I used to think love was measured by the big moments.
The grand gestures.
The expensive gifts.
The picture-perfect vacations.
Life has a funny way of proving you wrong.
The older I get, the more I believe love is measured by something much smaller.
Itโs the person who makes the world quieter just by walking into the room.
The one who reminds you to become a better human being without ever asking you to become someone else.
The one who sees every scar, every mistake, every flaw youโve tried to hideโฆ and somehow chooses to stay anyway.
Thatโs rare.
Iโve learned that your ride or die isnโt the person who agrees with everything you say.
Itโs the one who tells you when youโre wrong, celebrates when youโre right, and never lets you forget who you really are when life tries to convince you otherwise.
Theyโre home.
Not a house.
Not a city.
A person.
Money loses its shine.
Success becomes strangely empty.
The biggest accomplishments in the world donโt feel nearly as big if you donโt have that one person to turn around and share them with.
Some people spend their whole lives chasing things.
The lucky ones find someone worth chasing life with.
Maybe thatโs what Iโve been trying to say all along.
I donโt need perfection.
I donโt need a fairy tale.
I donโt need someone to save me.
I just hope that somewhere in this crazy, beautiful life, when the road gets long and the miles keep adding upโฆ
โฆyouโll still look over, smile, and decide to ride with me.
Because at the end of the day, it was never about the destination.
It was always about who was sitting beside you.
And if youโre lucky enough to find that personโฆ
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Look around the digital landscape. Plastic media like Instagram and late-night TV shows are constantly glorifying posh, polished lifestyles to give off the air of absolute perfection. They deal in single-dose servings of absolute fakeryโthe kind of curated nonsense that would make Stephen King jealous of their fictional artistic license.
But hereโs the cold, hard truth: money is nothing but a tool, and itโs a tool used by many to hide the deep truth of their flaws.
You see it every single day. Look at the public eating disorders or the chaotic celebrity meltdowns broadcasted post-nepo baby creation. Itโs blatant mental instability played out on a worldwide stage, all while the corporate machinery tries to package it and sell it back to you as something palatable.
Then, on the flip side, you have the icons who are just crazy as fuckโand they completely thrive in it. Think of the Al Pacinos, the Richard Pryors, and the Jack Nicholsons of the world. They are beautifully, unapologetically out of their minds, and the entire world runs to the theater to watch them do their thing. Instability is constantly sold as commonplace in the pursuit of one thing and one thing onlyโmore money.
This whole circus proves only two points you should take to heart: always look for the truth in everything, and remember that we are all fucked, some of us just learn to enjoy it.
So letโs talk about that beautiful madness.
Once you realize the "perfect" people are just better funded fiction writers, youโre finally free to take a deep breath and look in the mirror. Look at the quirks, the heavy edges, the strange habits, and the unique, loud frequency you vibrate on.
Here is the heartwarming reality they donโt want you to know: as long as you hurt no one else with your madness, you have absolutely nothing to apologize for.
Weโve been conditioned to think we need to fix every single piece of ourselves. But no amount of high-priced therapy will ever completely rid anyone of the little bit of madness that looms deep inside all of us. That spark isn't a defect; it's the engine. It's the only part of you that's actually real.
Being a weirdo is absolutely nothing to be ashamed of. It means you haven't been broken by the machine. It means youโve still got color in a world trying desperately to bleach everything down to a safe, corporate gray.
Embrace the static. Love the chaos. Own your unique brand of crazy, because the people who matter will love you for the exact things the plastic world tells you to hide.
Let the fake ones keep their sanitized scripts. Weโll keep the raw truth.
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A real man doesn't need a million women to prove he's real. Staying loyal to one woman because sheโs a real woman who truly loves him is all the โrealโ heโll ever need.
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How to Fake It in Society by KJ Charles is m/m historical romance about a dashing con man and a man entirely out of his depths.
Itโs 1821. Titus Pilcrow makes paints for a living. Heโs quiet, kind, and seriously overworked. Abruptly inheriting a massive fortune courtesy of a dying elderly woman who is not about to let her murderous nephew inherit is both going to make his life easier and infinitely more complicated.
