But I'm a riot

http://jezebel.com/xojane-publishes-terrible-article-by-a-woman-who-s-glad-1777778960 This is going to be them when I do end up doing it lmao Also Carter unfollowed me. You know, the guy who blocked me when I told him I was thinking about suicide. What took him so long? I’m a bit salty that he won’t see my rants again

Tbh I don't think I'll ever stop feeling like shit about this. I'm always going to be some kind of sad or miserable until the situation is fixed somehow but none of them looks like they're going to help me anytime soon.

G r e a t my holidays in france were ruined because I was fucking miserable after what happened with the first server and now my holidays in Italy are going to be ruined because I’m literally suicidal now. The landscape of the place does look kinda dangerous tho. Let’s just hope for a miracle or a little help from “my clumsy feet”. Hopefully tomorrow is the last time I ever see Belgium again

honestly if he complains I’ll just tell him it’s his fault for not actually telling me he doesn’t want me around and jk I’m just going to have a panic attack and cry

Part of why being fictionkin is so weird is because when you get into a fight with someone or when someone hurts you, it doesn’t change what they did in the source so you look at fandom and they all worship that person, let’s say, Yata as an example, and you’re like “Why on earth do they like this fucking cunt??”

what kills me the most is that they probably don’t give a shit? Like they just destroyed another human being, probably on purpose, and then just keep on living (well, it IS questionable whether or not I’m a human being. And it’s because of the way they treated me that I’m questioning this) But another thing: stop putting so much emphasis on lecturing and scolding and start comforting people. I’m literally depressed, traumatized and self-loathing to the point where I believe my death is needed. An anon ask saying that other people are uncomfortable around me and I need to “better myself” just makes me feel worse. Also, other people are uncomfortable around me? I thought you ll hated me with a burning passion and would physically slit my throat and stomach and gouge my eyes out and just let out all your anger on me with a rusty screwdriver if given the chance. I’m just saying. Especially since Sukuna just blocked me when I told him I was scared I might kill myself. Well, glad to know the people I was attached to would gladly let me die

I’m too scared to look in k project kin tag but thinking that I can’t take part in the community anymore hurts like hell I don’t know what to do