Dior

I really wish I was less awkward. Im the “least funny” one out of my trio because I’m too embarrassed to do anything around them. I always think that they’re secretly making fun of me to my face and laughing at me instead of with me, at least the rare times I do actually make them laugh.

When someone says something to me, I can never think of something to say so I just stare at them. Im not original, im not a good talker no matter how much my dad says im outgoing, im too loud. Im tired of it

When im with my friends, they make me laugh so hard at their jokes and it makes me so happy but when I try to make a joke i just sound like an obnoxious, unfunny idiot. Someone always makes a joke after mine Thats so much funnier and it makes me so insecure.

My heart goes out to all of the public memorials of deceased people on the sides of roads, tress, benches etc. At the nature conservatory in my city, there are bricks in the ground with names people that died engraved on them, plaques on benches with names, and trees with things at the base dedicated to the lost loved ones.

A few days ago, I saw a bike on the side of the road when I was out for a walk. I thought it was just some kids bike they left there, but it was a memorial for someone’s daughter thst got hit by a car and died on thst road the bike was next to. how can people just ignore that?!?!?

I also wanted to point out the gravestones with the words “I told you I was sick” engraved on it. It makes me so sad to see one when walking in gravesites

Happy Easter angels ! 🪽 im hanging out with my family rigjt now and the house is SO full with people and i just wanna play bloxburg but whatever 😒 I got so much candy and a bunch of money and im gonna buy my first coord With it!! (Jirai kei) i dont have much to say for today’s entry but yeah im feeling quite jolly

I’ve always felt so strange, if that makes sense. The only way i can describe what im feeling is if all of my close friends were in a circle, I’d be just outside the line. Now Thats not me saying “ou im so different and sad girl and I matter more” no im not saying that.

It always feels like everything my friends say is an inside joke I wasn’t there for, or like im just out of reach from truly being close to them.

It has always been hard to get along with people for me, because I bond over interests. I find myself involuntarily copying some peoples likes, which sometimes leads them to get mad at me …

Im so fucking tired of this. This whole week has been full of bullshit, I had an anxiety attack yesterday and I still feel stressed, I’m behind on school and the quarters almost over, literally nothing is going well. My cultural literacy project is due tomorrow and everyone in my group is ahead of me, I have to write two five-sentence paragraphs AND draw a geisha on a huge poster. My teacher told me everything will be fine and I won’t hold my group back, but im convinced that we’ll get a bad grade all because of me. We just got another homework sheet in math due in two days when I still haven’t done the one Thats due today, I have a 49% in math.

Im skipping class rn bro I am not going back to that classroom

We just had a math quiz in second period and in my school, Theres these things called Level up classes and today is my math level up so I would have to stay in the same room I was in for quizzing so once the bell rang i kinda just walked out of the classroom into the bathroom and I don’t even think anyone cared lowkey

Like no I am not doing MORE fucking math work I’ll probably cry over no bye