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i love how call it what you want came out years ago and still absolutely melts me every time i hear it. like all the drama queens taking swings?? all the joker’s dressing up as kings??? they fade to nothing when i look at him!!! i wanna drink that shit with a straw it’s so pure 

the way taylor sang the “yes” in ciwyw on tour……invented my belief in love 

“i never had the courage of my convictions as long as danger is near and it’s just around the corner, darling ‘cause it lives in me” gives me the chills every. single. time. 

i haven’t been able to stop thinking about “and i’m not sure if it was pouring my thoughts into this album, hearing thousands of your voices sing the lyrics back to me in passionate solidarity, or if it was simply time, but something was healed along the way” all day 

people who relate to tolerate it on a level so deep they feel they could have written it make some noise 

it’s just really special how taylor’s music has lived through every moment possible with me. through first days of school and graduations. moving and coming home. extreme moments of sadness and the highest points of joy. listened to in a corner of my room or across the world. coffee shop runs and workouts. while grocery shopping and also dancing at prom. at weddings, birthday parties and every single holiday. while cooking dinner and writing letters. driving down the highway and front row at a concert. shoveling snow and planting flowers. alone and with my closest friends. her lyrics have guided me through so many important moments in my life, big and small. its the biggest constant in my life, it’s my home. 

when taylor swift screams “I GET SAD!!!” 

hahhaaha thinking about how the fearless tour book had I will always love writing songs about boys. I will always love costume changes. and I will always love you" written in it…..and how she truly always has <3

no but the idea of taylor re-recording love story with the original secret message being “someday i’ll find this” while she really has found that is making me sick

getting “i thought that it would kill me but it didn’t” on lover, “pulled the car off the road to the lookout could have followed my fears all the way down” on folklore and “pushed from the precipice climbed right back up the cliff” on evermore is a lot 

thinking about where taylor was when she said “someday, when you get where you’re going, you will look around and you will know - it was you, and the people who love you, who put you there. and that will be the greatest feeling in the world” and where she is now never fails to make me emotional 

when taylor swift said “we have mirrorballs in the middle of a dance floor because they reflect light, they are broken a million times and that’s what makes them so shiny. we have people like that in society too. they hang there and every time they break it entertains us. and when you shine a light on them - it’s this glittering, fantastic thing, but a lot of the time when the spotlight isn’t on them they’re just, they’re just still there up on a pedestal but no one is watching them”

sometimes i remember “i knew i’d wish you would have changed your mind i knew you’d miss me once the moment died i knew to love would be to lose my mind” were the original lyrics and a piece of my heart breaks off