sünmagïc

Here I am, again. Not much has changed, I mean a lot has for me specifically, but not much has changed in regards to these feelings. Which never seem to escape me, idk why, my mind plays tricks on me. It makes me feel like I finally have u close enough then it just rips you away again. I’m scared to lose you, although I have never even really had you. I just want to make things right so bad, And bad is exactly what I keep turning things into. I feel desperate, delusional, insane at times. How could I have all this for you? when there is not one ounce of reciprocity. I just want to show you what you deserve, properly. I pray the universe grants me that opportunity. I hope we are written in the stars and just not in my heart. Because if I continue to go on without you, I will never fully feel whole. I pray I pray and I pray the universe just sheds light on this potential. ♥️