. We have seven major chakrams that sustain and maintain the energy body. If certain chakrams malfunctions, if affects the organs around the chakrams and it can also affect other parts or systems of the body depending on its functions.

Seven major chakrams are:

Mooladhara chakram: Located at the base of the spine, it is related to survival and thus called the Root chakram. It keeps helps one stay grounded and rooted.

Swadishthana chakram: Located at the pubic area, also called as Sex chakram. It maintains one’s sex organs and helps one with self-love, creativity, and sexuality.

Manipura chakram: Located near the diaphragm, it is related to lower emotions and can be called Solar Plexus chakram. It keeps the diaphragm sane and associated with protecting from stress and psychosomatic ailments.

Ananhata chakram: Located near the physical heart thereby it is called the heart chakram also. It regulates the physical heart and lungs. It is the centre of love and keeps intact compassion and integration.

Vishuddhi chakram: Located at the throat also makes it call Throat chakram. It controls our power of expression.  It is linked with personal truth and etheric understanding and expressions.

Ajna Chakram: Located at the forehead is also called the Third eye Chakram. It is the centre of will. It nourishes the brain, pituitary and hypothalamus glands. It is related to extrasensory perception, intuition, and inspiration.

Sahasrara Chakram: Located at the crown of the head, it is also named the Crown chakram. It gives you are the strength for wisdom, transcendence, and spirituality.

Since the energy body and the physical body are connected to one another, any changes in the energy body replicates in the physical body and visa versa. So, when a healer heals you, they believe that your body has the capacity to self-heal.

Healer is a term used for some one who tries to heal others from their physical, mental or emotional stress. Healers want to help others feel better and be absolutely fit. In the process, we healers also get healed and keep learning from our experiences.

Generally, we get cases that must teach us something, for us to progress in our life. Yesterday when I was taking the aura cleansing session, I for some reason emphasized on healing of the physical body. We asked forgiveness from our bodies for abusing it and not valuing it. Moreover, later in the night I had a break down and I went on cribbing about how devasted my life is. How people around me do not care about me. I even started feeling like some furniture.

I suddenly was overwhelmed with emotions, I knew what I am saying is not true, people around me love me. Still, I felt very strange about myself and I discussed it with my spiritual buddy, who very religiously showed me the mirror. She showed me the loop of how I had not accepted myself, of how self-love was missing. I felt very strange in my stomach. It just flooded to me “these are exactly my words of the session.”

 It was some miraculous moment, for you realize the presence of Guru, who wants to take care of you and passes on the message to you via whomever he feels suitable. The message was crystal clear, Love yourself and others will Love you. Respect yourself and others will respect you.

The mirror shows me who I have become every single day. I look beautiful, with my success but, I do not look healthy to myself. For the world I keep smiling and stand on my own. Little do people know from your shinning lives that you are everyday figuring out who you are.

In the process of helping others, I feel happy and alive. In the night, when I am with myself, I see the reality of my body. It screams in pain, for I did not take care of it. I ask for forgiveness from each part of my body, I understand that I did not value it, love it, and cared for it as I should have.

I never paid attention to food as the primary source of energy. I skipped meals, kept myself alive only on chocolates, tang and bread butter. Since, I have got into energy healing and I have been working on myself, suddenly, the importance and the value of this body has struck me. With putting in efforts to research, it has dawned on me that my health depends on what I think, what I eat and the exercises.

I have always had a sweet tooth; my sugar intake has always been exorbitant. Just now, I realize how sugar is addictive and kept giving me the kick. I would always be spiralling, jumping around, never in one place. People thought, me including that I have excess energy but that is not true. I was inducing energy, which would only make me want to do more and more. It is like I did my own kind of zoomies.

Currently, when I have lowered by sugar intake, I feel the cry of my body. I feel my body is trying to balance my previous acts. It is teaching me to pause and think and enjoy my moments. I do my healings and every time I ask for forgiveness from this body, I am in tears for not valuing the one thing that is helping me stay alive, feel the things around me and the only thing that can help me do service and upgrade myself.

Gymnastics require a lot of strength in the body, practice, and persistence. Most importantly, you need determination and the mental ability to stretch yourself a little more. Being a gymnast, in my school days I remember the thrill I had when I was told to do a flip on the balancing beem. All eyes would be glued over me just to see how well I did my balancing act. After the performance, very one would applaud and when I would win the Best Gymnast of the year award quite a few called me Rubberband.

 What people did not see was that I would skip my lunch and practice the drill as though my life was dependent on it. I would work out till my muscles ached, and slowly that pain became a mark of accomplishment for me. My parents would drive me to school an hour earlier just so that I could do my drill. Not only did I walk on the rope in the school but also on my mother’s leg, our house sofa’s edge, or my parent’s bed. I could only see equipment around me, the claps, the trophy, nothing mattered. Only and Only my passion for Gymnastics mattered.

Today, when I look back, I understand how much passion and the one pointedness matters. How I could achieve anything when I put my head to it. But currently when I see my body, I feel lost. I cannot recognize myself. From being able to do headstand to a one arm cartwheel, I now, find it difficult to even bend to pick up something. My body feels heavier and painful sometimes.

Everyone, including doctors say it is because of stress and hormonal imbalances, which is very factual. What I find difficult is to comprehend that now when I wish to be healthy, my mind does not find a motivation? It is so weird, that to keep myself healthy, my body needs motivation? Why does my mind not feel determined?