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…….hey you guys so I’m in a huge ass pinch. So y'all know I suffer from depression and anxiety and THIS YEAR I just now started receiving my first bout of consistent therapy and medication for it. At the start my therapist asked me if I needed to take a break from a semester to focus on therapy and my head ass said no thinking that I was going to be able to zoom through my last semester of college ( even though I literally had a first terrible month and wasnt performing well because I literally just not started receiving treatment after a really bad break down).

I didn’t wanna disappoint my parents. And I didn’t wanna fuck up my financial aid by not going. So I thought I’d be able to get by but juggling school with trying to learn how to live like a normal person for once in my life has been extremely draining. Everytime I solved one problem there seemed to be another one. It’s just been really crazy and hectic….

So, all in all I am pretty much facing the fact that I am either going to have to medically withdraw from all of my classes and repeat the semester entirely or retake a couple classes. I know I am going to have to retake one and I don’t know how much it may cost. The registrar of my university told me it may ring up to $1500 and up . My parents don’t know about this shit. Imma have to tell them what’s up.

I know all hope is not lost and that imma get my bachelor’s degree. I have a job , planning on getting a couple more and I think my parents will be able to help me so I guess just keep me in prayers. But if any of y'all can donate anything to me even if it’s 25 cents or $1 that’d be really helpful to me. If any one needs me to pay them back what they give in the future that’s fine. Anything helps at this point cuz I don’t know what’s gonna happen to my financial aid at this point. I’m tryna see what happens tomorrow. I’ll keep y'all posted. Thank y'all so much xoxoxo

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(in case you wanted to know because i fucking love this language) 

ad astra per aspera - to the stars through difficulties 

alis volat propriis - he flies by his own wings 

amantium irae amoris integratio est - the quarrels of lovers are the renewal of love 

ars longa, vita brevis - art is long, life is short 

aut insanity homo, aut versus facit - the fellow is either mad or he is composing verses 

dum spiro spero - while I breathe, I hope 

ense petit placidam sub libertate quietem - with the sword, she seeks peace under liberty 

exigo a me non ut optimus par sim sed ut malis melior - I require myself not to be equal to the best, but to be better than the bad

experiential docet - experience teaches 

helluo librorum - a glutton for books (bookworm) 

in libras libertas - in books, freedom 

littera scripta manet - the written letter lasts 

mens regnum bona possidet - an honest heart is a kingdom in itself 

mirabile dictu - wonderful to say 

nullus est liber tam malus ut non aliqua parte prosit - there is no book so bad that it is not profitable in some part 

omnia iam fient quae posse negabam - everything which I used to say could not happen, will happen now 

poeta nascitur, non fit - the poet is born, not made 

qui dedit benificium taceat; narrat qui accepit - let him who has done a good deed be silent; let him who has received it tell it 

saepe ne utile quidem est scire quid futurum sit - often, it is not advantageous to know what will be 

sedit qui timuit ne non succederet - he who feared he would not succeed sat still 

si vis pacem, para bellum - if you want peace, prepare for war 

struit insidias lacrimis cum feminia plorat - when a woman weeps, she is setting traps with her tears 

sub rosa - under the rose 

trahimir omnes laudis studio - we are led on by our eagerness for praise

urbem latericium invenit, marmoream reliquit - he found the city a city of bricks; he left it a city of marble 

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