Enter Nicolas-Marc, Comte de Valois de La Motte. London Society believes he is the son of an infamous French noblewoman who stole a diamond necklace. In reality, Nico is an actor in an immense amount of debt with gangsters on his tail. His plan had been to marry a certain elderly woman, but someone beat him to the punch.
Titus becomes the target of every scammer in London. How is Nico to resist? Itโs a fair exchange, really. Nico can teach him how to be a gentleman, and in the process, secure a solution to his looming woes. It is a flawless plan, just so long as neither of them falls in love.
Read an excerpt from chapter one below.
Titus Pilcrow read the note with disbelief. Then he read it a second time in the hope he had misunderstood. It still said the same thing.
โYouโre throwing me out?โ
โIโm not throwing you out,โ Mr. Henry Morris said. โI am giving you notice that I have found someone who will pay a higher rent for the shop, and it is all of a piece that you must make me the villain for it. Have I not kept the rent absurdly low for years? Am I not entitled to earn my bread as well as you?โ
โHow much more?โ Titus demanded. โThat is, can I not match it?โ The words gave him an instant qualm. His rent was not in fact low at all, and his work had never been greatly profitable. The raw materials were costly, and though people loved the quality of his products, they were less keen to pay for them.
โAn extra three shillings a week.โ
โA week?โ
โIf you have not the funds, thereโs really nothing I can do.โ
Titus wasnโt a shouter, and the thought of another argument with Henry made him feel sick, but he would have liked to shout and argue all the same. His throat was closing. โI have paid my rent in full, on time, for six years and youโre giving me a monthโs notice?โ
โYouโre supposed to pay your rent on time; itโs hardly praiseworthy,โ Henry said. โAnd if you had not treated me with such unkindness, always casting blameโโ The familiar complaints went on, buzzing like bluebottles in Titusโs ears as he tried to think.
Henry had the right to raise the rent by whatever extortionate sum he chose. He was the landlord, the property owner, and money always flowed in the direction of those who already had it, like streams flowing down to a lake. For whosoever hath, to him shall be given, and he shall have more abundance, Titusโs father had often repeated to his four younger sons, but whosoever hath not, from him shall be taken away even that he hath.
His shop was being taken away. This was calamitous.
The premises in Red Lion Street, a quite respectable address a little way off bustling Holborn, were small, the bullโs-eye windows rather obstructive of light, but it did for Titusโs needs. He ran Pilcrowโs Improved Colours, making up his cakes of watercolour paint and his oils, slept in the cramped back room amid sacks and boxes and a clutter of canvases, and tried not to be irritated by the jeweller with his family of nine who lived upstairs. He spent more of his time wrist-deep in noxious substances than he might have liked, but he found the work satisfying, and took pride in his reputation for supplying reliable, well-made colours. He spent untold hours in conversation with artists about shade and permanency, what pigments could not be used together, the minutiae of hard work and technical knowledge that underlaid inspiration and vision. Heโd built Pilcrowโs into something to be proud of.
And now his shop, his home, his income, his whole little world would be snatched from him, because heโd been fool enough to sleep with his landlord.
Henry Morris had taken over the management of the property from his father three years ago. He was a charming man, witty, lively, a sparkling talkerโnot, perhaps, a very good listener, but Titus was used to letting people do all the talking. That suited Henry well, and his attentions had become marked. Theyโd had a few drinks, Henry had taken him to bed, and it had all been thrillingly far from Titusโs quiet routine.
It took a couple of months for the cracks to show.
The problem was that Henry wanted passion in his life, and any sort of passion would do. Sometimes he would fuck wildly, or make extravagant declarations of feeling, but on other days, which became more and more frequent, he was only happy making them both miserable. He would snipe and complain, then throw around accusations, insults, and verbal cruelties that escalated until Titus was finally provoked into protest, and then the onslaught would really begin. There would be tears, screaming, throwing things, breaking things. Afterwards he would weep, and say that his feelings and Titusโs lack of sensibility drove him to these extremes, and then heโd mope in a sad, distraught manner until Titus gave him the reassurance and apologies he needed. And it would be all love and flowers until Henry felt the urge to do it again.
