Lost in my delusions lol

I’ve always been an observer. I like to understand people before I let them understand me

why cant someone confess to wanting to beat me up? why cant someone confess to stalking me and reading every word on my fucking blog? why can't someone want to kidnap me and own me??? why why why why why whyyy!!!.

Mental health matters until you want to get kidnapped by someone infatuated with you, mental health matters until you like it when youre at their mercy to have your bones broken for trying to escape. Its not like i'd try to escape anyways, I dont want to go home and Im perfectly fine with being your hostage until my body goes limp when im 89. Ill love you back and we would be happy together, as long as you dont leave me or throw me out when you've stopped loving me, which should be never.

born to beg him to never leave me alone and stay with me 24/7, forced to let him tend to his own responsibilities

a socially isolated pervert is speaking. Listen carefully

Not only did mama raise a quitter, but she also raised a procrastinator, people-pleaser, doormat, coward, and liar, and you can’t put a price on that

I'm just choosing to be unhappy atp and it's so tiring