❤ Desktop Sissy's Hideaway ❤

So when I moved apartments, I ended up throwing all of my sex toys out. This was, as you might imagine, a Big Mistake. I get anxiety and it went into overdrive when I thought about trying to explain what the hell was inside the black-and-silver box with the double combination lock to the people helping us move. I’m a total freak at home, but around other people...eh, not so much. In truth I had nothing to worry about; I ended up keeping the container itself and nobody asked me anything about it or any other box. I guess either it wasn’t as conspicuous as I thought or my friends are just a lot more accepting than I thought. Either way, I’m back to square one, as it were.

Now when I first started buying sex toys, it became a fetish almost in and of itself; my first training plug I had for almost a month before I got up the courage to actually use it in the way it was intended, although I’d often masturbate while holding it before that point. I admit that I made some disappointing purchases based off of what turned me on by sight instead of actually thinking about what would be good and/or useful. When I snuck off to the garbage bin in the middle of the night, I wasn’t really attached to almost anything I was throwing away.

However, if there’s just one of the half-dozen toys I could bring back from the trash, it would be this one: the Doc Johnson Raging Hard-Ons buttplug. It was one of the first toys that I bought and it completely changed my world. Not exaggerating. I’d been turned on by the idea of anal penetration for some time since, back in high school, I discovered my roommate’s massive collection of backdoor-only porn AND 4chan’s /d/ board around the same time. However, experimentation in that field had been mostly unsuccessful; I found myself turned on more by the idea of getting my rear stuffed than any sensations I had actually experienced. Sharpies and the like just felt icky, using fingers was too much of a hassle, and when I finally bought toys, the pain far outweighed the not-inconsiderable psychological effect. I also started too large, but still. The bottom (LOL) line was that I’d reached a point where I figured the dream was better than the reality.

The Raging Hard-On (hereafter referred to as the RHO) was the last toy from my initial batch of purchases that I tried and I felt the difference immediately; the material was soft, even a little squishy, and flexible, but the ridges on the sides were exaggerated enough that they could conform pleasantly while still being distinctly felt. It was the smallest toy I had (which helped a lot) but it also had a very distinct curve that, I realized later, more or less pressed directly into my prostate, or at least close enough; after only an hour or leaving it in, my underwear was so soaked with pre-cum that it looked like I’d jacked off. It didn’t just find my button, it HAMMERED it. Where every other toy had failed, this unsuspecting little plug unlocked the door and flung it wide open. It was almost too good; one extremely freaky day, I decided to wear it while out grocery shopping and I was so turned-on that could barely concentrate on what I was doing. I only wore it around the house (well, apartment) from that point, but even then...one time I was cleaning up the kitchen when I shifted my hips to the side and the wave hit me so hard that I literally just fell to the floor shaking. I couldn’t really move or walk for the next ten minutes, I just had to lie there holding myself. It was amazing.

GIRLYCORE vol. 3 - party girl Dirty Little Pop Song - Aqua Painted Whore - Millionaires Super Bass - Nicki Minaj Fuck U Betta - Neon Hitch Stiletto Sex - Myah Marie Dip It Low - Christina Milian 212 - Azealia Banks Who’s Your Daddy? - Benny Benassi

Can’t get enough sissy hypno action? There’s a solution that even the most cock-drunk girl (or her master) can do. First, you’ll need a few things:

- A suitable hypnosis video (or more) - A video player - Peek Through - Always On Top

For a video player, I recommend VLC media player because it has the ability to create playlists and repeat indefinitely; if you want to be exposed to different videos or just a select few, VLC can keep them coming throughout the day without having to manually switch to the next one.

If you’re looking for videos, r/sissyhypno has a ton of content links; use Jdownloader to download the videos onto your computer.

After you’ve installed Peek Through and have Always On Top unzipped, it’s time to get to the fun stuff.

First, open up your video/playlist of choice. Set it to play but don’t go full-screen yet.

Next, open up Peek Through and adjust the transparency to your liking; if it’s too see-through, you won’t even notice it, but if it’s not see-through enough then you won’t be able to see anything else on the screen; I personally recommend the second-highest setting. Also, make sure to check the ‘Allow click through of transparent windows’ option in the Options tab.

