Dissapointment-san

Intro, part 0.5 , part 1, part 2 , part 3 , part 4 , part 5

Notes: So close to the ending. I am going to post next part when it gets enough interactions. As for the Otome Au I will post the Octavinelle part in a week. I hope you enjoy it.

Warning: Yandere stuff, gender-neutral reader, mentions of murder and death, English is not my first language be aware of that.

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“Don’t you think the Boss is a bit strange? I mean I’ve only seen him a few times but he doesn’t look like a boss at all.”

The red-haired Heartslabyul rookie asked. It was lunch break and you were sitting in a café with the rookies.

“Indeed. The way he talks and acts is nothing like I imagined.” The lilac-haired rookie assassin agreed. You chuckled. Despite being his right-hand man, sometimes even you couldn’t understand how Crowley managed to become the boss.

“What did you expect?” you asked.

“Tougher? Cooler?” You laughed to their answers . They were right.

While the conversation continued, you got a notification on your phone and said goodbye to the rookies and got up from the table.

You knocked on the door of the main headquarters meeting room and went inside. Crowley was leaning back in the boss chair at the head of the table, drinking tea.

“Oh, you’re here, sit down.”

He gestured for you to sit down at one of the chairs.It always seemed strange to you. Even though there were seven executive in organization, there were only eight directors at the table. A bouquet of white lilies was placed on the extra chair.

“You wanted me.”

You sat down in the Heartslabyul chair to Crowley’s left. Your masked boss smiled.

“I just wanted to chat a little. You know, today is a special day. Today…is the day you completed your first mission and joined the mafia.” He looked at the lilies and then at you. His voice was sad. You nodded.

“Yes sir.”

“Tell me Y/n…how was your first mission?”

You were confused. Crowley had asked you that question before. Many times. And you gave the same answer again.

“The target was unarmed. Or rather, he dropped his weapon on the ground in front of my eyes and wanted to hug me-“

“Okay, no need to continue.” He looked at the lilies sadly.

“…Y/n, I raised you. You are like my own child to me. You know that.”

You nodded. It was true that he had taken you from the orphanage when you were little and raised you.

“Life can do things you can’t predict. You never know what the future holds for you. I’ve done a lot to survive in this organization. You understand?”

It’s the same thing every year. Every year, Crowley would call you into this room today, and for what felt like hours, he would speak to you in this strange and uncharacteristic way. Like he was confessing his sins…

“You are loyal to me. My right-hand man. My most trusted man…”

- Previous boss’s timeline

“Crowley…”

A sick old man in bed called out to the man standing next to him in the chair. His voice was dry and weak. His narrow eyes were tired and full of hatred.

“Yes boss,”

“Haven’t you destroyed the Royal Sword yet! Destroy it!”

The old man started shouting again, as if he were crazy. The man sitting on chair smiled. He seemed quite used to this situation. He stood up and leaned over to the man lying on the bed. The man in the bed’s screams stopped. The white sheets were stained red.

“Ah, finally. He’s been going through a lot of dementia lately. If I had waited a little longer, I was sure I would have lost my hearing. Don’t you think so Crewel?”

Crowley turned to the assassin standing right by the door. Crewel’s face was unreadable, but Crowley smiled understandingly.

“It was bound to happen eventually. It’s just a matter of timing and patience. And don’t tell me you’re sorry. I mean, he’s been going through a lot of dementia for the last year and a half.”

He waved his hand in the air.

“I will inform the other executives of the death in a few hours. Have the body cleaned. I must prepare a funeral worthy of our dear old boss. I will see you tonight.”

The masked executive put on his coat and left the room.

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“What is this?” Savanaclaw’s new executive Ashton Vargas slammed his hand on the table.

The first extraordinary executive meeting was being held since the tragic sudden death of the former boss. The subject was the treason accusation of the 8th Division Ramshackle executive– code name Blade.

“Apparently, Blade, who has been supposedly ‘on a mission’ for a long time, was working for Royal Sword.” Heartslabyul executive Trein explained the subject while sipping his tea.

“How is this possible? He was the boss’s right-hand man. He was his heir.” Ashton Vargas read the documents over and over in disbelief.

