I Just Need Some Love

I want your heart in the way Mary Shelley had her husband's. Kept inside a little box, in my desk.

Tell me what you ate. How much water you drank. What you did. If you spent more time standing up than sitting down. Tell me the tabs on your phones. I want to know what youre wearing. I want to know what photos are on your camera roll. I want to know what youve done, in all the specifics, even if to you its “nothing.”

𝐖𝐡𝐨 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟..? 𝐇𝐨𝐰 𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐳𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞. 𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤 𝐨𝐟 𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐨 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐲? 𝐈 𝐬𝐮𝐩𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐈’𝐥𝐥 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐝𝐞𝐞𝐩 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐫𝐮𝐧𝐬..

"i should have seen it coming."

"given your history, i should have known better."

"please tell me that at least a part of it was real."

"[friend's name] tried to warn me about you, but i didn't listen, you know."

"i was ready to give you my heart."

"you should have killed me earlier, so i wouldn't live to see this."

"get away from me."

"kill me right now then, i dare you."

"i should have left you bleeding to your death."

"do you have any regrets doing this to me?"

"i hope you will remember this until your death."

"i loved you in this lifetime. i won't make that mistake in the next."

"no one could have saved you."

"somehow, i expected that this would happen eventually."

"do we really have to end it all?"

"the worst of it all, it's that if you ask now, i will forgive you."

"are you expecting me to beg for my life now?"

"you made a promise."

"we could have had a thousand of tomorrows together."

"i lost, didn't i?"

"i deserve this. you deserve to kill me"

"technically you won't kill me, because i gave it to you. do it properly, then."

"make it quick, please."

"please tell me why."

"was i not enough for you?"

"please forgive me for pushing you this far"