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how to cope with being alone? like i genuinely have one friend and she lives three hours away. im supposed to move out soon and all i can think is how fucking lonely my life is…how did this even happen to me?

and my best friend is avoiding me for the first time in 15 years and it’s making me sad bc the biggest thing just happened and we need to talk but she won’t talk to me…like this is why i’m here but i feel like she doesn’t need me anymore

feeling actually so sick of this life bro. like i’m hanging on by a thread and then my cat who i got for Christmas as a six year old girl starts getting sick is about to die and then the cat i got as a sixteen year old (he’s only 6) gets cancer and they want to literally cut off his leg…in the span of one day

and if i said the only thing that could fix me is a woman 20+ years older than me? what then?