“According to the documents, a large amount of money was transferred to the Ramshackle executive’s bank accounts. Why didn’t Octavinelle mention this?”

Crowley, executive of Diasomnia, asked.

“Because there was no such gap-”

“Or you didn’t notice it.”

“I don’t believe it. There was no reason, and these documents, photos, audio recordings… how do we know if they are fake? I would also like to point out that we don’t know their sources. Blade had many enemies.” The Pomefiore executive spoke up. He said his last sentence while looking specifically at Crowley. The room was in complete chaos.

“Night Raven needs a boss. We don’t know where Blade is. The charges against him are too serious to be taken lightly. If Blade is truly a traitor-”

The Scarabia executive was interrupted by Octavinelle.

“But it’s still not certain. There’s also the possibility of a conspiracy. We must wait until Ignihyde verifies the documents. We cannot take the choice of a new boss lightly.”

As the six executive argued among themselves, Ignihyde finally raised his hand to speak and made the expected statement.

“Ignihyde…confirms the truth of the documents.” The Ignihyde executive spoke.

With Ignihyde's approval, a brief silence fell over the room...

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“…That’s it for today. Thank you for attending the meeting.”

The new masked Boss ended the meeting with a smile. All the executives began to leave the room one by one.

“Crewel, sit down. How about we have a chat?”

The new Pomefiore executive paused. He turned to the masked man. He had a strange expression on his face. It was obvious that he didn’t want to sit down, but he sat back down in his chair.

“That face…You’ve been wearing that face a lot lately, huh? When the Boss died, when I made you an executive…”

“I don’t know what you mean.”

The masked man smiled.

“Crewel, how’s the mission I gave you going? Have you found him?”

Crowley’s question caused a brief silence.

“…No. I haven’t found him yet.”

His voice was normal. However, he couldn’t look him in the face when he answered.

“I see… By the way, we’re going to adopt a child today.”

“What?”

Crewel looked at Crowley in surprise. He hadn’t expected to hear something like this all of a sudden.

“Yes. The child you’ve been seeing a lot lately. The child you’ve been secretly visiting behind my back.”

Crewel clasped his hands together under the table in fear. The events of the last six months had made him very nervous about what Crowley could do.

“Don’t get nervous like that. I’ve been visiting that kid for the last few months, and aren’t they cute, I must say? I also think they have potential. After all, they are from his blood.”

Crowley stood up and patted Crewel on the shoulder.

“We’ll be out in a few hours. Okay?”

Then he left Crewel alone in the room…

“You should have guessed as much.”

Divus raised his head. Heartslabyul’s executive Mozus Trein was standing in front of the door , looking all serious. The older executive walked over to him and sighed.

“When the previous boss made him his heir, it was clear what would happen. You should have made a choice back then. You’re lucky he left you alive, though.”

The younger executive looked at the older executive with pain. He shook his head slightly in denial.

“I…”

“When the previous boss went crazy and fell into his sickbed, Crowley gradually took control of the entire mafia. You either stood by him or died. You saw it , after the previous boss died , executives of Pomefiore and Octavinelle…Ramshackle was completely destroyed. If you want that child to live, come to your senses. Swear your loyalty to Crowley and forget about him.”

- Current timeline

Silence… It had been about an hour since you escaped from Pomefiore. The road was completely empty. There was only your breathing and the sound of the vehicle. Apart from your tense and anxious heartbeat, it could be called a very calm drive…

You turned down the crackling sound of the radio that suddenly increased slightly. The navigation suddenly changed the route a few times. At first, you didn’t think much about it since you thought you were in an area with no internet connection, but something didn’t feel right. The vehicle suddenly accelerated beyond your control. Yes, something was really wrong. While you were trying to understand what was happening, the vehicle started to slow down. When the steering wheel started to move on its own, you tried to control it, but the vehicle changed lanes. You had lost control of the vehicle.

“Ahem. Sound control one two. Y/n-shii, can you hear my voice clearly?”

Idia Shroud. Everything had settled into place now.

“It seems you do.”

You tried to regain control of the vehicle, but it was useless.

