hi!! I was reading some of ur reacent requests and i loved them and i was wondering if i too could request something. Iâm ace, just means asexual wich means i dont have a sexual desire towards other people ( but i do fall in love !! ) and although there are people who do have sex, I wouldnât and i was wondering if you could write something with Lucio/Julian reacting to a non binary mc breaking down because they dont want to disappoint them??? Sorry if its weird i just love angst and my mennnnn
thanks, dear! hereâs julian for ya :)Â
when he first found out, Julian was ecstatic that you trusted him so muchÂ
and also apologizing profusely for anything heâd done that would have made you uncomfortable Â
heâd never, ever make you do anything you didnât want to
and he loved you all the same
but there were times you doubted yourself, doubted Julianâs love for you, doubted your worth
today was one of those days
youâd been watching Julian furiously scribble on a piece of parchment, heart swelling at how much you loved himÂ
but you were also thinking about how much he deserved
he was such a wonderful man, took such wonderful care you and your house and anything else he could help out with
he was always at the shop on his free time, chatting you up or helping organize vialsÂ
he deserved everything he wanted
and you felt like you couldnât give him thatÂ
you were sitting on a chair adjacent to where Julian worked, thankfully covered by the shadow his lamp created
you held your face in your hands, feeling the tears overflowing and trying your hardest to control your breathsÂ
as you exhaled, Julianâs head popped up and whipped toward you
âEverything alright?â he asked
you let out a small âmhmâ
you lifted your head and saw him squinting at you
you didnât want him to see you crying
but he was already up off of his chair and making his way toward you
you swallowed hard as he knelt in front of you
âWhatâs wrong?â he asked, tucking a short strand of hair behind your ear
ânothing,â you pipped
Julian huffed air out of his nose, âyou can tell me, love.â
his voice was so soft and warm
you couldnât help but fall forward to himÂ
as he wrapped his arms around you, a sob escaped you
âshh,â Julian cooed, âitâs okay, itâs okay.âÂ
he held you, squeezing every time your breath hitched, until you were calm enough to talk
âI justâŚâ you began, âYou deserve so, so much. Everything you could ever want, and I canât give you that.â
Julian looked at you, confusion painted across his face, âwhat are you talking about?â
âI donât want to disappoint you,â you cried.Â
âDisappoint? Love, what are you saying?âÂ
Julian held you at arms length, staring into your eyes with fierce intensity, âSince the day we met you have never once disappointed me.â
âBut-,â you started, and Julian shook his head.
âNot once,â he reaffirmed.
He brought you back close to him, running his fingers through your hair, âIf I deserve anything I want, then Iâve already gotten what I deserve.â
âWhat?â you said, voice muffled by his shirt
âLove, all I want is you. Under any condition, under any circumstance, in every life and in every reality, all I want is you.â
You pulled away and stared at him
âDonât ever think anything less. I love you always.â