A Deep look into our minds

I hate math, HATE it!

When you ask people about me I guarantee you that they will say that I'm very quiet, but I won't lie I am quiet( sometimes). The thing is that I'm not completely shy I actually have so much to say, so many questions to ask, so many opinions to share, and so many comments to make yet I stay quiet. So many people ask me why I'm so quiet but I only shrug my shoulders because I don't know how to respond to that question but right now as I sit in the car alone in the rain I found the answer. The reason I am so quiet is because there is no one to listen and if they "listen" they hear what I'm saying, they see my mouth moving but are they really paying attention? No they are not. I know that they don't listen because they never respond or they change the subject. I am quiet because I haven't been in the presence of someone who actually cares about everything that goes on inside my head and trust me it's a lot. I have so much stored in my mind and I don't want to share it with someone who is not willing to listen to me. I don't care who the person is I just want to talk to someone and have them listen, they don't have to agree with what I say that's is okay with me but I know when someone cares about my words because they give me their opinion, that's all I ask for. With all honestly I am quiet just because I feel like no one likes to spend time listening to what I have to say just because the way I think is different than theirs, I haven't been in the same room with someone who is actually willing to process what I'm saying and sharing their thoughts with me therefore I'm quiet. "Sometimes people have a lot to say, all you have to do is listen" _________________________________ If you read this post thank you because you are one of the few that is actually listening to me even if you can hear my voice. Thank you for reading this post, it means a lot because you are actually paying attention to what I have to say and that doesn't really happen with me and the actually people that I interact with! 💕

Some people are afraid of it. Some people look forward to it. To be completely honest it's ridiculous to me the idea of being afraid of death. Death is the only the in this world that is promised and true. At one point of death, everything is over. All the pain, stress, melancholy, everything it's all gone. I'm not saying it's always a good thing because all the relationships between you and everyone you ever met, "loved",hated, everything you ever accomplished in your life, that's all over too. I'm not going to say that there's a heaven or hell because I've never died so I have no proof of what is on the other side. It could just be an afterlife. It could be reincarnation. Whatever it is or wherever we go to when our time comes, I personally believe death is the only way to truly rest in piece. They don't say that just because, they say it because when you're alive you're worried about so many things and you never truly have time to take a break. "The sad thing about life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it." I really like this quote because being alive doesn't mean that you're living. I haven't figured it out myself so I'm not going to tell you what living means. I could tell you that if your alive and you feel empty inside and you feel like your stuck in a cycle that will never end and you don't enjoy life then I don't don't think your truly living. I feel like this sometimes and I hate the fact that they tell you to "live life to the fullest" but then they tell you how they want you to live your life. When I say "they" I mean society, teachers, parents or just anyone who ever told you how you should live your life. You and only you can have the power to decide how you want to live your life and what living means to you. ---------- I realize I went from talking about death to life but you can't have one without the other right? Anyway if you're reading this I appreciate it so much and I would really like to know what you think of my rants!! 😊

Can you drive? I can't drive and that's so sad I'm 16 years old and I don't drive. I laugh at myself but I guess one less car on the road means less pollution, no? Most of the time people make fun of me cause I don't drive but I'm scared to drive. Driving seems like such a scary thing to me but I'll eventually have to do it. It's Just scary to think that I can crash or someone will crash into my car. I don't know I feel like my safety while driving depends on me but doesn't it also depend on the other drivers kind of? Maybe just a little? Here's what I think, I need to know how to properly drive so I can be safe and so that the cars around me are safe too cause if I drive decently I won't crash or cause a riot hence it should be like that for the other drivers, they should just be paying attention to the road! Haha well maybe this is just how I think! Point is I'm scared to drive! 😁 ________________________________ I'm all about road safety so if you are going to drive text/tweet #x to whoever you're having a conversation with so they know you're about to hit the road and alert them that they shouldn't text you and you can't text back! Also I would like to note that this campaign has no idea that our blog exists so they are not paying us for promo...

We'll update the second week of every month. Let me just say that some moths there will not be updated cause sometimes there are no updates.✖️

So Abigail and I started this blog a couple of weeks ago and we haven't really shared what's going on with us so I took it upon myself to give you a little update! Let's start with the most amazing thing we met Jacob Whitesides and I really appreciate the fact that Abigail came with me because I love Jacob so much and all I wanted was to meet him so he knows that I support him and love him so so much!! Other than that we have just been doing a ton of homework because we get so much homework and hardly any time to rest. We have also been studying cause we take loads of test, I would say at least one each week. Also Abigail and I are in student council so we have been busy with that, we recently finished a carnival that went really well and now we are busy planning for homecoming! Other than that nothing has really happened we have just been busy but we are trying our absolute best to post for anyone who reads our posts! ( if you read the post that thank you you're so fab!😘) OH before I forget, today Abigail and I got an amazing opportunity which we never expected and we're really happy OMGG we'll share it soon on the next update time which it will be in 2 weeks!

