turn into somebody i dont know.

♡

one hand pressed against the small of her back, another tangled in her hair and his lips explored her skin. her head tipped back, giving him more access to the sensitive skin without her mind consciously telling it to move. carly felt completely out of control of her actions, thoughts she would never even consider racing through her mind. “you’re making me go crazy,” she said, her voice coming out in a pathetic, breathy whine as he used the hand at her back to press her flush against him. she wanted to slide onto his lap, wrap her legs around his waist, and that desire in itself had to be the influence of dionysus in him, his ability to spark madness. dax was making her lose her mind, quite literally. “why? you just like to torment me?”

                   THE SMOOTH SURFACE of her skin slid under the warm presses of his lips, unable to help himself in his greed to drive her crazy, even without his powers coming into play. and she gave in, feeling the way more skin was offered in the tilt of her head, making him smirk against the curve of her shoulder as she finally breathed out what he so longed to hear. “yeah?” he whispered out near her ear, loving the tones of that whine she offered out to him. humming lowly as his fingers danced up the curve of her spine, he kissed under her ear as he couldn’t help how he chuckled under his breath, “i can’t lie and say it isn’t hot as fuck, no. but i don’t think you mind it at all, do you?” he asked as he let his warm breath tickle against her neck, fingers creeping under the hem of her shirt.

♡

volunteering for this formal was starting to become much more trouble than it was worth. seth was already spending late nights trying to keep his grades at a passable level, but now adding painting signs to his list of responsibilities was threatening to send him into academic probation. he was just planning to slip into the studio, sneak away with some paint, and return it before anyone even realized it was missing, when he pushed open the door and discovered that he wasn’t alone. “oh,” he echoed. both of them stood frozen, staring at each other, each caught in the act separately. “sorry, i didn’t realize. i just needed some paint. have you killed someone?”

              STANDING THERE, HANDS almost dripping with red paint, he chuckled a little under his breath. albeit, a little nervously, as he shook his head left and right, “i haven’t, i promise, i was just working on a silly still life thing for a project. i just, i wanted it to be perfect and the detailing is better using your hands and-” sighing, he stopped himself short as he motioned to the cabinet behind him with a little tilt of his head, “but the extra paint is in the cabinet back there to the left, as usual.” carefully, he moved to the sinks nearest him to rinse his hands clean as he cleared his throat, “are you working on something?”

she’s been running the same routine for what seems like ever but is more like the past hour. music blaring from the small speaker under the tree as she tries to perfect the cheer, going back to the notebook laying open on the grass as she jots down different ideas. the task being that much more complicated by the pair of eyes that seem to follow her which threaten to throw her off as she finds herself occasionally looking back before deciding to do something about it. storming toward him, she stops short just a few inches away as her hands find their way onto her hips. “okay, so like i get it, i’m hot but literally take a picture, it’ll last longer.”

liliana: um actually

liliana: maybe we're just better off...

liliana: if you like idk

liliana: move on with your life

liliana: like without me in it

teddy: lilly....

teddy: look, am i frustrated with you? yes.

virginia: you're sorry????

virginia: no.

virginia: are you kidding me?? you're so angry at me that you really thought the best way to spite me was to fuck some random girl in my own bed? do you even get how messed up that is?

virginia: i get it. i hurt you and i'm sorry. whether or not you believe me, i actually am truly sorry for all the pain i've caused you, theo.

virginia: was it worth it? do you feel better now? did you manage to get all that anger out of your system?????

teddy: i don't know what you want me to say, i can't travel back in time and undo it virginia, all i can do is apologize because it was fucked up.

teddy: you slept with me and left me in the middle of the night! yes i was angry! i wanted to hurt you like you hurt me, and that wasn't right, i'm not that type of person!

virginia: funny how you said i fucked you over and it somehow gives you the right to fuck someone in my bed.

virginia: how fucking dare you, theodore.

virginia: you know, i get that you're still pissed and that i hurt you, but that was really low and that's coming from me.

