forgot to update but i got offered a phd by my advisor !!!!! & also he wants me to publish 2 articles which is all kinds of nuts !!!! been riding that high ever since lol

just got a random spark of unbridled deep affection for my friends!!!! the feeling emanating from somewhere in the vicinity of my heart, about to burst!!!! gosh i’ll miss them this summer!!!! i love them!!!!

cool how i don’t necessarily miss him in that way, but i’d just like to see him & talk to him… it’s a feeling that’s both steady & sweet

le mémoire makes me sick to my stomach… i’m giving it to my thesis advisor friday morning… a little over a day’s time… sickening

mille vagues de feu! chatterton… en fait feu! chatterton tout entier… à chaque fois que j’entends arthur teboul parler j’ai juste envie de prendre mon calepin et d’accoucher de deux ou trois poèmes, de relire aragon jusqu’à que mes yeux saignent, bref de retourner à mes racines (la sainte mère poésie)

back in my fiona apple hole send thoughts & prayers

i teach my first classes of the semester tomorrow and ive got a bad case of the heebie jeebies….. genuinely wondering if the anxiety ever stops or if professors are cursed for their whole working lives