“Don’t bother. No matter what you do, you can’t regain control.”

The Ignihyde executive chuckled at your futile efforts. You couldn’t see him, but you could tell by the tone of his voice that his face was currently enchanted with pleasure.

“I must be lucky. I made a slight change in plans when I realized that the vehicle you were in when you escaped from Pomefiore was one of the newer models produced by S.T.Y.X. Normally, I would have caught you in a different way, but this is more comfortable and safe.”

You didn’t want to waste time talking. You had to think of something fast. You tried to unbuckle your seat belt, but it was stuck.

“What are you doing?”

When you finally got rid of your seat belt, you reached into the back seat and grabbed your gun. You tried to roll up the windows, but as you expected, they wouldn’t open.

“I don’t recommend that, Y/n-shii. If you break even one of the windows, I’m giving you a firm warning that my drones outside will intervene.”

You looked out the window. He was right. You were trapped in this vehicle.

“Now that you’ve given up, how about we chat a bit? We have a long way to go.”

“What are we going to chat about?”

You leaned back on the couch. You had to think of something. You couldn’t use your phone. If you did, Idia would definitely intervene.

“Don’t say that. I-“

“You were the one who prepared the false documents about me. Or rather, you were one of the ones who prepared them. What would I have to talk to you about?”

“You were the one who first tried to leave the Organization.”

“I did it because you betrayed me! To survive!”

“You’re lying even now, Y/n-shii. We would never hurt you. If we really wanted to, you would be dead by now.”

He was right. If they had, they would have finished you off long ago. You clenched your teeth in anger.

“But it’s okay, I forgive you. When I take you back to the Organization, we will decide on your punishment. Well, as the person who caught you, I will have the most influence on the decision.”

You scoffed. Now it was clear why they were working separately on purpose.

“Don’t worry, I would never wish you harm. You were truly precious to me. And you still are.”

Idia truly said these words sincerely. Not to get on your nerves. You were precious to him. You used to visit him almost every day, cook for him, play games with him, listen to even the most absurd things he told you, and scold him while taking care of him. Even though you weren’t his completely , your old life was perfect for Idia. However, you tried to leave him. He prepared those documents against you with the others in order to hold on to that life, even though he didn’t want it. Then you ran away…

Idia sighed. You two couldn’t be completely the same anymore, but you would have plenty of time to fix everything after he took you back.

“By the way, how did you escape from Octavinelle? I couldn’t find the camera footage. Azul swore that he caught you.”

Wait a minute. Didn’t they know that Sam helped you that day? You didn’t answer.

“Whatever Ack-“

Idia’s voice suddenly stopped. After a minute of silence a voice came.

“Ignihyde has withdrawn.”

The voice was familiar. Crewel Sensei!

“You will regain control now.”

The voice stopped before you could respond. You had regained control.

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The former executive left the building after destroying all evidence of his involvement. Then dialed that number.

Part 7

Part 6

Remember, you are loved, you are special, you are worth it, your presence matters and you are beautiful.

Tw : manipulation, gaslighting,mentions of SH ,depressing thoughts, attempted suicide.

They loved you ,didn't they?

No they didn't

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" Pardon me but that's one of the most lowly thing I've ever heard a human do " Raphael sighed with frowned eyebrows.

" I'm scared Raph" You looked down.

" Don't worry mc, I'm sure we'll find a way out of this." He placed his hand on you head and you'd be lying to yourself if you refused to admit that it was most relaxing feeling you've ever received. Raphael's touch emitted warmth through your whole body. It felt amazing.

Especially after being terrified by Umi , last night. You decided to tell Raphael and Barbatos, the latter getting ready to bring her to his 'secret torture room'. You didn't tell Luke, he's still young to know such cruel things.

Devildom wasn't the same for you anymore. When you had first come to devildom, their was an lively, enthusiastic aura around but now, the air only has a bitter, depressing taste. Maybe this was God's way of punishing you for involving yourself with demons. They were demons for a reason, they were sinners and involving yourself with a sinner was as bad a committing a sin.

You were exhausted. Exhausted of being used by other's for their own asset , exhausted of getting things forced upon you, exhausted of being accused of something you haven't done. Exhausted of everything.

