Dear Human Being

Dear Human Being, I sorry. And I actually mean it this time. I'm sorry I hate you so much, I know you're a good person who made a stupid mistake. The problem is everytime I see you I remember how broken I was then and how you somehow managed to break me even more. I'm sorry I'm always such a bitch to you. I don't mean to be I promise but it's my defence mechanism. When I see you I'm always reminded of the pain and I just want to cry. I did once, you got on the train with our friend, you both walked past me and I cried the whole way to college. That was the day you asked me to your party, that was why I was so rude - I didn't want to cry again... The saddest part is I'm over you as a person. What we had was good but despite what everyone said I knew it wouldn't have lasted. But I can't forgive you because it still hurts and truthfully I think it always will, because it would have hurt regardless but you managed to make it worse. I was alone and damaged and even tho I'm stronger now it will always be raw. So sorry, The bitch you cheated on.

Dear Human Beings, I don't really know how I'm supposed to tell you this, but it's been too long and you need to know. You also need to know I'm done with you because I can't take it anymore. I don't hate him cause I'm a bitch. I hate him because I was at the lowest I could possibly be and he broke me more. You saw how broken I was and left me alone. After a week you told me I should be over it. I cried everyday for a month and I was too scared to tell anyone in case they broke me again like he did. You were supposed to be my friends and not one of you ask me if I was alright. Not even that time I burst out crying and ran out of college. Not one of you even text me to ask why or asked me the next day if I was alright. Well let me ask you, how alright would you feel if your mum had cancer and the only person you trusted enough to tell broke your heart and left you for your best friend? Now imagine if your friends sided with that person because they felt sorry for his struggle. Now imagine if people started excluding you from things because you isolated yourself and the majority of the time it was to be alone so you could cry. You know I use to hold everything in and cry only on the bus and the train because I didn't wan my mum to feel worse and I knew you guys wouldn't understand? I tried so hard to keep it together and somehow I still did better than you all in or exams. So I don't need that in my life anymore. It was a good year but it wasn't worth the hurt. Goodbye, Girl who needs to move on.