Alright, you’ve got a good transparency going, but you’re still able to click through it and bring other windows on top of it. Open up Always On Top, then click back to the video player, set it to full-screen (and playing), press Ctrl+Space (to lock it as the top layer), then WinKey+A (to set it to transparent).

Congratulations, you now have a subliminal video overlay on your computer screen, reminding you to...well, whatever it is you want to be reminded of all day!

Be warned that there is no ‘panic button’ for this setup - you’ll have to go back through the programs individually to disable the overlay manually, so if you think someone might walk in on you or will want to borrow your computer while you’re not around, take care! Also, make sure to adjust the volume of the video (if you want it at all) before you start, since it’s a hassle and a half to deal with once the whole setup is going.

You can watch hypno while you watch hypno!

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GIRLYCORE vol. 2 - bad girl Bang Bang - Jessie J feat. Ariana Grande and Nicki Minaj Buttons - The Pussycat Dolls feat. Snoop Dogg Gold Trans-Am - Ke$ha I'm A Slave 4 U - Britney Spears It's Your Duty - Lene Nystrom California Gurls - Katy Perry feat. Snoop Dogg Blurred Lines - Robin Thicke feat. T.I and Pharrel Talk Dirty To Me - Megan & Liz

GIRLYCORE vol. 1 - Good Girl Cherry Lips (Go Baby Go) - Garbage Slow Down - Selena Gomez Boys Boys Boys - Lady Gaga Girlfriend/What The Hell - Avril Lavigne Fergalicious - Fergie Candyman - Christina Aguilera Primadonna Girl - Marina and the Diamonds Domino - Jessie J Can't Get You Out Of My Head - Kylie Minogue

One of the worst (and painfully best) parts of visiting relatives over Christmas is that I have almost no time to myself whatsoever. If I'm not with one family, I'm with another, and if I'm not with either of them, I'm with my brother. Early mornings and late nights mean that I have to shower quick so we can get to the next 'event,' so it's not like I can even play with myself for longer than a couple of seconds. For the first week, I was so caught up in meeting people and the awkwardness that comes from still being a recently split-up family that I literally had no time to be horny.

The second week, not so much.

It started out fine, but it's gotten progressively worse; just the other night, a cute waitress touched me on the shoulder and I almost got hard instantly. It's been a long time since I've had sex with another person, but I've learned to cope with that. But no stimulation at all is really starting to grate on me; I'm finding myself drifting out of conversations because I'm thinking about sexy stuff, and my erections are getting more frequent and less voluntary. I'm even finding myself literally feeling warmer every day. Guh. Luckily a couple of times in the last two or three days I've ended up along for an hour or two, so I've been able to play a little bit, but with no laundry machine readily available (without arousing suspicion - heh, arousing) it's not like I can just pop one out since (while I still masturbate the traditional 'grab your cock and dosey-doe' way) I've taken to rubbing myself through my pants and/or underwear in order to get a more feminine feeling. Big ol' dark cum stains are pretty obvious - and pretty smelly too, honestly. There's a conversation I'd rather not have with anyone. I seriously can't wait for this trip to be over so I can go back North and wank in peace.

But on the other hand...

My birthday is in January, and I've already got some things in my Amazon cart to buy - things of a decidedly naughty nature. In 2013, I threw out all of my toys; I had a couple of bad toying experiences in a row, I was constantly worried that my sibling would find them, and I was really uncomfortable with who I was as a person. Time has convinced me to maybe give it another try and to not be so judgmental and pessimistic about myself; I don't know of I'm a 'cock-sucking sissy cumslut' or anything hyperbolic like that, but I know I get turned on at the thought of putting things in my butt and I know I get turned on at the thought of putting penises in my mouth (like how I just got turned on by typing those two things out), so I think I just need to take it slow and see what happens. I'm looking at buying a rectal dilator kit and a realistic, suction-cup equipped dildo, and (aside from an enema bulb and some lube) that's it. When I 'purged,' most of the toys I threw away I had only used once and never again, so we'll see how I do with one toy and a training set.