"But.. Barbs.. "

"As much as I hate to say it, this is the only way you can make yourself heard, have revenge for the wrong doing. Trust me "

You stared at your D.D.D . You hadn't replied to barbatos yet, you didn't know what to say . Revenge? Dis you really want revenge? Or did you just wanted to let go of all the pain?

Umi had made it an habit of coming in you room and spending hours there, manipulating and gaslighting you in thinking that the others hated you and she was the only one who loved you you'd be nothing without her. It was as if her words were slowly ebbing away the little life that was left in you.

The amount of time Umi spent with you was only getting more every day and it had started bugging the brothers. They started threatening you to leave Umi alone to a point that mammon and you had gotten into a nasty argument and again, Mammon brought up your past, reopening the old wounds and carving new ones.

You had stopped self harm, all the covering up had went into vain since Luke had seen them and the boy had cried his eyes out. You had promised him not to do it every again. That was the saddest you had ever seen Luke. You of course wouldn't hurt his heart, you wouldn't do it again.... Would you?

6 months had passed since Umi first came to Devildom. It was her birthday , the brothers had been planning to make this her most unforgettable birthday ever. They had strictly warned you to stay in your room that day because " We don't want you ruining Umi's special special day with your gloominess " Leviathan sneered.

That was the last push you needed to fall into the ultimate dark abyss. Everyone was downstairs celebrating Umi's birthday while you were in your room, crying into the pillow. Crying every single wound out. You got up, still sobbing and grabbed your bag, searching something. You pulled out a bottle of anti-depressants, you had managed to grab them when you had gone to the human world with Barbatos, without his notice. You had been taking them, without telling anyone. With shaky hands you uncapped the bottle

1 , 2 , 3 .... 10 . Enough to... Enough to....

Should you really do it? Is that what you wanted? To perish away?

You started hearing voices again.

Do it mc

Should I?

They don't need to anyways

Don't you want to be free

You're useless, waste

Maybe.. Just maybe somewhere in their heart, they still had a little love for you .

But no , the way they treated you for the past months, the way they absolutely despised your presence, they didn't. They didn't.

You gulped and brought your hand nearer , yet your mouth trembled to open. You heard the faint voices of everyone singing happy birthday. They were celebrating downstairs while here you were trying to hold on to life , find a meaning to it. Huh! Pathetic .

Your mind went blank for a moment, it was as if voices inside your head were screaming again, but the only change was that this voice was different, this Voice was foreign between the terrifying screams. It was telling you to stop, telling you to live for yourself. Suddenly you snapped back into reality. You don't know why but you felt enraged and threw the pills off your hands, the fall making thud sounds. Your mind raced with thoughts.

'Why? Why should I? Why should I let go of my life for someone who doesn't care about me? Why should I shed tears for someone not worth it? They don't deserve me! I did not deserve this mistreatment! I did not deserve to be used and manipulated! They don't have the right to control my life, my behavior! I WILL NOT THROW AWAY MY LIFE FOR SOMEONE SO INSIGNIFICANT! I am own person, not someone's replica! I am not Lilith, I am Mc, the strong me.'

The malicious voices inside your head started screaming and hurting your head. But no, every has their bottom line and it was far left behind. You wouldn't let anyone control you again. You screamed while holding your head , your mind fighting those voices to leave. you dropped on your knees and panted loudly, everything in the house had went silent.

Suddenly the door knob of your room turned open and Luke with Raphael and Barbatos in tow barged in.

" Mc! " He cried, shocked to see your state.

He ran in your arms, crying. Pillows torn open, matted hair, pills on the floor, stationary lying on the floor, bed messed up, tear dried cheeks and you sweating so profoundly. A lot had happened there.

" Mc are you okay? What happened?! " Raphael was horrified.

" I am okay " You didn't cry anymore. You had won in your head, you had won your own consciousness.

Barbatos smiled to himself and sat beside you. "I suppose you're ready for it? Aren't you Mc? Come on, win yourself , the part of you that you had lost " He held out his hand and you didn't question or think, you took his hand .

The four of y'all went downstairs. Everyone was looking at you.

