vaginismus and vulvodynia

no because why do we have to do so much to just exist are we in hell this is not fun at all

to anyone that has any sort of pelvic floor dysfunction and feels burnt out and tired of trying treatments and what not, if you want to pause and take a break from all of that im here to tell you yes do it! i’ve been on a break for a couple of months now and im not ashamed to say it. i felt guilty at first because i felt like i was losing precious time but i then realized i wasn’t, i was just taking care of myself. do it for your mental health and don’t worry this isn’t a race its a whole process and journey that may take a long time so whenever you feel like you need to take a break do it no matter how long that break is, take your time you will be okay and trust that things will happen when they need to

having vulvodynia and vaginismus is crazy like it’s really just pussy out of order 24/7

self deprecation is bad but will i continue doing it? absolutely! however i am making an effort to do it less and less and i encourage you all to do the same. you won’t stop immediately but the less you do it the better you’ll feel and also you deserve self love so be kind to yourself

i am what you would call umm depressed

in a sex obsessed society having vulvodynia, vaginismus or any other sort of pelvic floor dysfunction is like a curse bc at the end of the day everything in one way or another seems to come back to sex and im just like well i can’t do that so what now

vulvodynia and vaginismus suck not only are they invisible burdens that barely anyone is aware of but it’s also so fucking embarrassing and humiliating like how am i supposed to tell people sorry my coochie is broken what the fuck

is feeling and being incredibly lonely just part of the becoming an adult experience like whats up with that

2020 has been so shit and on top of that this year i somehow got uglier like have i not suffered enough

ya know one thing that i’m slowly accepting is that its ok for me to feel all this pain and it’s okay to be angry about it i shouldn’t expect myself to be happy about this. i don’t have to pretend. im allowing myself to feel all these things bc it’s all part of me