a few months ago was quite literally the worst moment of my life, found out some shit that totally rocked my WORLD. could have gone my entire life without finding terrors out i'll tell you that!

but i know myself, know my true intentions and know that despite everything i always need to live my truth and take whats thrown at me and work with it. And i did! and i always will. i'm especially lucky that i have such wonderful incredible friends, some folks i've had the pleasure of knowing for over 14 years now, or even friends i've only known for a few months stick by me regardless of everything and offer me beautiful words, advice and actions that mean everything to me.

because just as i know myself, these people i trust and love also know me and my intentions. and i'm so lucky that i have my beautiful support system. and no, contrary to popular belief i don't manipulate these people to stay with me. :/ i think i'm just funny and do awesome twirls so they like me. just a hunch though.

i'm traveling with my lovely friends and partner and i hope to see the world with them! i'm so lucky to have this opportunity to have incredible meals, see gorgeous sights, listen to wonderful sounds (even my friend leon making scary screeches, i've learned to appreciate it) and just live. i'm fucking living!!!!!! and we all did promise to take more pictures this year!!!!!! memories fade and when i'm older, i want to look back. and remember the love from these moments. i really love these people man. i'm so lucky. if you're ever in a space with me i'm GOING to show you pictures. we're already planning for more trips! hurray!

i'm also excited to finally be able to Own a home with someone who truly values me and respects me as an individual. and genuinely loves me. i feel so loved! i'm so lucky to know him and even though i'm prickly, he still hugs me. i've never felt a love like this before and i'm so thankful he wants to share it with me until we both become trees (or in my case: a meal for a shark! ocean funeral, baby) ...... he's kinda cool i guess

i love my friends. i love that they're all perusing careers that they adore, i love that they're living their beautiful lives, and experiencing incredible things and finding wonderful opportunities. and i get to be there with them! i can't wait to manipulate them into living in the same senior home with me. yay! I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!!!!!! I WOULD LIST THEM ALL BUT I NEED TO FOCUS ON THIS. they know who they are. THANK YOU FOR KNOWING ME!!!!!!!!!! AND LOVING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thank you very much