"Tch. Ya really know how to ruin every moment " Mammon tched at you.

It didn't hurt. You simply looked at him and smiled, sneering a remark, " No Mammon, I'm not you. "

" Whaddya say ?! "

You ignored him and walked towards Umi who was staring hearts at you, No, you would not let yourself go through tha manipulation and blaming. She didn't deserve your love.

When you spoke, their was power in your voice "Oh Umi sweetheart, I suppose everyone gave you your presents, Even I brought I present for you, I know you'll love my present the most "

" Why would Umi want present from a useless human like you " Belphie remarked .

" Well as long as I know, Umi wouldn't want a present from a lazy fucking cow, who's fucking rude to others for no reason and does nothing but laze around and who hated humans for his dead sister having a boo "

Next thing you saw, belphie was in his demon form and was ready to charge at you only to be held back by you .

"STAY" Only one word and Belphegor, the avatar of sloth was restricted of movement.

Your every word dripped venom , " Why? Do you feel enraged? Do you feel traumatized because I brought up your past? I brought up your trauma? How ironic! " You laughed.

You looked back at Umi " You'll LOOOOOVE my present ~ "

You took out your phone and smiled to yourself, well if you were to leave that place, you wanted to make sure you leave a chaos behind.

" So you see Umi , my present is actually something lovely I recorded for you "

Lucifer's patience was running thin .

" Mc you! -" He stopped as you played the recording.

All the events that had happened was spilt one by one . At the end, everyone was silent.

Diavolo was the first one to speak , " Umi, is this true? " There was severity in his voice.

" Diavolo I - "

This time he screamed " I asked, IS THIS TRUE?! "

She flinched and closed her eyes tightly, turning her head away, she said " Yes! YES! THIS IS ALL TRUE , EVERYTHING I SAID IN THIS RECORDING WAS ALL TRUE. AND NONE OF YOU DESERVE MC! NONE OF YOU "

Every one gasped and looked at Umi then back at you. You had a smug look on your face.

Diavolo spoke " Mc -"

You snapped. " Save it Diavolo , save your fake words "

" Mc, I didn't know this -"

" YOU HAVE THE AUDACITY TO SPEAK TO ME LUCIFER, AFTER EVERYTHING YOU'VE DONE! WHY DID YOU DO THAT TO ME! WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU! "

Beel was already in tears " Mc, please listen to us"

" NO BEELZEBUB, YOU DON'T GET TO MAKE ME LISTEN TO YOU, YOU AND YOUR BROTHERS ONLY VIEW ME AS AN REPLACEMENT FOR YOUR DEAD SISTER! I'M NOTHING TO YOU! I'M NOT MC TO YOU! I'M ONLY LILITH'S REPLICA TO YOU! YOU AND YOUR BROTHERS THOUGHT THAT I HAD STARTED TO LOVE Y'ALL SO NO MATTER HOW HARD Y'ALL PUSH MY EMOTIONS, I'D NEVER QUESTION Y'ALL , SO WHEN Y'ALL GOT BORED OF ME, YOU SAW THE OPPORTUNITY TO JUST THROW ME AWAY AND HAVE SOMEONE ELSE BECAUSE "MC WOULDN'T LEAVE US THEY LOVE US WE LOVE THEM " NO BITCH YOU DON'T LOVE ME! YOU LOVE THE LILITH INSIDE ME " you were in tears, panting. But those weren't tears of sadness, those were tears of anger and pain. You were letting out all the pain inside you.

" I thought you all were angels and demons who had been living for like thousands and thousands of years, but y'all are even stupider than humans. "

" Mc, I am so sorry, I never thought things were this way. Please forgive me "

" You're a disgrace Simeon, never speak of forgiveness to me again, your place isn't in the celestial realm, it's here in the devildom, you deserve to live in agony and guilt "

" Mc, give me one chance to explain. "

" Oh and if it isn't the sorcerer. Aren't you called 'king Solomon the wise'? But turns out the great king Solomon is a fucking idiot. Where is your wisdom ,your majesty ? "

You turned to Diavolo, " I hope your exchange program, the only fucking thing you care about , gets wrecked. I hate you Diavolo. I wish I had a stronger word than hate to describe my loathe for you. "

You turned to the Lucifer.

