hello everyone, im going into recovery for an eating disorder, will be pretty afk (as if i wasnt before) bc shits just easier if im not on that damn phone all the time! PEACE

piiiinterreeessttt...... pinterrreeessstttt.... save mee

everyone who says they dont like farting is a LIAR. farting is one of the most satisfying feelings in the world. dont tell me you've never come home after an exhausting day, sat in the couch and let out a big fart and sighed from relief. nothing better than a good big fart.

okey to everyone who saw that post: NO U DIDNT! but also to those that did: thank u for ur kindness and understanding and sweet words... i love you

the worst thing is i've wanted to ask my mom for help for so many times. every time i felt extremely ill and like i was in danger. every time my mom comes home i want to go to her and ask her to help me, tell her that im scared of myself and of being alone at home and that im not doing okay and need her help. but the words just dont come out. i know what to do to save myself but i cant. i want to get better so bad but i feel deep shame. like im not allowed to unless someone else helps me first

i wanna die because life feels so bleak lately. but then i also love life and i wanna live to see what i can create out of this mess. but also idk if even deserve it anymore (yes i do)... hmm no i dont (im not sure but i'll figure it out somewhere down the road)

hafta be honest, lately i feel so neurotic and depressed i dont have any interest in my hobbies and i cant get myself to game or watch movies or series or anime but the only thing i get some enjoyment out is looking at cute pictures on pinterest to save while listening to ichiko aoba and lamp playlists. im sorry. yes i even made a future home inspo board