º☾✦.:｡  a breakup playlist for crybaby.

smother // daughter 

love like this (acoustic) // kodaline

everything we had // the academy is...

video games // lana del rey

eyelids // pvris 

sway // the kooks 

thinking of you // katy perry 

skinny love // bon iver 

big girls don’t cry // fergie 

what kind of man // florence + the machine

princess of china // coldplay feat. rihanna 

london bridge // twenty88 

stars // the xx

it's so hard to be off tour and not be working on something in the meanwhile. john and i landed in paris yesterday, just in time for "easter" or a little more honestly: eating a bunch of candy and just laughing at silly things. i missed them a lot since we didn't really get to see each other after ross and i  broke up. i don't really know what's going on between them and the boys in the band, but whatever it is, i'll always stick up for john. hopefully this weekend will make them feel a little bit better, or less bad.

after we were done eating john went to their room in the hotel to nap and i don't know why but i decided to go through some of my videos. i guess at times it feels nice to look back at them and know that i'm capable of so much. though this time it didn't feel good at all. i know i shouldn't let people's opinions get to me so much but now i'm just kind of embarrassed about so much. it seems like everything about me isn't really enough. my dance, my teeth, my expressions, my singing.. sounds silly but i can't help feeling shittier than usual.