virginia: also, thanks for letting me find out from someone else. that was truly great and not humiliating AT ALL.

teddy: ....right.

teddy: look i'm sorry, it was fucked up for me to do that, i was drunk and just so mad and....it wasn't right.

liliana: i was hoping we could talk...

teddy: oh?

teddy: for real?

she gives him an understanding nod , pushing down any worry that comes along with his statement. the fact that they’re both carved from the same cloth, makes them master’s at avoiding actually talking about their feelings. instead, she finds herself making light at it, deciding that if and when he ever wants to talk about, he’d let her know. “ah. well, next time, remember to come find me. sharing is caring, after all — i get a fix to help me sleep and you don’t have to worry about not making it out in one piece.” lips purse together as eyes focus from dax onto the floor as she debates the thought for a moment. it sounds a little weird? she keeps the thought to herself and instead responds with a shrug. “what do you end up dreaming with the psychedelic?” she can’t help but ask, extremely curious by what effects it has on his dreams. “every time i try to open my mouth to make things better, i just end up making things worse,” she sighs, “still? i’m sorry.” the irony of how both of them fucked things up with the children of zeus doesn’t escape her, especially considering her friendship with june and their golden rule of not mentioning the other’s brother. “oh, we’re definitely the pride and joy of dionysus, that’s for sure.”

-

the last quest ophelia had been on hadn’t gone well. she’d been directly responsible for the death of one of her friends and then she’d used the trauma to bond with the third person she’d brought: the guy she had a crush on. if karma exists, which ophelia believes it does, the likelihood of her returning from this quest alive, let alone intact is slim. she sighs, stepping closer and pulling him in for a hug. “i was going to ask you to come. but i can’t risk you.” theo would be powerful to have on a quest, but perhaps too powerful. a son of zeus would draw the attention of every monster in the country, whereas three demigods of less powerful lineage might be able to skate relatively under the radar. 

-

       NOT BEING ABLE to protect the ones he cared about was difficult for him to do, especially in the face of monsters, he’d fought off more than he could recall, so having been turned away was hard for him. “risk me? ophelia, i want to help protect you...” he murmured, reaching out and wrapping his arms around her, cheek resting atop her blonde locks as he took a deep breath. “i can’t let you go, please, let me help.” selflessness ran through him as he pulled back a bit, hazel eyes scanning her face in some sort of silent plea. the time he’d spent with her, pretending to be her boyfriend, protecting her from weirdos in bars and events...it only made him want to be that for real, to be the one who helped fight off monsters by her side. 

[ closed for @delicatedemis​ ]

“you look like shit.” valerio tossed a water bottle into dax’s lap where he lay, sprawled across the couch. he recognized the signs of a binge all too well; it was like looking in a mirror, although they didn’t share much of a family resemblance apart from their dark eyes. “couldn’t make it to bed?”

          “FOR THE RECORD, i never look like shit.” he said easily, feeling the cool press of a water bottle in his lap now, slowly and sloth-like as he reached over and opened it. “maybe, and what’s it to you? i didn’t know you were the house judge, i had a long night.” dax admitted with a little shrug, bringing the water to his lips, a shining light for the cotton mouth he was going through already.

‘ i don’t know if you know this, but i’ve avoided death for a REASON.

