You ship Yume right? What do you think about Zero/Zeki? Will they be canon in your rewrite fanfic?
oh dear, dear anon, you opened a can of worms.
Buckle up, bc this will be a RIDE.
(This got so long, I am so sorry)
So, let’s start with a ‘’trivia’’ so to say; my favourite arc, will always be the very first one up to chapter ~~ 50.
And I’ll tell you why - Both main relationship had the best potential and exploration up to this point. ( Also besides the point but the potential for the world building, the mystery, the ‘’gothic’’ aesthetic was truly at its peak in its first arc.....just. the potential it all has. [chefs kiss])
Hell, I even admit it, that during the first Arc Z/Y was VERY appealing.I liked them together, quite a lot actually. The out most yearning between them, the way Hino portrait it - It was perfect, I could very much see these two be together by the end of it in the first arc, mind you - And I pretty much like Zero! His Character is interesting even if, he is really aggressive and closed off, but with his background it makes sense.
I loved him until a certain point, and I can see why he hated all Vampires and wanted to kill them all - Not to be all psychological lol, but he coped by putting everything into his anger thus his anger issues were born and this is also why he started to hate himself - He is the one thing he wants to kill the most, he wants to die etc etc ( This all will definitely appear in the rewrite btw. I will explore this 100%)
I like that - He is a very troubled and hurt Character, I wanted to see him change and overcome that, I wanted him to accept himself - But he never did.
At some point it become clear to me that his Character is somehow on a standby mode? And some other points started to surface up which made me......
In the manga.......at some point, the two lost its spark so to speak.
Also, it is probably just me, but Yuuki has....almost no chemistry with Zero and heck even Zero has more chemistry with Kaname in the room because of the rivalry tension they had going on. OR HE HAS MORE CHEMISTRY WITH THE GODDAMN HORSE.
With Yuuki.......while rereading, something really stood up to me - And now, don’t get me wrong, you can disagree with me and I would be totally alright with that, it is your opinion and this is mine - Yuuki only started to ‘’like’’ Zero after she noticed the signals he gave off - Whenever he wanted to kiss her and almost actually did, and she noticed - Only then, did she start to think of him as someone other than a brotherly figure.
It is a typical teenager thing to get; Confusion and Curiosity when someone started to notice you in a different light, and she is a teen, so it made sense as well,,,,,,,,but like Zero’s Character to me the relationship just continued to be that; A Teenager Crush at best.
Her love for him was bleak compared to her love for Kaname, She implies since CH1 / EP 1 that she likes him and the longer you watch/ read the series, the deeper her love gets. It is really, really obvious from an unbiased standpoint that she loves Kaname more and most likely continues to fall deeper for him than Zero - But she still loves him, while writing the rewrite I will not ignore that, it is a fact that she does love both. It is just, that her love for the one outweigh the other.
I also love to compare the first time Zero bit Yuuki vs the first time Kaname almost bit her (the first time we see it)
Zero wasn’t himself, he bit her without realising it; simply put, he hurt her, and she is afraid and wants it to stop.
Now with Kaname it’s... a whole different scenario.
He asks her before he almost committed to it. And she said yes.
She was ready to give up her humanity for him, which is a big deal.
There is consent where with Z/Y there isn’t any in the future.
Why I wanted to show this is simple; This is the main difference between the couples.
And I don’t read vkm, but I saw some.......scenes with Zero and Yuuki that just reminded me of this and I thought huh.
So Hino foreshadowed this type of tone in the relationship from the get-go…
When I saw the Z/Y scene in vkm I officially just gave up on them, because this just....abuse.
And yes, I do like dark ships, I love it when there are morally grey aspects in a ship that can be explored, but this isn’t it, sis.
I want these ‘’Monstrous, Dark, Unhealthy’’ ships to be Mutual. I want them bloody and have power and not seeing one partner being underneath the other, feeling lost and gone.
When one of the parties in a relationship isn’t okay with your actions, and you do it anyway, and this in such gruesome Manner? I am sorry, but in canon, I cannot see them romantically any more after seeing the panels. I just can’t.
Now of course we need to look at other facts;
For the first bite thing; Zero apologised by the end and felt immense guilt, he never wanted to do it again, going as far as giving Yuuki a weapon against him.
He never wanted to hurt her... but Yuuki, my dear girl, did something else entirely; She makes a deal with him, that she would let him bite her so that he won’t transform into an E’. I think most people make this seem like more than it ever was,,,,,,but there really wasn’t. She just wanted to help him stay human, ig.
He is her best friend, of course she would want to help him, stay alive.eyyyy Neat. That's what I thought.
Until this particular scene.
She straight up admits she is using him because she does not want him to leave her.
She doesn’t want him to die.
I noticed how Zero kind of made Yuuki fear for his life? When he admitted he wants to die along with Hio - This is probably why she started to bind him to her in the first place, before it was only to secure his fall to an Level- E and now? She does not want to lose him and here it doesn’t matter if its romantic or Platonic; He is one of the closest friends of hers first and foremost, and she did not want to him to leave her. She did not want to be alone.
(And how that backfired when he finds out that she is a pure blood actually hurts to see.)
The Sentence; ‘’ If I become a vampire, then will my heart strengthen?’’ is her manipulating him, and she admits it; Then she knows, that way he won’t leave since Zero does not want Yuuki to become a Vampire. So he would stay with her.
‘‘ This is all for myself, otherwise I wouldn’t have told Zero something that he really did not want to hear the most’‘; She gives him blood, gives him reasons to not leave her.... it is indeed selfish...possessive even. For being human she already showcases pretty Pureblood-like traits lol.
Kaname and Yuuki are different, but they are also not pure, shoujo magic either.But the difference again is, clink clink lets rise our glasses - They have something called consent...but other toxic traits as well. They are possessive of each other and Kaname is really, really overprotective and a few things more; I am not excusing them. I just see them working things out better.
I got overboard with this, I am so sorry but! To answer your last question both will have a certain ‘‘ Canon’‘ status by the end of in vino veritas, I will not say how though since that would be a huge spoiler <3
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