It’s so scary and difficult to open up to people. Not because I don’t want to or because I don’t trust them. But because I don’t want to bother them, I don’t want to drag them down or make them see me in a different more negative way. I don’t want to lose them.

sleeping is fine until you wake up and realize youre still alive

My home will be a home with no loud anger, no explosive rage, no slamming doors or breaking glass, no name calling, shaming or blackmail. My home will be gentle, it will be warm. It will keep my loved ones safe. No fear, no hurt and no worries. I may come from a broken and twisted place but I will build something whole and safe. I’ll sing in the shower again, cook with a smile and dance in all the rooms. I will heal.