go farther in lightness
dialogue prompts from gang of youthsâs 2017 album.
hey, iâll miss you when you leave.
i was a boy once, now iâm a kind-of-adult.
i feel it all, i feel everything.
iâm terrified of loving âcause iâm terrified of pain.
i was only a kid when i fell and you tossed me aside.
can you still show me the way?
what can i do if the fire goes out?
iâm not leaving tonight.
get that thing out of my face.
iâm not dumb and you people canât dick me around.
you can rot in your sleep.
iâll watch as you bleed.
i have come for my shit and i wonât take less than that.
i will love you, but love not the powers you serve.
do not grow complacent and take less than what you deserve.
iâll always struggle to think of you in a harsh way.
i know that itâs weird but i still see you for the human beneath.
i wish that i was in love with your endless bullshit.
in my blood, some electric holy yearning carries an impulse to get shit-faced on you.
since weâve been talking, iâm not sure if i believe anything.
when did everything get this weird?
did you ever believe in me?
i deserve better than this.
do not let this thing you got go to waste.
where you go, iâm going, so jump and iâm jumping.
there is no me without you.
no audience could ever want you.
you crave the applause yet hate the attention.
itâs not worth it, ____.
you asked for my counsel, i gave you my thoughts.
no one asked for your thoughts.
can you hear me, ____? iâm talking to you.
i thought i had a real understanding then of loss, but i didnât know a thing âtil you were gone.
i used to wanna be important, now i just wanna be alive.
itâs okay to feel unbelievably lost.
i live hard 'cause i am scared that i wonât mean anything.
you want someone to want you for who you are.
look at me and tell me what i already know.
sometimes life sucks, everything is lame.
you give me a good reason to be heartsick again.
itâs no secret that iâve been losing my way.
itâs not a bad time, time spent with you.
we never have to talk again, whatever, up to you.
i want someone to want me for who i am.
iâm not looking for redemption nor some shallow kind of bliss.
lay me down and kiss me deeply, show me everything i missed.
the heart is a muscle and i wanna make it strong.
i let bad love betray me once and i guess i fear the same results.
i wanna be loved, i wanna be whole again.
i just ask you to be patient if youâll have me still.
not everything means something, honey.
wonât you fear me tonight?
letâs drink, drink the best wine now.
i will accept you, warts and all.
iâve forgotten who i was.
youâre only human after all.
let me love with a vengeance.
did i tell you that i spent most of my sisterâs wedding stoned?
say yes to grace! say no to spite!
say yes to me! say yes to love!