" Lucifer morningstar, your pride will be your down fall one day. Just the way you turned a disappointed to your father"

And then to Belphegor,

" Now I know why your sister is dead "

Then leviathan ,

" You know what Leviathan, everything you ever said about yourself, it's all true, it's all damn true. You're a shame in the name of demon. "

Satan was next,

" Having knowledge doesn't mean you're intelligent. I've heard about demons manipulating humans but this is my first time seeing a human manipulating demons and even the wisest demon got fooled by her. What a shame. And before you come at me, I'm not a part of someone's detest, I have my own identity, which you, will never. "

You didn't anger or yell at them, you only pulled back their trauma from the deepest part of their heart and twisted the knife so many times that it was beyond healing. Just the way they did to you .

You then stood before Mammon, " My first man, who was supposed to protect me became my biggest threat. Pathetic . "

" I beg for forgiveness mc "

"NO YOU DON'T. YOU DON'T! AFTER ALL THE GUILT, MANIPULATION, TRAUMA Y'ALL PUT ME THROUGH, YOU HAVE THE NERVE TO FUCKING BEG FOR FORGIVENESS. YOU ALL NEVER LISTENED TO ME WHEN I TRIED TO EXPLAIN, YOU ALL JUST DUMPED EVERYTHING ON ME WITHOUT ANY PROOF. YOU ALL MADE ME THINK THAT I WAS WORTHLESS, I DIDN'T DESERVE LIVING. YOU ALL MADE ME QUESTION MYSELF, MADE ME INSECURE, MADE ME HARM MYSELF, ALMOST KILLING MYSELF! WHY DO YOU EVER THINK I'LL FORGIVE YOU. I NEVER WANTED TO BE HERE , I WAS BROUGHT HERE WITHOUT MY OWN WILL AND NEVER PROPERLY ALLOWED TO LEAVE BECAUSE Y'ALL KNOW WHERE TO ATTACK, Y'ALL HELD ME BACK EMOTIONALLY, Y'ALL KNEW ABOUT MY PAST AND YOU MADE THAT AS MY WEAKNESS, AND I FELL FOR IT, I DIDN'T WANTED TO LEAVE BECAUSE I THOUGHT Y'ALL WERE LIKE A FAMILY TO ME, BUT YOU ONLY WANTED TO KEEP ME BECAUSE I REMINDED YOU OF YOUR GOD DAMMIT DEAD SISTER. Y'ALL ALMOST KILLED ME WHILE MY STAY HERE AND ONE OF YOU EVEN SUCCEEDED , BUT STILL I HELPED Y'ALL TO MEND YOUR FAMILY ONLY FOR Y'ALL TO START TREATING ME BETTER AFTER KNOWING ABOUT MY DESCENDENCE. JUST LET ME LIVE, JUST FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE. "

You stomped your feet as you felt a strong force pulling you in his embrace, it was your once beloved, the person who you trusted the most, the one you never thought would betray you, Asmodeus, crying his eyes out.

" Mc, darling. I'm so sorry, I feel so terrible, please forgive me, we can forget about this and be together again . You know I love you "

'You know I love you' you pushed him off you.

" Get off me you pest. "

" Mc.. "

" Shut up! SHUT UP! YOU , ASMODEUS! OUT OF EVERYONE. YOUR BETRAYAL HURTED ME THE MOST. YOU ONCE MADE ME FEEL SO GOOD ABOUT MYSELF , WOULD FIGHT ANYONE WHO DARED TO TALK TRASH ABOUT ME BUT LOOK THAT'S OPPOSITE OF EVERYTHING YOU DID TO ME. YOU MADE ME INSECURE ABOUT MYSELF, COMMENTING EVERY OPPORTUNITY YOU GOT ABOUT MY BODY. YOU TALKED THE MOST TRASH ABOUT ME. I LOVED YOU, I TRUSTED YOU, I THOUGHT YOU'D NEVER HURT ME BUT SEEMS LIKE YOU NEVER TRUSTED ME. I MADE YOU FEEL BEAUTIFUL, BUT YOU NEVER DID THAT FOR ME. YOU'VE BROKEN OUR TRUST, OUR LOVE AND IT CAN NEVER BE MENDED. I HATE YOU WITH EVERY OUNCE OF MY BODY. IT'S PATHETIC TO THINK THAT YOU THINK I'LL STILL LOVE YOU AFTER WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO ME. ONLY IF YOU HADN'T CHOSEN TO HURT ME, BETRAY ME,BUT YOU SHOWED ME YOUR TRUE SELF. YOU'RE UGLY FROM INSIDE OUT. " at this a few tears fell from your eyes, Asmo hurted you the worst. Heartbreak does hurt more than anything.

