death

I broke a door fully off of its hinges during a panic attack, so that is the state of things right now

eating status: took a bite of a donut id saved, immediately spit it out and threw it away

cyclical violence

it'll break me

disgust

staring at an unbandaged open self inflicted wound is not a sort of loathing I would wish upon even my worst enemy

yayyyyy everyone is playing games without you!!!!!!!! yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay!!!!!!!!!!! yaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!! 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

I want to cut myself again and again and again and again and again until there's nothing left but the blood that ooen wounds leave on my body

who up snorting prescription meds and then doing all of the fucking dishes!!!!!!

relapse is worse because im allergic to some adhesives so on top of the stinging and the hurting and the bruising the area becomes swollen and itchy and even more painful than before as I try to scratch around open and healing wounds

i try to be normal and good for as long as i can but then everything that makes me hurt comes back around and its all so rotten and people leave or they make me leave