Titus had spent an increasingly unhappy year buffeted by Henryโs alts and rages, bewildered, guilty, and unhappy, desperately trying to extricate himself from the affair without making things worse. He had finally said a firm No more a few months ago. Henry had not taken the rejection well, even by his standards. And here they were. Titus should probably have seen it coming.
In truth, heโd give a lot to get away from Henry, but this would cost him everything. He would have to pack up his pots and powders and poisons, find affordable premises in this horribly crowded city, advertise everywhere in the hope some of his customers would follow him. It would mean starting all over again. The prospect was appalling.
โHenry,โ he said, trying to sound calm and reasonable. โPlease. Can we not find a compromise? I have been a good tenant for a long time. I can pay moreโโ
โFive shillings a week more?โ
โYou said three!โ
โThatโs the other offer. You need to improve on it. We all have to work, you know. You canโt expect to live on my goodwill after you treated me so callously.โ
โIโโ
Henryโs mouth curved in the smile Titus knew well, eyes glittering with gleeful anticipation, and Titus realised abruptly that he couldnโt do this one more time, not even at the price of his shop. He simply couldnโt bear it.
โAll right,โ he said. โA monthโs notice it is.โ
Henryโs mouth dropped open, shocked at the lack of resistance. โWhatโis that all? You canโt even scrape together a few shillings? Or do me the courtesy of a proper farewell?โ
โOh, yes, of course,โ Titus said. โGoodbye.โ
Henry reacted as poorly as might have been expected. Titus ignored the tempest; the scale of the disaster was such that he simply didnโt have it in him to care for Henryโs reproaches.
He just stared through Henry as he raged, and felt a twinge of unkind satisfaction in watching him storm out, frustrated.
It didnโt last. He had a single month to find new premises, and no idea what he was going to do.
He had come no nearer to a solution two days later when he went to call on Miss Whitecross.
She was one of his most lucrative clients: an elderly lady of immense wealth, and an amateur painter of limited talent who used supplies with wild abandon. As an artisan who put a lot of hard work into the colours she splashed about so wastefully, Titus found that somewhat grating. As a shopkeeper, he could only applaud.
Her latest order was for brown pink, vermilion, ultramarine, orpiment, and violet lake. It was a large and costly set of paints, and she would probably interrogate him on whether he had adulterated the vermilion with cheap red lead. Miss Whitecross was a suspicious woman who liked to feel that she was up to every rig and row. Titus had realised early on that her frequent accusations of dishonesty sprang rather from her own fears than any real doubt of him, and he had learned not to take offence. He feared he might struggle to find the necessary patience today, but he needed the money.
Her house was in Carey Street, not far from Titusโs shop. It was a wide and airy street that skirted the Inns of Court, a very pleasant address but decidedly not one for a fashionable lady. Miss Whitecross made no claim to that. Her father had made his money in manufacturing and she wore her lineage with pride rather than trying to disavow the taint of industry. She dressed and lived well, but she had never aspired to move westwards, where the height of the Ton was based, and her house was spacious without grandeur.
Titus pulled the bell. The door was answered by a worried-looking butler.
โHello, Mr. Thorpe. Is all well?โ
โMr. Pilcrow?โ the butler said blankly. โWhat is it?โ
โIโve an order for Miss Whitecross. Is something wrong?โ
โSheโs not well. You canโt see her.โ
Oh, no no no. It was a four-guinea order because of the expensive materials. He couldnโt lose four guineas now. โIโm sorry to hear it, butโwell, it is a very big order. Would tomorrowโโ
โNo,โ Mr. Thorpe said, the word heavy. โShe . . . she had a fall yesterday. She went right down the stairs, and her hip is broken. It doesnโt look good.โ
โOh, heavens. Iโm so sorry.โ Titus was, truly, for a woman he liked despite her obstreperous ways; selfishly, the loss of a good customer was one more blow in a week that was already quite bad enough. He glanced down at his expensive parcel with regret. The paints would last a little while in their bladders; perhaps he could find a buyer while also finding a new shop. His heart sank at the thought, but it couldnโt be helped. โI wonโt disturb you further. Please pass her my very best wishes, and I will pray for her recovery.โ
โThank you, Mr. Pilcrow. Thatโs very genโโ The butler stopped dead, mouth open.
