𓆩 chloe 𓆪

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Happy Halloween (written 10/31/25)

I was so excited

Excitement is starting to become a negative emotion that immediately triggers anxiety

Because if im excited

That means ill be let down

More likely than not.

You wanted to sleep in

Even though we woke up on time for everything

You didnt care

You only thought for yourself

So whenever you say im the selfish one in the relationship

I cant help but think of all those promises you made me

That you just didn't keep.

-c

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Pink (written 10/22/25)

Cigarettes can't light When the breeze is burning bright Try again, embers forgiven Moving on with little delight The world is in your hands And you choose to hold a weapon Inhale inside i cant defend myself because im not guessing I think its beautiful The way you choose your life I think its great you have choice even if its not right The fire in her hair She could go anywhere I wonder if the wind can whisper to me if I should even care

-c

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Text Note (written 10/18 and 10/29)

Im sorry i make everything so hard You always talk about how theres nobody on earth that can do anything right Im sorry i am one of them Im trying Im on your side I know your on mine aswell but Please be patient with me When i say i want to change into my pjs first Or that im so hungry i feel sick and want to eat Please just let me I will do chores after And when i go to the bathroom Stop calling for me I dont get much alone time other than now You read that in red And spit green onto me 10/18 Yet again i ruin another night I spilled my drink and took too long to put away the pizza Now you tell me im ruining the mood Im sorry. 10/19

-c

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Isolation Vacation (written 9/15/25)

Its cool when you can have a day all to yourself Where its just you and no one else That way you can pick whatever you want to do That way you can't mess things up I dream of isolation Thats my vacation destination Leave me alone And i won't hurt you anymore

-c

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Plant (written 9/10/25)

A nuclear sun peaking through the mist Corruption casts its shadow on the evening eclipse Im scared of what could come When theres no more flowers to gift us seldom I hope you know just what youve done Your smoke rings and violence just is no fun I've twisted galaxies just for you Call me stupid, oh its what you do. Stuck in the bloody roots of your rotting willow tree The church bells arent ringing. Its silent besides the thinking Time passes by, I let it be But the sky is still violet While the worms consume me

-c

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Lamb's Lullaby (written 5/18/25)

I guess you could say I feel a bit of fear The wolves are quiet when they sleep Their mouths dont ever bleed So i wanted to rest I just wanted to rest You taught me how the kindest dogs Can still bite me Just flesh and bone To be sacrificed for the needs of others Feast upon me im the veil It's easy to forget that they ever feel Beat me mush me into meat Mince me make me so complete I cant help but write so evil when Ive been raised to be the veil It hurts so much That i cant feel Sometimes i feel like im dying when I'm with you I feel so stupid feel so abusive when i really just wanna be adored

-c

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The venom you spit (written 3/5/25)

I cannot sleep tonight I've waited all day to rest But now that i am here All the evil things you have done and said to me Wont stop leaking from my eyes Leave me alone You have hurt me enough

-c

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Ugly (written 2/20/25)

We never fuck You never want to If we do i dont cum Because you finished too fast I cant sugar coat it I need something more I need what you've shown to give me before Have i lost my spark? Is it my skin? My weight? Do i need to do my makeup everyday? Do i need to dress up everyday? I can do myself up and everything i can think of and still Nothing. Not a single blink from you I'm just really starting to wonder If there's anything i can do Broken glass is not diamonds And I cant paint myself pretty But i can learn to be silent And dream of a different city

-c

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Memories (2/6/25)

Every night before bed I'm always thinking of you The sweet things you've said to me And the adventures I've shared You know my deepest secrets And i know all of yours But these are now just memories That wets my cheeks before i close my eyes

-c

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Guilty (written 1/30/25)

I live so selfishly I ruin shit so easily I dont know where i belong But i dont know if its here Your arms dont feel like home Because home shouldn't make me feel guilty

-c

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:) (written 1/22/25)

I'm too much But also not enough Too much to handle But not enough to love Why don't you care about anything i say or anything i do When im lighting myself on fire As the world torches around you I am not your world I am not your garden But your a thousand flowers to me Even though i am just a small bug What is it about me Tell me what's so hard to love

-c

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:( (written 12/12/24)

[ ] "You can just never stop talking" [ ] "Just shut up" [ ] "Are you stupid/retarded?'" [ ] "You're so fucking stupid/retarded." [ ] "I hate you i hate you i hate you" [ ] "You ruin everything" [ ] "Why are you so fucking stupid?" [ ] "Do i have to break up with you?" [ ] "Sorry that i have to break it down so much since you're a sensitive baby" [ ] "You are why i hate myself" [ ] "Nobody could love you but me" [ ] "You are insane" [ ] "Do you have psychosis?" [ ] "You're right. It is because you aren't doing enough." [ ] "You ruined my life"