First off, this song is just wicked catchy; when it first came out I literally had it on repeat for an hour or so - or at least until my roomie got home. Also, that's not easy when all I had was a webpage with an mp3 player instead of a rippable youtube video - running back to your laptop every 4 minutes or so is more exercise than you'd think. Second thing: those lyrics: "She might've let you hold her hand in school/but I'm-a show you how to graduate/No, I don't need to hear you talk the talk/just come and show me what your momma gave!" I mean, unf. This is going straight to track 1 on my "girly" playlist. Third thing: Jessie J's dress at the end, specifically that cut. Did you see it?

Do you see it? Here's another picture:

How about now?

Anybody wearing that dress, someone else could just come up behind them, lift the flap, and HNNNNNG. I'm getting seriously turned on just thinking about it. I mean damn. The dress she wore for the VMAs was only slightly more modest because of, you know, sleeves.

Me: I should probably make some more wallpapers I guess.

Mother Visiting From Out-Of-State: Hey, mind if I just sit right next to you on the couch for the foreseeable future?

Since I've re-made this blog, there's going to be a few changes, but most things are going to stay the same.

WHAT YOU WILL FIND ON THIS BLOG

High-Res Wallpapers: A big part of feminization, especially at the beginning of the process, is staying focused. I find all of the "reblog if ______" business to be pretty bloody tedious since all it does is encourage endless Tumblr-scrolling instead of actually doing things. Wallpapers, on the other hand, can be used for computers and cell phones - things a girl can interact with on a casual basis. These wallpapers are big and have easy to remember phrases; don't expect an entire caption-style paragraph. Unless, you know, I feel like it.

My Thoughts On Stuff, Girly Or Not: Since I'm condensing all of my previous blogs into just one, it's going to be more than endless wallpaper downloads (although that will be a big part of it). Personal experiences as I explore this fetish, thoughts on the world and so on; it's all going to be here. Even the most cock-hungry sissy has more dimensions than just her sexual preferences, and I'm no different.

Stuff I Find Sexy: While I want to avoid endlessly reblogging other peoples' stuff, I WILL actually start reblogging things this time around. Heads up: it's going to be varied and not just crossdressing/feminization stuff. Oh dear.

Stuff I Create: I like to doodle and write, and it'll probably make its way on here. Don't expect a whole lot.

WHAT YOU WILL NOT FIND ON THIS BLOG

Godawful Sissy Captions: Most feminization/CD/sissy caption stuff out there is just terrible. The form itself isn't terrible interesting (you could achieve the same effect by just writing the text under the picture in the post) and most of it just looks like someone got busy with MS Paint, which is the least sexy program in the history of electronics. Just no.

Wallpapers With Themes That Make Me Uncomfortable: While I do plan to take requests for making wallpapers, there's a few things I'll probably balk at and CERTAINLY won't do on my own. Cheating/cuckolding/humiliation is right out since I've been in enough awful relationships to not ever be turned on by that sort of thing; likewise any racially-charged stuff is going to be non-existent as well. Guys of all shades have big dicks and guys of all shades enjoy putting on dresses and makeup and fucking/sucking those aforementioned dicks, so there's no reason to elevate one race over the other. Chastity I don't have much experience with, but the idea doesn't really appeal to me all that much right now, so don't expect any. While I don't feel like I should have to, I'll go ahead and throw this out there as well: more extreme fetishes like scat, vore, watersports, and anything of that ilk are just not going to make an appearance, even as a request. Not no way, not no how.

Pictures Of Me: Oh HELL no. While I'm trying to get in shape, I'm just not even close to comfortable with the idea of complete strangers on the internet looking at me, let alone any unpleasant real life implications.

Well.

The bad news is my blog got deleted. So that sucks. My favorites are gone, my re-blogs are gone, everything. Sadface.

The good news is that my Imgur account did NOT, so the original 100 wallpapers I created still exist; don't worry, I'll be putting up links to the album shortly.

All of that being said, this new blog isn't just going to be about wallpapers (although that will be a big part of it). Personal thoughts, music reviews, it's all going to go here. I'll also start actually re-blogging things, so there's that too.