โMr. Thorpe?โ
โYes. Yes. Would you have a moment to come in? Just for a short while. I, uh, may be able to get you the money.โ
โOh, donโt trouble her with that now,โ Titus said, heart overriding brain. โReally, her health is far more important.โ
โPlease, Mr. Pilcrow,โ Mr. Thorpe said, sounding positively urgent. โHalf an hour of your time, thatโs all. The mistress would want it.โ
Titus followed him inside. It felt horribly intrusive, as though he were dunning a woman on her deathbed, but Mr. Thorpe had been with Miss Whitecross forever. If he thought it would make her feel better to pay a bill, he was doubtless right.
Mr. Thorpe showed him into the parlour and disappeared. He remained absent for so long that Titus began to feel quite uncomfortable. He didnโt have anything to read or a pencil with which to scribble, so he sat, bored and uncertain, on a spindly chair too small for the well-sized room, surrounded by little tables bearing china vases and statuettes and dishes, and some truly dreadful watercolours on the walls, which he recognised as being perpetrated by his hostess.
The room had a good high ceiling, large windows. If it were his house, Titus would hang oils in here. Then he thought about Miss Whitecrossโs oil paintings and felt relieved she hadnโt.
Well, it was her home so her taste ruled. And Titus could only respect a level of self-esteem that allowed its possessor to decide My work is worth displaying in the teeth of the evidence. He hadnโt pinned a scribble of his to the wall since he was a child, making sketches and showing them to his brothers. That had been โdrawing attention to himself โ or โgiving himself airs,โ cardinal sins for the younger Pilcrows and strongly discouraged.
There were footsteps and muffled voices in the hall, but nobody came in. Titus wondered if heโd been forgotten. He wondered why Mr. Thorpe had felt it necessary to bring him in. He wondered about his shop.
Out by the end of the month. He wouldnโt find new premises without closing up his current place and dedicating himself to the search, but that would cost him business he couldnโt afford to lose. Maybe a fellow colourman might lend him an apprentice? But that would take time to arrange, and it would all need to be done so quickly, and he hated to be rushed. It flustered him, and he always seemed to do the wrong thing when he was flustered.
He had no choice. If he didnโt find somewhere, he would soon have neither shop nor home.
What would he do if he couldnโt find new premises in time? Where would he put his tools and supplies? He had friends who would give him a space to sleep, but he couldnโt bring his many boxes of poisons and powders into peopleโs houses. He might have to sell off some of his stock or tools, but if he did that, clawing his way back would be even harder. Heโd seen all too often the frightening speed with which people could fall from comfort to destitution; one bad accident or stroke of misfortune could send you sliding inexorably downwards. The void was yawning beneath his feet.
He was wondering whether he could appeal to his brother for help, and if there was any chance the appeal would be heard, when the door opened and Mr. Thorpe came in.
The butler was wearing an extraordinary expression, something almost like excitement. โPlease come upstairs, Mr. Pilcrow. She wants to see you.โ
โAre you sure?โ
โPlease. This way.โ
Titus gave a mental shrug and followed him. Perhaps Miss Whitecross wasnโt so badly hurt after all. That would be good. The hope dwindled as he was admitted into her bedroom, where she lay with a lawyerly sort of gentleman sitting by her. The old ladyโs face was cut and bruised in a way that looked obscenely wrong on elderly features, and her skin was otherwise an unpleasantly pale grey-yellow shade, almost isabelline.
