FML

My depression has been so bad in the past couple of months. I stopped taking my anxiety/depression medicine last year because it wasn't really helping. Instead of being honest about that, I lied to everyone except my husband about it. Then my relationship with my husband started going through a rough patch, and I told my Mama that I hadn't been on my meds. She convinced me to be honest with my doctor, and I finally told him about it. He put me back on my meds, and it's definitely an adjustment. I'm still not back to my normal self, I haven't been my normal self in a long time, but I'm hopeful that I'll get there. I'm happy to say that at least my depressive thoughts are fading. I was having really bad thoughts about just offing myself. I obviously didn't have the nerve to do it because I couldn't do that to my girls. My 3 daughters have saved me more times than I can count, and they don't even know it. I will forever be grateful to my children for just being my whole entire world, my lifeline. Mommy will get better for her babies. ❤️