          i  don’t  get  a  luxury  of  having  the  GODS’  FAVOR  when  it  comes  to  this  bullshit  .      i  fulfilled  my  prophecy  & & &  clocked  in  my  losses  ,  i  don’t  need  any  more  fucking  death  ! ! !      ’  they’re  acutely  aware  of  the  fact  that  the  fates  love  to  toy  with  their  life  in  ways  such  as  this  :  giving  someone  they  love  an  action  that  doesn’t  align  with  june’s  morals  .      call  it  a  sick  version  of  monopoly  where  the  end  goal  is  to  get  the  child  of  zeus  out  of  this  realm  or  call  it  june  rolling  with  the  wrong  crowd  .      it  wouldn’t  matter  WHAT  the  label  is  ,  the  pattern  still  twists  her  life  at  the  utter  worst  times  .      ‘  oh  boohoo  ! ! !  like  YOU  don’t  do  the  exact  same  bullshit  ,  dax  .      do  you  deserve  the  death  penalty  for  that  ,  as  well  ? ? ?  since  you’ve  decided  to  be  JUDGE  ,  JURY  ,  & & &  EXCUTIONER  .      what  if  he  has  worse  people  behind  him  ――  you  think  you’re  able  to  handle  them  ,  too  ? ? ?      ’  she  falls  onto  the  seat  next  to  her  ,  legs  dangling  off  of  it’s  arms  as  though  this  is  some  pleasant  late  night  discussion  .      ‘  are  you  prepared  for  what  you  could’ve  just  gotten  US  into  ? ? ?      ’

SOSA GIVES TEDDY AN UNDERSTANDING nod, “ yeah, i know. not wanting to miss out on anything.. i get it !! ” he couldn’t imagine keeping up with half of the things teddy did, it was admirable, in his eyes. the blue-eyed boy leans forward a bit, excited to see his friend so excited. sosa can’t help but hold onto every word teddy says, though thoughts seem come to a halt as the mood half-heartedly sours. he briefly glances at the other’s disappointed expression, before taking the cupcake to inspect for himself. “ please.. i think it’s got character, still !! —besides, ” sosa starts, looking up to his friend, “ the fact you even made it for me in the first place means it’s perfect. wanna split it ?? ”

                   “I HAVE THIS AWFUL case of fomo, it’s like something i can’t really shake, there’s just so much out there i can’t help myself.” he admitted somewhat bashfully, nibbling on the inside of his cheek, knowing he had a reputation of being all over the place. glancing up whenever sosa leaned forward, his hazel gaze looked at the boy’s stunning blue eyes for a split second before clearing his throat, “uh, yeah so.....it was this cool rainbow tye-dye thing for pride and now it’s, this.” teddy huffed out, although his sad expression softens whenever sosa still credited him and complimented the sweet, “you don’t have to be nice, i messed it up, but it’ll probably taste good still.” pausing, he nodded and carefully split the cupcake into two and gave sosa the bigger half, “here, fingers crossed it tastes better than it looks.”

her stomach drops at his words , leaving her at a complete loss. words that reinforce what she already knows, memories made throughout the years where he’s proved time and time again just how loyal he is. he’s stuck with her through thick and thin and despite that, she keeps running away in fear. insecurities always getting the best of her, the lingering thought that he’ll one day realize she’s too broken to bother with, psyching her out to the point of running away. his actions have never suggested anything for her to rationally jump to the conclusion that he’d hurt her. instead, it’s continuously her actions that hurt them both. “i know, theo, i know,” she whispers, frustrated at herself, “it’s not that i don’t want to trust you, i do. there’s nothing more that i want than to stop running away but i keep getting scared and i know it’s not right, much less fair but i can’t help it. everything i said to you that night was true though. despite the fact that i left without saying anything, everything i said before that was true.” she grows quiet for a moment, a cautious gaze falling on him that softens at his words. her instinctive reaction is to look away, put up yet another wall that will allow her to keep some type of power over her emotions. vulnerability not being an emotion she let’s herself deal with and teddy asking her to be honest puts her in a place she rarely allows herself to be in. “can’t we still?” his answer only leaves her in that much more confusion. buried emotions unexpectedly surfacing that night leaving her with more questions than answers. silence fills the air once again as she meets his eyes. a variety of emotions bubbling inside of her as she tries to find the right thing to say before she manages to spit something out. “i can’t lose you,” she admits, fear lingering in her tone knowing how much she has to lose, “you’ve always been a part of my life, even when we weren’t together, you were still around. and i know you said you couldn’t hate me but right now it really feels like you do which i don’t blame you, i hate me too. i really fucked up and i don’t know how to fix things. i want to so badly.” a dry laugh leaves her lips as tears well in her eyes. “if there’s anything i wish i could fix, it’d be going back to christmas break and not walking away. that was the dumbest thing i’ve ever done and i shouldn’t have. i should have been honest with you then just like i should have been honest with you on your birthday instead of leaving in the middle of the night.” chest rises as she takes a deep inhale, exhaling through her nose. “i’m terrified, t. i’m so fucking scared and every time i try to fix things i just make them worse and i can’t seem to make it stop.”