โMiss Whitecross,โ Titus said. โIโm so sorry. How are you?โ
โBad,โ she said, voice thin. โDying. Murdered.โ
โWhat?โ
โLaxton tripped me,โ she whispered. โMy nephew. At the top of the stairs. His foot between my legs. I fell.โ Titusโs mouth dropped open. He looked round at the lawyerly man, who grimaced. Miss Whitecross caught that and glared at them both. โIโm not a fool. He tripped me, I tell you, and I fell and broke, rot these birdโs bones of mine. Heโll go unpunished for my murder, and be a rich man for my death. Damn him. Damn you all.โ
Titus cast a desperate glance at the butler and the lawyer, but neither was looking at him. โAnd God rot the Laxtons, all of them,โ Miss Whitecross went on, voice shaky but intent. โHis father made my sisterโs life a misery, and his son is like him as peas in a pod. I had such a scheme to spite himโit would have been a grand jest, but he got wind of it, and he killed me.โ She paused there, gasping for breath, and finally got out, โAnd you fools are doing nothing!โ
โWe have brought Mr. Pilcrow, maโam,โ the butler said gently.
โErโโ Titus said.
โYes.โ Miss Whitecrossโs thin fingers were clutching spasmodically at her sheets. โPilcrow. Youโll scotch the snake for me. Youโre a gentleman born, ainโt you?โ
โYes? My father was rector of a parish in Gloucestershire, butโโ
โAnd youโd like to be rich.โ
โI beg your pardon?โ
She glanced up at the lawyerly man. โTell him, Carnaby.โ
He bowed in his seat. โMadam. Mr. Pilcrow, I am George Carnaby, Miss Whitecrossโs attorney. What she proposesโI must say, this is irregularโโ
โGet on, fool,โ the old woman croaked. โI might die while you talk.โ
Mr. Carnaby sighed. โMiss Whitecross proposes that you marry her. Now.โ
โ. . . what?โ
โYou will marry her, and become heir to the Whitecross fortune, without encumbrances or restrictions.โ
โBut,โ Titus said. โButโthe circumstancesโโ
โIrregular, but I am happy to swear that Miss Whitecross is of sound mind.โ
โAs am I,โ Mr. Thorpe said strongly.
โHer reasoning for this action, is of courseโโ
โHate,โ Miss Whitecross said. โMy money will pass to the Laxton toad if Iโm not married. He can go to the devil and say I sent him. What about it, Pilcrow?โ
โButโwhatโโ
โDonโt gibber,โ she said with a feeble shadow of her usual acerbity. โWonโt ask you to bless the marital bed. Not with my bones. Snap like twigs.โ
Mr. Carnabyโs expression was indescribable. Titus groped for a response. โDonโt you need a licence?โ
โGot one already. I was going to make myself a lady, but the foolโs gone away, so fill in your name. Itโs your lucky day.โ
Titus had no idea what she meant by that, but he was more concerned by โluckyโ in this context. โMiss Whitecross, please,โ he said. โYouโve time yet. Youโre well cared for. Please donโt give up.โ
Her eyes met his properly then, faded and full of pain. โIโm dying, and we all know it. Help me, Pilcrow. Laxton broke my sisterโs heart and his son has broken my bones. Let me spite him and Iโll rest easier.โ
Titus contemplated the proposal. To marry a woman close to fifty years his senior on her deathbed, for no better reason than money on his side and malice on hersโit was contemptible. Heโd be a laughing stock.
You ever just sit there in the peace and calm of finding that one tranquil moment, and notice the massive difference between that moment and the chaos found in the past?
More than likely, you can break it down to one common denominator: People who either didnโt value you or took you for granted.
You know the ones. They didnโt love you in return. Stole from you. Lied to you. Did you wrong in some immeasurably horrid and secret way that challenges Godโs directive of forgiveness down to the last millisecondโbecause forgiving long-term abuse borders on seeming like a continued cycle of abuse.
I get it. Iโve been there every day and twice on Mondays.
But hereโs the thing. Do you know why youโre tranquil in this moment? Do you know why characters like Jesus and Gandhi were able to walk in calm and seemingly forgive? Itโs not because they were perfect or had some magic formula. Itโs because they let go. They let go of the shackles of being a victim and simply moved on to tasks they could control.
