sunshine's coming soon

of the more confusing waking dreams i've been having recently, and among the total and constant nightmares and stress, i was listening to music, and there was a transition between two sounds or songs, and even though i suspected none of it was analog, i felt the dj turning the knob like the knob itself was embedded in my spine. immediately, i was totally enveloped, the music passed from hand to hand and finally down to me, and it's not really like i felt the dragon energy coursing through my body or anything, i was just amazed at the full force of each person who had the track pass through their hands, and me, not-so-subtly trying to understand them, what led them here, with the full power of my thinking. i really miss making art. lately i can only imagine concepts as constellations and then as collapsing stars or exploding data centers or batteries exploding on phones or myself, outside of myself, struggling so hard to grow. God help me, i can do it. i can do it