      “  i  don’t  think  you’ll  mind  it  later  ,  “  it’s  a  faint  ,  sing   ――  song  voice  under  their  breath  .  they  can’t  help  the  hubris  smirk  that  twists  pretty  pink  lips  as  he  leans  behind  them  .  it’s  like  a  sick  game  between  them  ,  always  trying  to  figure  out  who  can  keep  their  composure  the  longest  .  & &  astrid  continues  to  play  the  game  ,  leaning  against  him  while  looking  up  at  him  .  "  it’s  an  outline  for  my  senior  project  .  i’m  suppose  to  do  an  experiment  of  some  sort  .  ”  their  free  hand  running  over  his  lightly  ,  they  square  off  another  section  of  their  paper  & &  underline  the  header  .  ”  do  you  have  any  homework  or  are  you  just  here  to  watch  me  ? ?  “

♡

she hadn’t expected her impassioned speech to actually have an effect, but he seemed to react. maybe that was just how all guys were with a girl on their lap; it certainly fit the stereotype of what a guy in his twenties would do when confronted with the same situation, but she had no experienced to speak of to know if it was the truth. laurel’s breath caught as she found herself scooped up into his arms, both of them barely coming up for air between the moment she was lifted off the couch and feeling her back pressed against the wall. she took a breath as his lips trailed down her neck to the most sensitive spot and he pressed against her. after a moment, laurel slipped one leg down, giving herself a better footing. she reached for the doorknob beside them, leaning her head against the wall as looking at teddy. “last chance to change your mind,” she said as she pushed the door open and entered before him, slipping her shirt over her head and dropping it onto the floor as she waited for him to follow.

FTB

IT WAS KIND OF HARD to think whenever you had a pretty girl grinding up on you in your lap, better judgement slipping from the tips of his fingers, falling into a black abyss in the back of his mind. normally, an idea like the one she posed would have gotten hesitation and rejection, but right now he was a little too distracted to do the right thing. then she was on the ground, looking up at him with tempting eyes and giving him another out, but her shirt was discarded and he didn’t even take a moment to walk in behind her and close the door quickly behind himself. 

♡

she was in danger of ripping the fabric of his shirt as her fingers twisted into a fist, all of the pent up tension struggling for release in some form. he held her steady as her lips parted against his and she allowed her instincts to take over, the tip of her tongue tracing the shape of his bottom lip before she bit down softly, experimentally, still testing the waters. she had never kissed someone like this before. she had never been kissed like this before, in a way that made her strain for more contact between them. the hand that held his collar slipped down, finding one of dax’s belt loops as she shifted forward. her head spun as she parted from him just long enough to take a breath. “what are you doing?” she asked before leaning in again.

HE FELT THE WAY she pulled at his shirt, needy in a way that sent him reeling, getting this put together girl to fall apart for him was far too intoxicating for his own good. the smooth glide of her tongue along his bottom lip prompted for him to part his petals, feeling the way her teeth captured and tugged at it in a way that earned a low sigh to crawl up his throat. it was hot, this whole thing was hot, and he moved his fingers into her hair to tangle his digits there. the tension had risen to new stakes and when her fingers moved to his belt loops for a little tug, he smirked against her lips, the breathless question was one that hung between them for only a split second, “what do you mean?” dax whispered into her mouth, hands tracing down the dip of her back, pulling her in closer as he left kisses along the curve of her jaw.

liliana: hey can we talk?

liliana: if you're not too busy

liliana: i know you've got a pretty busy schedule