" Mc.. Can we talk? " It was Umi.

You turned towards her and spoke in a soft But powerful tone "you're pathetic Umi, just for you to know, I'll never love you. I'll never love some so cruel, manipulating, lifeless as you. By the way, I still need to thank you for showing me their true colors. So Umi, I kindly ask you to get the fuck out of my life. "

"Mc-"

"Diavolo, I want to go back, to the human world. "

You turned back "you were right Lucifer, I'd be better off in the human world. "

" Mc, no please we can fix this " Lucifer pleaded pushing all his pride aside.

" Luke, Raphael thank you for believing in me. Thank you for being there for me. And Barbatos, I don't know how I can thank you, if it weren't for you, I would have never gotten the courage to do so " Your tone softened and you hugged Barbatos tightly.

"Barbatos? You knew?! "

" Yes M'lord "

" And you didn't tell me the truth? "

" Why try? It's not like you would have changed your mind M'lord. "

" Now if you Diavolo, I did not stutter when I said I wanted to go back "

" It.. It shall be done mc "

" Very well, then I shall go back and pack up my stuff. And by that I mean the stuff I brought with me from the human world initially ."

You walked upstairs and looked down at everyone. They were all sobbing or were at Umi's throat. You didn't care anymore.

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" Tell me you'll miss me " Luke was already crying.

" Yes Luke I'll miss you and I'll always contact you"

" Pinky promise? "

" Pinky promise "

" Mc please don't forget me " He hugged you. Damn. You were trying so hard not to cry but seeing Luke always made you soft.

" I hope wherever you go, you're always happy mc. I'll pray for you to father " Raphael smiled.

" Thank you Raphael. Thank you so much " You smiled back.

You walked towards the open portal.

" Goodbye mc "

" Goodbye barbs, I'll miss you "

You walked into the portal, leaving all your scars behind. You were ready to start fresh .You didn't care looking behind at the crying faces .

You were glad you were leaving them.

Alone. Yet again.

It was indeed Umi's most unforgettable birthday. But at what cost?

They loved you, didn't they?

No they didn't.

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The end

A/N - All the things she said by t.a.t.u started playing when I started writing, Backstabber by Kesha came on when I was in the middle of writing, and only hurt can hurt like this all came on right as I was finishing. in that order. If that isn’t a sign I don’t know what is. (It also helped me go through the five stages while writing this).

Sorry if this is so long.

Please remember - You are loved. You are worth everything in the world. You matter. and you are and will forever be an amazing person in existence.

Without further ado, my re-writing/version of part seven of They loved you, didn't they? by lwtkmm

(go check them out they have great work)

so me overthinking again and wondering…

what if overblots were planned? 

it could be Crowley or it could be someone else, but each one could somehow have been influenced in some way.

riddle’s mother who is a healer/doctor (I believe a pediatrician at that) was strict to there point that he was probably suffering from malnourishment? this is coming from a popular healer at that? 

Farena became king and somehow didn’t know that leona was being treated horribly by others? was it somehow kept a secret from Faaren? because I want to say he wouldn’t let his brother be treated in such way. so has someone been working in the background? (and their father is sick? what if something caused  him to become sick so farena could be king?)

for azul it might be tricky….because it would have to be influencing either the divorce of his parents or the bullying too. maybe corrupted the bgoligcal father?

for jamil, maybe it was how his family eventually became in servitude to the al-asim family? of if its crowley related, the real reason why crowley made kalim the dorm leader