DiarytoTheEx

I never thought this could happened but it did. I lost you

I always go big for you, no matter what. But whether or not you see that, you choose to put us behind you now, sadly. But I’ll remember it, that you used to make the best of me, to make me feel the happiest for the longest in my life so far - for a year or two maybe. You let me know the real thing about actually trying for something you want so bad in life, even you are scared to death to do it...to make the best of the times we have left. I’m glad we did what we did, that was the best, maybe because we knew we ran out of time or what? But that was the best, I wish I could videotape it and play it in my memories forever

Just let me live in that fantasy one more time please

I know I shouldn't tell her anymore, but I can't help it. It became a habit. IM JUST ADDICTED TO HER. Even she's too heavy, and toxic, all at the same damn time.

When she is gone, no matter how far you imagine or daydream about you still being with her, one point at a time, reality will step in and slap you hard in the face to tell you that her new lover is still her new lover… you are just a hopeless romance, she’s not coming back or even if she’s not with the new guy, you can never be sure she will choose you at all.