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did you sit happy and warm and content

in knowing that my exit was final

that I'd left forever

did you really think I could?

I could never

so I will linger

in the tea you always made too weak

and I made too strong

I will haunt the halls of this house

echoing songs I used to sing

and knowing full well

you will hum along

you will find me trapped

in the gifts I gave

and the photos you took

I am everywhere you look

a version of me

will hide beneath the bed sheets

and borrowed hoodies

that are now empty and not shared

she will appear when you least expect

just to remind you how much you cared

this version of me will be trapped

from when I left you high and dry

a ghost of me was born

I would rather rip myself raw,

erase what you saw

I want you to see how filthy I can be

keep your shiny dust until I choke,

let pretty dissolve like smoke

say something better because

I can shut you up

don't get on your knees yet

I'll make you forget quite soon,

time to spill better metaphors

this body is not yours

sure,

you can stare my guest

I'll make you regret,

here is my tongue

It feels wrong

you thought it was sweet

my salt will burn your teeth

tell me I look nice

be precise,

that's a dare

say the first thing that comes into your head

don't be scared

It's only fire

call me pretty

I wish I'd never met you

I dream about how much

easier it would be

without this infatuation

eating away at me

sometimes

I wish I could forget you

slice out the piece of my story

that says your name

skip that round

skip towards the end of the game

sometimes

because of you

I wish away time

because I would sacrifice the

short shot I have down here

to know that you were never mine

sometimes

I do cut you out

forcibly forget you

because if I don't remember it