Itโs not necessarily forgiveness, or more importantly, forgetfulnessโit is simply deprioritizing the unimportant people and things in your life for what really matters. For who really does care for you. For the direction you should positively be walking in, instead of wallowing in the shallow depths of victimhood.
Itโs not selfish to walk away from toxicity. Itโs actually a survival skill. And in my own personal belief, it is actually Godโs true path.
The better question is, why would you keep engaging with people who literally devalue you to the point it destroys your inner peace? Great question.
So, for the people who fucked me over, lied to me, weaponized my kindness, talked shit in empty rooms, told me lifeโs a bitch when my wife was dying, or thought their own personal gain was more important than family, God, or country... just know that Iโm sitting in this tranquility every day.
You simply donโt matter anymore.
And the only reason you're even reading this article is to let you know: if your phone isnโt ringing, itโs me. ๐ฏ
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Look around. The digital landscape is completely choked with manufactured frauds wearing costumes they didnโt earn. They buy the lifestyle props, curate the lighting, and feed the plastic, sanitized algorithms of the modern internet to sell a version of manhood that has never actually bled.
Letโs take a rusty scalpel to the curated nonsense real quick.
You canโt buy grit, and you canโt download a soul. There is a grand canyon of difference between an internet influencer posing for a camera and the heavy, unfiltered reality of a man who actually lives the code. Six-foot-three of pure, uncompromising iron. Leather vest, ink earned the hard way, and an archetype hat that isnโt a prop. That isnโt a brand identity; itโs a lifestyle carved out of survival.
Being an outlaw means a lifelong history of fighting corrupt systems. It means stepping into the line of fire, taking the hits for standing up for the oppressed, and flat-out refusing to bend the knee to the gatekeepers. If you want the ultimate blueprint for that radical, disruptive energy, look at Jesus. The man was the ultimate historical outlaw. He didn't play nice with the establishment. He walked into the temple, flipped the tables on the hypocrites, and defended the forgotten, regardless of the cost. He died for the code.
Which brings us right into the high-stakes present.
Social media is terrified of independent blood. Right now, they are trying to kill my vibe and suppress the independent line, turning the upcoming drop of Ride With Me into a literal midnight run against the corporate filters. They want it safe. They want it quiet. Look at last weekโthey flat-out deleted my 170,000 subscriber YouTube channel just to try and mute the signal. Suppression is their only play when they canโt control the message. Fuck โem.
This music isn't just a collection of audio files to track for streams. Itโs the official soundtrack to a dangerous, ongoing fight for truth. We are running the blockade at midnight, and we aren't asking for permission.
I write this shit about my life, good, bad, or ugly. If it pisses them offโgood. If it gets bannedโgood. If they keep on proving my pointโgood. I ainโt here for them. Iโm here for you and GOD. If you can feel that and Iโm serving purpose, Iโll just keep on knowing one thing:
Once an Outlawโalways an Outlaw, and babyโฆ thatโs me. ๐ค
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Itโs something people realize they lost after youโre gone.
The goal was never to become someone everyone admired.
It was to become someone whose absence leaves a hole.
When I was younger, I wanted people to understand me.
Now I donโt really care.
Time taught me that the people worth keeping donโt need convincing, and the people who constantly question your value usually never intended to see it in the first place.
Iโve stopped trying to win people over.
Iโve stopped explaining myself.
Iโve stopped chasing approval from people who wouldnโt sacrifice five minutes of their life for me anyway.
Instead, I try to become the kind of man who keeps his word.
Who shows up.
Who protects his peace.
Who loves hard.
Who walks away when respect no longer lives in the room.
Because hereโs the funny thing about life.
The people who take you for granted almost never realize your value while youโre standing beside them.
They realize it when youโre gone.
So donโt waste your life demanding respect.
Build a character so solid, a loyalty so rare, and a presence so genuine that losing you becomes one of the most expensive mistakes theyโll ever make.