As I mentioned before in other blogs, I don't believe in love. To clarify, I don't believe in the idea that humans have of love like "falling in love" or finding your "soul mate". In my opinion love is just a combination of lust and human selfishness. You may be attracted to someone. You may feel "symptoms of love" such as heart racing, butterflies in your stomach, studdering, sweaty palms when your near the person. All this to me is just symptoms of lust because you are attracted to the person. As for human selfishness, that person might make you happy so you want to keep them safe and by your side. If for example that person were to die, you wouldn't be upset because they didn't get to experience new things or enjoy life. You would be upset because they made you happy and now they're gone. I guess you could call me bitter but I've never believed in love. You could say those thoughts began when my parents separated. I believe that once, a long time ago, my parents were attracted to each other (lust) and made each other happy (human selfishness). I think that over the years their "love" began to die and they realized it was futile to continue being together if they felt nothing for each other. I've never had an actual experience of love and even if I ever met someone i was attracted to, I doubt they would be able to change my opinion of love. I doubt it because for me, there's no such thing as love. --------------- This is one of the beliefs I feel the most strongly about. I know you guys may disagree or even agree with me and if you have any comments I would like to hear what you guys think of this topic. Even if you don't thank you so much for taking time out of your day to read this!! 😊

Love, easy to spell and hard to understand. I don't know what love means to me, I don't know if it's real or an illusion. I guess one can't really know what love is unless you actually feel it but love is different for everyone so we all might feel it differently at all different times. A personal opinion about love is that it's not bad but at the same time it is not good either. For example, love can be a good things if things go right wether that be with your family, partner, friends etc. In other words if the relationship is stable and healthy then love can be a good thing. However, sometimes we let love fool us because we might think that we love something when in reality that something is breaking us down but we don't realize it because we "love" it. Honestly, love blinds us all, when love is good we only want to focus on that something that we love and if the love is bad we are too blinded to see that love is not really there... _________________________________ So long since a post right? 😮 sorry about that but I'm letting you know that it's because there is too much going on in school and it just started but I didn't want to go long with out posting so I already wrote down the posts for later on this week and they will be published really soon! 💕 THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING!

My Chemical Romance

I don't want to be your girl- Wet

I'm going to be completely honest with myself and you guys, I'm starting to doubt everything in this world. Including religion. I know that we were born and raised for generations and generations to have certain beliefs. However I always think to myself, why do we have to have a religion? I mean is it necessary to believe in something? To worship something? A friend of mine told me that in her church they say that church is more important than school. If that's the case then why are we in trouble if we don't go to school for a long period of time? They honestly confuse me so much because one place says one thing and another place says something else. I don't agree with a lot of rules my church has and yes I feel bad for admitting it but no I will not take it back. I want this blog to be as real as can be and sharing my true opinions on things is how ill do that. For example I don't agree with the rule that says if your not married by the church you have to work for the church. I believe that a woman can be independent and content without any man. The religion I'm raised to believe in is catholic and I've brought up the topic because I'm recently taking conformation classes. It's something else you have to do if you want to get married by the church. Don't get me wrong I don't hate my religion or anything I just don't agree with them often. That's all I have to say about religion.

I'm going to be completely honest with you I don't have much to say about religion. What I can say is that my religion shouldn't affect your life and you're religion doesn't affect mine. Something I strongly believe is that you can believe whatever you want, don't let the influence of others beliefs influence yours and the way that you live your life. Don't be afraid to believe what you want to, it's your life and the path you take revolves around you and the beliefs you want, either religiously or not. Be empowered to believe whatever you want to it's your mind and your feelings, don't feel bad because what you believe is not approved by others, as long as your beliefs don't hurt anyone then it's okay. That's all I'm going to say because I don't really like to talk about religion... __________________________________ This post is super duper short because I believe in something and you guys believe in something else yet I don't want you to feel like your beliefs are wrong. I decided agains expressing my beliefs because I feel like you're religion is something for you to practice and others shouldn't tell you how to practice that. I hope it's okay with you. If you disagree tell me we can talk about it and solve the issue!💕

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Tolstoy

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