Sooo my homie and I always had this suicide pact and we've always known it would be by overdose but we had no idea when it would happen but we know definitely before we both turn 27. The last 2 months have been the worst for me and he knows it, but we finally figured out a date. The date means alot to me cause it's the date of our anniversary. We already have been preparing. I've seen and talked to so many of my old friends lately and been trying to make as many good memories as I can for my family lately, he is also trying to do the same. But what I want the most is to spend as much time as I can with her before I leave. I doubt I'll ever see her again tho, she avoids me and she hates me and wants nothing to do with me. She doesnt care. I know that even after I'm gone she still wont care. She will probably be happy to not deal with me anymore. I hope that's not the case tho. I hope to haunt her the way she haunts me every day and night..
